I have severe social phobia, I suppress pain every day, hate voice calls, and am not good at communicating with people.
You have a severe social phobia, you suppress pain every day, you hate voice calls, you're not good at communicating with people, except at home. In novels, this kind of situation was often referred to as "otaku male/female"(or "otaku" for short). It was a common phenomenon in modern society. Many people choose to avoid contact with others and stay at home for various reasons such as work pressure, personal interests, family factors, etc. This lifestyle may bring about various negative effects such as lack of social experience, insufficient social skills, mental health problems, etc. However, being a shut-in didn't mean that one couldn't enjoy life. Many people found their interests and hobbies through reading, writing, games, and other means while staying at home, and gained a rich life experience. If you feel that social phobia affects your daily life, you can consider seeking psychotherapy or medication. At the same time, you can also try to participate in some social activities or join some social groups to improve your social skills and self-confidence. The most important thing was not to give up on your own life and actively look for opportunities to make yourself stronger and more confident.