Are there any novels about friendship and love that you recommend?

We've known each other for seventeen years.
When I was young, I confessed to her that I loved her deeply
She said she never loved me and treated me as family
But we've hugged and kissed and kissed
It was only one kiss, but I remember it deeply
When she was a freshman, we kissed deeply.
At that time, because of the atmosphere, I kissed her
At first, she resisted a little, but later on, she moved her lips and kissed me back (she was strong, she could have pushed me away, but she didn't).
After kissing, I hugged her and told her baby I love you
She also hugged me tightly and said,"Baby loves you too." She hugged me very tightly. After hearing her say that, I kissed her again and lingered for a few minutes. Later, her mother called her. After the call, I pulled her towards me and kissed her.
Kissed three times (Nothing more than that)
It didn't end until the bell rang and she said she was going home.
But when it ended, she seemed to wake up immediately.
Let's pretend it never happened ~
I said I'm sorry I was impulsive but it would be a beautiful accident
I asked her how you were feeling and she said she was fine.
But you tell me it's an attempt = =
Said she felt sorry for her family (We're all girls)
Said it wouldn't happen again
Because I'm not sure what role I play in her heart
I've always been conflicted about how to treat her and become especially sensitive
I care about many small things and often quarrel
We'll sign hands and sleep, hug her to sleep, kiss her forehead
Cheeks, chatting with her every day.
But because of too many arguments
She slowly won't let me hug her to sleep, won't let me kiss her
But you care about every word I say
Sometimes you remember what I say better than me
I asked her why she didn't give me a hug and a kiss.
She said it was because we had a lot of fights, so I was angry at her.
That's why he didn't give her kisses or hugs.
I asked when I could, she said it depended on my performance
But since the chat app appeared, since she went to work
We lost a lot of time to meet and call each other... Slowly, our quarrel was separated by a wall because we didn't make it clear
Recently, she told me that she likes someone else (boy)
But she's still not sure, but she cares about me
Could he accept her admiring others?
I want to understand their conversation, she will tell me, I mistakenly think they talk about a wide range of topics
She would explain that they were just talking about games. Sometimes she would explain to me (as if afraid that I would misunderstand)
She gets angry when I don't believe her
Anyway, she would explain if I misunderstood or was unhappy.
What kind of feelings does she have for me?
We have many promises
We'll start to love each other in our next life
Ten years later, if there's no one by our side, we'll be together
She promised to marry me in her next life and put on a ring
She said that she would make me lose her forever
Even if her emperor appears, I will still be her important family
。。。。。。What is the relationship between us?
We still have a common mark
We have a keepsake bracelet
Rings, necklaces, bracelets, all a pair
There are nicknames for each other
She'll let me call her baby
We used to say I love baby to each other
She said, baby, if you love me, you'll call me by my nickname
But it's been three years since you've said or called me
But she still said she never loved me…

Answer 1

If you also want your story to be as complicated as a novel, then I recommend you to watch "Best Friend's Tsundere Husband." This modern romance novel described the love story of two good sisters who grew up together. One of the sisters always "intercepted" the other's love experiences, and their emotional entanglements were like the ups and downs of the novel. Perhaps you can get some inspiration from this novel, or the development of their story is similar to theirs. In addition, no matter which method you choose, I hope that you can be honest with me and bravely express your true thoughts and feelings. I hope you like this fairy's recommendation. Muah ~😗