1 introdution,,,,

Winter in Japan makes Japan more beautiful, it's 9 in the morning but Kakeru is still lying on the bed, he has a mobile in his hand and he is reading the news of the trip from the college which is only for the ex students...

. The servants of the house call Kakeru from outside for breakfast, but Kakeru is not bothered by it.

He laughs and says, "Well, who cares if I don't have breakfast? Mom and Dad probably don't even remember that they have a son, because they don't have any time other than making money.

After about half an hour, Kakeru got up from the bed and went out without having breakfast... Light sunlight is coming on his face, Kakeru looks at the sun and says... My name is Kakeru,i am also from Tokyo and I am the only one child of a rich father, I have always tolerated my wealth, because of being rich I have not had any good friends, none of my girlfriends loved me but loved my money, what is true love? ...I don't know about that, because all the people in the world are greedy for money, ,,but I can say about myself that I have taken advantage of my being rich, I used to be rich during my college days. I have pretended, I have never studied, I always used to succeed in exams in the name of my rich father...

But... But today when I look back, I feel how hollow I was, I have not done anything on my own till date but I regret that I used to enjoy my father's money. Am I, do I have any existence of my own? ??

How useless I am.... Now I need a relief, I need a family, who cares for me, I need a partner who loves me, not my money....

I know this is only my imagination... These things never become true... Because I am a rich boy, everyone cares me,, because of my money,, not for me..... .. I am alone in this world, no I am not an orphan, I have family members but they are rich parents, and rich parents do not have time for their children, they like to spend time with money more than their children. enjoy spending time with money , I am sad to admit that I am the child of rich parents, I was alone since childhood and am alone even today, it is not that there are no people around me, but still I am in a crowd of people.but I am alone. I have fucked a lot of girls in my life so far but I have never felt satisfied, I don't know what I want from a partner but I can feel that I don't want anything from selfish people, and in the world All the people are selfish so I want to stay away from everyone..

And then a person saying... Kakeru.... Kakeru... In high voice...

Kakeru become out from his imagination and turn back..

He got his childhood friend is calling him ....

Kakeru is very happy because chisiya a true friend from the childhood, .... Kakeru's only friend is Chishiya, who is always very kind to Kakeru, supporting him in all of Kakeru's endeavors. ...

Both of them are talking to each other while having breakfast in a restaurant.

Chisiya says "What is the next plan...?" I heard that the college has planned a trip for ex-students. .

Kakeru takes a bite of cake and says, yes this is true"I'm going to participate in a 10-day college trip and then take care of dad's business

chisiya shake his head and smile little bit..... and says "" this is benifits of  rich son, because of no need to struggle for make money....

Kakeru says Fuck of man ..... You are also coming with me on collage trips. .. I don't know enything else....

Although Kakeru knows that he is completely alone in his life, it is better to take Chishiya along with him rather than going alone on the college trip. But this is the first time that a trip has been planned by the college for the ex students, I didn't realize how fast the time was passing, today it has been five years since Kakeru graduated but it feels like this that college day will happen tomorrow itself. . ....

What happened? Why you are looking little sad?.... Ummmm I think you are missing your ex girlfriend right?

Kakeru said in loud voice : oh chisiya fuck of man, who is missing her? I am not interested any more so please shut your mouth, I was thinking about collage trip. Trip is for only then days may be all ex students are coming in college trip ।

I don't know why but I really want to go. Kakeru knows very well now he is not interested in girl, he have many girls friends from last ten year but still he doesn't feel love with girl .

Chisia said smilingly, "Why are you being so eager, don't you need a new girl? Maybe you are thinking that maybe you will meet a new girl on the college trip. And you again Will be able to fuck a girl।

Kakeru once again looked at Chishiya angrily and walked away saying: If only I wanted to fuck, then your ass is also not bad for that, I want love, not ass. I want my soul mate not only bed mate.

While leaving Kakeru, Chishiya keeps looking at him, I wish it was true that it was only for the sake of ass, but you desired me, but I am wrong, you only see a good friend in me, but I accept this, Chishiya. I admit that I have always looked at Kakeru with love, but this love of mine is only one-sided.

I still remember those days in high school when I saw Kakeru for the first time, Kakeru was the only boy in the whole class whom I forgot to look away from, that day I was just falling in love with him. And then I realized for the first time that it was not attraction at first sight but love, but to this day I feel the pain that I would never be able to express my feelings to Kakeru because I could not risk losing a good friend. I can, expressing my love might change the relationship between us and I don't want Kakeru to get angry with me, because I know Kakeru likes girls.

Chishiya loves Kakeru but he never wants to tell Kakeru about his love.

There is no doubt that there was no other boy as handsome as Kakeru in the entire college, this was the reason that there were many girls around Kakeru, and Kakeru also changed his girlfriend every day, Kakeru Didn't feel love with girls but he didn't remain single either. He just wanted the company of girls till bed. Anyone liked Kakeru at first sight.becouse no one can replace kakeru about in look.

And when kakeru comes back at his home he got a news The servant tells Kakeru that his mom left the house forever because his father remarried. Kakeru father has brought home another women and now his parents are divorced.

He quietly went his room , he is feeling pain, he wants to die because kakeru never got the love of his parents. He buried his head in pillow and started crying . .. Why.? Why God .. Why did you give birth to me?? Am I really their child? I feel like I'm the unluckiest person in the world because I have everything but I don't have any family . The night was heavy but not permanent and Kakeru slowly fell asleep ...

But Kakeru is unaware of one fact, that he is not alone in this world. There is a person who loves Kakeru for a long time, He has been madly in love with Kakeru since high school.. He is not chisiya. That person loves a Kakeru like a worship. .... Kakeru is still unaware that very soon he will meet his hidden lover on a college trip...

It is said that not everyone is able to understand love and whoever has understood has considered love as a worship and, that person was the only person who loved Kakeru since the age of 10, who dedicated every single day of his life in the name of Kakeru. , whose only aim in life was to love Kakeru and live only for kakeru.