May I ask the source of this passage and ask for the full text?

I remember the dreams I had when I was 12, the people I loved 30 years ago, and many things you don't want to remember
I preach with death, I think with my heart
My castle gates are deserted, my body unknown
The price I pay always exceeds the reward I get
I always destroy more than I can protect
I walk barefoot on the thorny path, I just can't stop
I know of a thousand easier paths, yet my life, there is no other possibility
Thank you very much
The source of this was not a Doujin novel, because this passage had been quoted in a foreign magazine.
So I seek the true source
Thanks to the first friend who answered, but this is not the answer. This is just a random post on a person's blog.

Answer 1

You did not provide any specific paragraph or sentence therefore. If you can provide more information or context, I would be more than happy to help you find the correct source and full text.