Can we forget about the past?
As time passes by why do you still insist on coming again?
Luo Fei Yang
***
We lived together for almost ten years. Yes, I lived with her. Bai He Lian. I don't know how I can survive during this time. Perhaps due to both of us acting like 'normal' people. Both of us never mentioned that event in the past anymore.
Let's say, I am enjoying living together with her now. Even, I don't know her background, I know she is a good person. She never makes problems and she looks so normal also.
Every day we are working in the café. In ten years I will do my best to learn about defense myself so no one dares to bully me again and about Bai He Lian... I have to admit that she is a beautiful girl indeed but no one can touch her heart or no man can touch her. Sometimes I feel so pity for her because of the sadness framed through her eyes but she cannot figure it out. She encounters a lot of men who come into our café but looks like there's an invisible chain that makes her so restricted to go out with them.
'Luo Fei Yang, let's meet.'
That voice suddenly popped into my head suddenly. Wait... What is it? I never experienced it before.
'Don't panic. Let's meet. '
'Who are you? '
Wait? This is just my imagination, right? Why do I have to respond to that voice?
'Someone wants to meet you at the place where we first met.'
'What...what do you mean?'
That voice disappeared without any clue. I don't know him. This must be ridiculous if I tell Bai He Lian about this.
"Fei Yang!"
Bai He Lian's voice makes me startled. Her voice is really loud and almost makes me go to nirvana in a sudden.
"Fei Yang, what's going on with you?"
"He Lian do you really need to raise your voice also?" I protested.
He Lian stared at me with an annoyed gaze.
"How come I didn't raise my voice. I called you so many times but you didn't give me any response. So tell me, what's happening?" She asked again.
"He Lian, have you ever heard someone talking with you in your mind?" I stared at her seriously. I really want to know her answer and I hope she can give me the answer.
"I don't know. Looks like I ever but I forget." She answered. "So you heard that voice?" She looked so curious.
"Yes. I think someone will talk to me. He wants to meet me."
"Fei Yang." He Lian looked at me with her sharp gaze but I don't have any clue about it and then I remember....something.
"About the money."
Whattttttttttt!!!!! That's correct! Perhaps that man is someone who was involved with that money ten years ago or ...I don't know. My brain is blank now.
"What?!"
"So what do you want to do? Do you want to meet him?"
"To be honest. I am scared."
"And then? " She asked again.
"I don't know."
"So?"
Silent for a minute and then...
"I have decided. I will come. I will give him the money."
"What?! Fei Yang do you want to die?!" She scolded me. To be honest, she is scariest than that unknown one.
"So what should I do?"
"Let him come to you." She answered. "If I meet him, I can kill him for sure if he wants to do something bad to you."
Bai He Lian is really the scariest woman that I ever met. I can't argue with her because we know that she is not an ordinary woman.
"Are you sure?"
"So do you plan to give your own life to him?"
"Of course not."
"Then... Wait for him to come to us." She said.
Bai He Lian looks so confident with her solution so I want to make sure of something.
"He Lian, are you sure that you can kill him? Do you really want to kill him?" I asked curiously.
"Of course..... NOT!"
Then she smiles. Oh my God!!!!!!!!!!
"I think he will kill me before I can kill him." She answered.
How can I meet someone like Bai He Lian?! I almost have confidence in her. I trust her. I think she can help me but from her answer now I feel dismayed.
We never mention this matter anymore. We are working like usual and coming back to our busy days.
Since that time, I have never heard that voice again.
***
This weekend Bai He Lian can't work without any further reason. I don't know what happened to her because a few days before she looked so weird and she didn't tell me either. So tonight, I am working alone. I don't know why but I think something weird happens here because no one comes, usually, Saturday always makes me exhausted but this Saturday is so different.
I am sitting on a chair when a young man appears. He is stepping forward until we are standing face to face. I can see his handsome face clearly. His white hair enchanted me because I can see his hair glowing. He is smiling at me.
"How are you?" He asked.
"I am good." I answered him confusedly since he is a customer so I have to keep my smiling face in front of him. I think he is a handsome man so this is the best opportunity for me to steal his heart. From his appearance, I think he must be a rich man.
"That's great." He stared at me. "Then...do you still remember me?"
"No. But ...." I stopped. "Have you ever met me before?"
"Yes, of course."
He smirked at me. I don't know why but I feel his smirk contented with an evil aura when his dark eyes changing into violet. It is like dreaming. This young man makes me realize that he is my debtor. I remember that he was a man with white hair that night. When I realize that, unconsciously I step backward until I am trapped on the edge of the wall. I can't recognize him at first because tonight he appears with short white hair.
"Wait...Are you that man?"
"That's good that you still remember me." He said while step forward and made me step backward.
"I will pay the money." My voice trembling.
"I don't need your money."He answered.
'I hope someone will come and find me here.'
He raises his left palm then the door and window closed suddenly. My legs become numb but this young man holds my waist with his right arm. Our eyes meet. He has unique violet eyes and I can see it clearly.
"No one will come because I shut this place down now."
"Who... Who are you?"
"Xi Wang."
"Xi Wang? "
"My name is Xi Wang. "
What should I do in this situation? He is not an ordinary human. If he is really human perhaps I can scream now but he made me unable to shout or scream.
