Let's meet in the next life

"But.. Liangyi, are you sure?"

I couldn't understand, didn't they said a man will ignore the woman if she would ruin the bright future of the man? But.. why Xiao Liangyi do the opposite thing?

"Silly girl, you are my sweetheart. How could i marry another woman? Ah.. wait, do you ever thinking to marry another man?!"

I'm stunned, i feel quit uncomfortable to imagine myself being touched by another man, i feel... disgust? Why?

"Hey.. little Hua? Are you okay? Why are you suddenly look so pale?"

"Em... Liangyi, i want to ask you"

"And now you give me that serious face, what do you want to ask?"

"Why do i feel disgust when i imagine another man will marry me?"

"... "

"Liangyi?"

"Little Hua... are you sure you don't know?"

I feel confused, if i know.. why i must ask this cassanova?

"Ok.. so, are you feel disgust if i'm the one will marry you?"

"No.. " i think, if i must live with a man, this man doesn't that bad.

"Ah... finally you know your heart! I know you will eternally be mine! Even you so slow to this kind of thing, why were you so slow about your feeling? Except this point, you perfect with another topic! So i'm ask you one more time, do you want to marry me? If you do, let's runaway with me from our complicated family?"

"But.. Liangyi, the engagements will be held the day after tomorrow. Are you sure to throw away everything you have now?"

"What are you talking about? Everything? What difination of everything for you?"

He ask me with that gantle gaze, i'm so curious, why was he doesn't even a know common knowladge? Why every-single term have different consept for him?

"Liangyi, didn't that thing is so clear? Wealth, fame, healthy, and love?"

"Every-single thing you said is true..."

"So..!"

"I didn't finish yet... wealth, fame.. it can be earn.. with our inteligent who dare to say we could not get it? Healthy? You are my goddess vitality.. and then.. love? Are you teasing me? You are the one i love the most.. It's doesn't like you don't know my situation yet. Without my hardwork to be i'm now, who will care about me there? You are the one who always beside me.. from the start.. and now.. i'm asking you.. will you want to stand beside me till the end? Please answer me Qin Fang-hua"

Did i hear the wrong tone? Did he truely beg me? Did i saw a wrong eyes? There's yearning for myself?

"Ok.. i will answer you.. but first.. can you promise me one thing?"

"What is it?"

"I just want my man, solely become mine. I can't share my man, you are such cassanova.. if you can't stand still with just me as your woman. Don't you dare to ask my hand"

"Ha.. haha.. hahahaha"

"What are you laughing at? You can't endure to just have one woman? You are being crazy? Hey.. wait! What are you doing?!"

Why is so suddlenly he embracing me? He was so crazy to that point?

"Oh.. i can't stand it anymore! You are such a silly girl! Let's go tomorrow at midnight, let's go away from this strict family! Let's marry! Let's  make a new family!.. i swear to haevan and earth, if i dare to disloyal to our love, let my spirit scearch end never being reincernated!"

"What a bold vow you made!"

"Why not? since i will never betrayed you"

"... "

"It's late, let's go home. And we will meet here, tomorrow at midnight" and then he kiss me on my forehead, this is not the first time. But i think this is the first time my heart feel so light

"Ok.. let's meet tomorrow, here"

Ah.. i just realise, i can act so calm if i'm with this man, feel so comfortable, till the point i wear a skirt if i'm with him, forgot my dagger, even forgot my needle.

And...

I can't wait for tomorrow, to start a new life with leisure feeling. I wonder, what face that so called themselves "family" will make after my leave?

But i will never thought, what a dire situation will await for our journey tomorrow.

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Silent...

And the sky was so dark...

Surely, this condition is so ordinary. Since it is a midnight time at my secret ways.

But... i don't know why, i feel restless at this moment. Like something tribble will happen if i'm consist to going at our promised place -at the forest near a waterfall- but the time is up, and i can't throw away my promise with him. Since i know my true feeling, i was fall for him so deep to the point i can't resist my own feet to going there, going to our first step to the new life.

'What? Who is this?!' I feel so shock to find my wrist was being hold by someone, but...

"Liangyi?"

"Ssssttt.."

What? Did i so late to the point he came to pick me up personally? No, that's not right. Why he want me to silence? I think i must take a psychology class. I truly can't understand the complex of others emotion, maybe some that people was right, i was a machine. Whose can do anything reponsibility, but fail for human interaction. Did i treat myself that badly? But in the clan, they said i was their pride. What i just thinking, this is not the time to think that trivial mater, more importantly...

"Liangyi, why we keep running to the south? The waterfall was at the west.."

"Keep running, we must keep running Xiao Hua, they know. They have knew our plans, they've sent several hundred assassins to track down us, let's go to my secret place. Please endure it a bit more"

"Hey... i'm a Queen of jack-of-all-trade, i can endure as long as you need, but..."

"You want to ask why they want to murdered the both of us? Because i can't without you, and you didn't want do anything without me. They are crazy to make that rules out of nothing... i was check all of rules for the all 4 clan, the rule where member of one clan to marry another one was forbidden is false, a big lie. They just didn't want to make a change, because our big clan never held a marriage between clan's family. From the era of our ancestor"

"Ok.. so be it, let's just run. Since i only can learn the emotion of human from you"

"Hey... did you just saw me as your... lecture?!"

"Do you have time to that trivial matter?"

"It is important! I will be your husband! Why you saw me with that i-find-my-new-lecture gaze?!"

"Liangyi, they found us!"

