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"I once had a failed marriage. In April this year, I fell in love with a girl in the company. We were not in the same department, and we usually did not cross paths in our work and life, nor did we have much contact. So one day, I stopped her at the entrance of her dormitory. I wanted to tell her that I wanted to be friends with her, but I was too nervous at that time and did not say it out loud. Later, I realized that this girl started to observe me and occasionally deliberately attracted my attention, so I found an opportunity to ask for her phone number." I expressed my thoughts to her through text messages and told her about my personal situation. The girl rejected me with the excuse that she didn't want to talk about feelings for the time being, but said that we could be good ordinary friends, so we started to contact each other via text messages. She was a shy and innocent girl who had never been in love. We chatted very well in the text messages and became very close in the text messages, but we never interacted in real life. It was a little awkward to meet occasionally at the company. In the middle of May, I felt that we might be just like the relationship between netizens and might not have any development, so I sent her a text message saying that I would not disturb her in the future and that I was not worthy of her. Three days later, which was two days before Mother's Day, she sent a text message to wish my mother a happy Mother's Day. At that time, my friend said that this girl actually still hoped that I could continue to pursue her, or else she would not find such an excuse to take the initiative to contact me. So in early June, I started to contact her through text messages again. She was very happy that day and even promised to help me clean up the house. After that, we started to have real contact. After two times, I found that I liked her more and more. I also felt that she was very happy when she was with me. She was very innocent, cute, gentle, and considerate. She was the type that I liked very much. Therefore, I became very anxious and eager to be accepted. Therefore, I made the decision on my own and booked a room in Beidai River to go to the beach with her for the weekend. I originally wanted to use this opportunity to get closer, but she was very angry at that time and hit me. She said that she wouldn't go with me because we weren't very good friends yet. She said that she had a good impression of me, but it was very tiring to be with me. She said that we would occasionally contact each other like old friends in the future. We lost contact again.
In August, I wrote her a letter to express my feelings for her. I hoped that we could slowly understand each other as friends. She still attacked me verbally, saying that she didn't want to be my virgin girlfriend. She didn't have any feelings. She only thought that I was a good person and had few friends. She just wanted to accompany me. Under this premise, we started dating again. We dated more and went out to play together. We were very happy. We sang to each other and played together until midnight. Sometimes when we were happy, we could walk very close together. When we crossed the road, I could hold her arm. She also taught me how to make things by hand. When we were eating, she would give me something to eat. We would row a boat together, go to the lake to chat, watch movies, and so on. Although we had never even held hands, I always felt that our relationship was a little ambiguous. Sometimes, I deliberately ignored her for a few days and found that she was still a little angry. Other friends also said that you were actually dating. At the end of October, she gave me a horned wooden comb and asked me to wear it every day, saying that it would bring me good luck. She even bought a ring to wear on her right middle finger, saying that it meant engagement. The girl herself also said that many colleagues misunderstood her after she wore the ring and thought that she had a boyfriend. At that time, these were like hints to me.
nWhen I first contacted her via text message in early November, she said that she was going on a blind date this weekend. I was anxious when I heard that. I said that I had something important to discuss with her and asked her to go to a bar. I wanted to confess at that time, but I felt that the timing was not good. However, she asked me again and again what was the matter. I said that I did not prepare the props and would wait until her birthday. However, she said that if you don't say it now, don't say it in the future. It was like an encouragement to me. So I gave her a big bouquet of roses (the flower stick said I love you). She was very happy and excited at that time. She thanked me many times and said that I gave her a lot of pressure. She didn't know what to do. We chatted happily, but neither of us mentioned our feelings. I didn't ask her to answer me. On the way back, she held the flowers and I accompanied her home. I thought everything was fine, but on the second day after I sent the flowers, when I contacted her, she suddenly became very cold. She said that she could not contact me anymore after I gave her the flowers because she thought I had given up (Actually, I found that she often lied, and she knew that I had not given up, but she was like this, which made me very helpless). At that time, I was a little anxious when I heard her say that. I might have said some words to force her. She was very excited at that time and her attitude was very firm. She said that she would not disturb her life anymore and that she wanted to be friends with the blind date.

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