Kellen needed to work on his own personal control. He felt like he was drowning in his feelings for Rhys, but that wasn't what Rhys needed at the moment. He needed comfort, not Kellen having his hands all over him. Kellen felt a little guilty for his feelings, but at the same time, Rhys didn't seem to…mind?
It didn't ease the feeling inside of him, but with the way that Rhys held him, fed him, and cared for him, Kellen wondered briefly if this was a good distraction for him. To forget the thoughts and worries he had for Gunther.
Kellen didn't mind being a distraction, but at the same time, he wanted to be able to care for Rhys while he was feeling this way.
He needed to put his own feelings to the side.