I can't care about this childess atitude of cassanova. Liangyi was true, there are several hundred of assassins , i still quite dissapoint about their reaction. I now know why Liangyi forbid me to say to the other family member, he afraid they will get ill-intention toward me. And now, even without mention that i will go with Liangyi for marry, they still sent me their elite to murdered us. Why is that? Didn't several books said if you marry it was a blessing moment? Did these books a big liar? No.. that's not right, that thing said a human was a biggest destruction for world because their atitude and lies.

"Little hua, you keep in my back. Don't go anywhere.. i will protect you. I will kill them as soon as possible, then we can go as far as we want to. Okay?"

"No, i will protect your back. I know material arts and i was bring my dagger. Don't worry"

"But you never kill people before!"

"I never do that before, but i going to do that, since they want me and you to die i will make sure to pay them tenfold"

"...."

"Liangyi, your front!"

"Back me up, little hua"

And then, the both of them do the best to keep one another save, until..

"What?!"

"What happend Liangyi?"

"Little hua, throw away that thing on your hand right now! That's a bomb!"

"What?! It can't be! This is my neddle box!"

"No, it is not! Arggg!"

I'm so confused by this situation. The enemy was gone, even we're have a many wounds but it's not life threatening. But, it is true in my hand was a bomb?! I'm sure this is my neddle box, except..

"...?!"

I throw away that box as far as possible, i just remember in the morning my older brother came to me to borrow my box. Since i was so busy with my planing to escape i don't ask and just lent it. I will never suspect my brother, i trust him whole hearted. But since i will be Liangyi's i will trust him unconditionally, but i will never guess if my hesist being a biggest mistake i ever doing.

"Too late!" Said Liangyi in my ears.

"....?" Why? That box was so small, i was throw that away, and we still running with all we're might. So why he said it was too late?

"Let's stop here"

"Why Liangyi? What do you mean by it's too late? We still can-"

I can't say anything else, before i know his lip was on my own lip. It feel very weird, i feel i can read his feeling toward me. So gentel, so overbearing, and too deep in love, at the time i feel i'm going to fainted for lost of oxygen . He looked at me with his very gentle sight. He took a ring from his nackle and put it in my finger. The original white ring become red becouse my blood from the previouse accident, before i can ask why the ring can suck my blood he tell me if..

"Little hua, i must tell you something. But even the things become like this, i never regreting it"

"What do you mean?"

"Little hua, i love you... i love you so much, i can't without you. I know we can't escape from our clan. But i keep told you i have a way, i just can't accept if you with another, i can't... so, this is the truth. We have no ways, we can't escape to anywhere, so let's die here together. We can't choose to born or have a same ways of live. But i want to die with you, i will never beg you for your forgiveness. What i know, i want to keep you by my side, only by my side. And when i told you it's too late. It's mean they was too late to know my true intention, you may will feel disgust to marry another man little hua, but you will never kill yourself for being disgust. And they are too late to know that simple fact, you just a simple minded girl. My lovely little girl, will never acting rash, you are lack of emotion, you fall too deep in your study. You have different action with your emotion to me just because i was one who always beside you since a years... so, it's too late for them to take you back from me, since the formation being actived by them. We have fifth minutes. I will hear what you have in your mind, i will accept all your resentment to me. But... you can't leave me in this life time"

".... Liangyi, i don't know... i feel quite dissapoint of your confession... you said you love me, but it feel you just have an obsession on myself. But... i don't know if i will kill myself or not if i marry another since i never have a chance to know, did i just want to be with you because that is a habbit i too have no chance to know the truth, but... i fell happy to know you want to keep myself for your own, since you want to give up on your life for being with me. That's mean you just want me alone, and will never another woman out of nowhere like in some book story i have read. I just feel sad you didn't cheris your own life, i can't say i love you since you reprimand me if it can be just of habbit. But i want you know, if i feel happy if i'm with you, i feel comfort where-ever we're together, i can't stand to being touched by other but i like to sink in your embrace, i trust you to the point i leave my neddles and dagger, i just ever heavily wounds the enemy since i was a doctor i didn't like to kill people, but just now i kill so many. So.. if this still not that love. Let's we meet in the next life to learn what is love together. I will wait for you.. since you give up this life-time. Let's live a long time in the next life... i won't blame you, thank you for always beside me Liangyi.. and in the next life i promise you to learn about other people emotion.. so you didn't feel that way again.. i just... did you.. ever love me? Or you just being obsession on me? Liang yi... did we have a big misunderstanding in our own feeling?"

I don't know when and why i'm cried. I thougt we was deep in love with each other, but why in the last of our breath. We have a doubt to each other? Did i that bad to the heaven to punish me this way?

"Of course little hua, i love you... if you have a doubt on me, i will let you know.. don't cry.. please don't cry... let's meet in the next life... let's live a long time life... i promise you.. i wil let you know.. i promise you"

I can' stop crying... at this time, i feel so hatefull to know we didn't have a time to resolve our doubt, even when he hold me tightly in his arms i can't stop crying for regreting my lack known of others emotion... i vow to myself to learn that about feeling and resist myself to study that many to the point i didn't have time for myself. Hope i can have a normal family so i will never have a same burdend again. And when i feel i can stop crying and enjoying my last time with this man, i forget... he said we just have fifth minutes and the time was up...

"Wait for me... Little hua"

It was the last words that he told to me...

And before i can say anything... i feel our body was blown away, and i fall to deep slumber.