"Are you human?" I asked.
He doesn't answer my question. He replied to me with his cold smirk.
'How can I be free from him?'
"We will never be freed because the past tied us to be always together. "
"What do you mean!"
"Shui Jing during this time you never changed. In this life, you can forget about our past but there are our past memories in our oath."
"Wait! You must be wrong, I am not Shui Jing! I AM LUO FEI YANG!"
"Ouwh, you have a sweet name in this lifetime. FEI FEI?"
"I am Fei Yang not Fei Fei! Not Shui Jing! "
"Sushhhhhh..."
His voice makes me weak. Is he chanting the spells on me or what? Is he hypnotizing me? How to be freed from his embrace?
"You will never cheat anymore." He whispered in my ear.
"I don't understand."
"Of course, you don't understand but soon you will." He smirked.
"So do you want to take my life?" I asked.
I am so drowsy in his embrace. I can feel his breath on my face. I wanted to put his face away from mine but ended up rubbing his handsome face. His long white hair appears in seconds. That white hair is glowing and I have to admit that he is so gorgeous with this hair colour.
He looked so shocked when my palm rubbed his face. I really don't have the intention to do it but yes... I do it. He looks into my eyes. I can see his smirk change into a gloomy face. I don't understand why he makes my heart ache for no reason and his fingertips wipe away my tears.
I am crying? But why? Why? There are those questions in my head now.
"Even if you are crying but I will never fall for you again." He said.
His palm now in my neck. I can feel he wants to strangulate me. Does he really want me to die?
I try my best to breathe but I cannot. What should I do? I don't want to die now. I try my best to free him but suddenly I can breathe again. He doesn't kill me! He canceled his intention to kill me. I don't care! I just need to breathe. I need oxygen now.
In this situation, I realized that I was still in his embrace. I am on the edge of the wall. His arm on my waist and another arm on my face.
Does he use something that makes me hallucinate? What is he? What he has done to me?
"I can kill you." He said.
His violet eyes look so scary. I can feel his hatred towards me. But what have I done to him? I don't even know who he is.
I am so drowsy and my head aches. What does he do to me? I can see him clearly. All become blurry.
"Standing up! " He ordered.
I don't want to follow his order but my body is moving and standing in front of him.
"Open your top buttons!"
'What! I don't want to! Don't! '
He is looking at me, smirking. Meanwhile, my fingers move to unbutton my shirt in front of him. I want to rebel but I am in his control. I don't understand why he can control me like this.
Now my cleavage is exposed in front of him. I want to close my eyes but I can't because my body is like a doll. I cannot move as I want. He really took over my body. What does he want?
He is observing my body and his violet eyes stopped on my left chest. There is a dagger tattoo over there. He stared at me while the evil smile framed on his face.
" It's really you. It's confirmed already so from now on I will never take it easy on you." He said.
That man raised his right palm and that time I felt something strange coming out from my dagger tattoo. No! That tattoo became a dagger through white smoke in front of me. I feel so cold when the dagger appears until he grabs the dagger and observes it carefully.
"That's great."
Then he stabbed the dagger smoke into my left chest again. I am shocked and I feel so terrible when the dagger penetrating my body gradually. I am screaming. I feel like in hell. Somebody, please help me from this torment. A few minutes later the dagger disappeared and the tattoo remained carved in my chest.
I am falling on the floor. I think that I am bleeding but I am not. The feelings being stabbed still on my senses. My energy just ran out. My body became wet because of sweat. I try to move but it's still difficult.
He touched my dagger tattoo and then my body became warm and I felt so comfortable.
"You know, we have tied already. Your body now will never be the same. There are consequences if you cheat again. We will meet again. I guarantee that I will find you wherever you go." He smiled.
He touches my face then I can move as I want. That time I covered my top and hid my face from him. I am so scared. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
"I can't help you to button your shirt. You can do it by yourself, right?"
"Go away! Go away! Go away! I will call the police if you are still here! Go! " I screamed but he looked so calm.
"You will not. You cannot order me to do something that I won't. That's better if you wear your clothes properly right now than yelling at me. If you feel so hesitant, I will help you. "
He flaps his right palm and soon the panel folding screen appears between us through the white smoke.
I button my shirt as fast as possible behind the panel folding screen. My body is trembling. I am so confused. I just want to go home.
"You can come out now."
As he said that soon the panel folding screen that separates us disappears in white smoke. Fortunately, I finished already.
He is approaching me. As he approached I stepped backward but his arm grabbed my waist and drew me closer. Our body crushed and made me startled.
"I don't know what happened to me but I never know with this appearance you still look so beautiful."
Is he complimenting me just now? Why does he make me confused?
'I have to go back home now!'
"Good! Then I will accompany you."
"What! "
'Don't say this man can hear my mind.'
I want to kick his 'core'. I remember that I learned to defend myself. I want to kick him but he can read my moves then he presses some points in my body. I feel numb then I see nothing.
Later I can feel something warm embrace me. I must be dreaming.
When I wake up I see hyacinth purple flowers beside me. Now I am in my bedroom. I am still confused.
Memories about last night make me scared until Bai He Lian comes.
"I have never seen you drunk before." She said. "Come on. I have prepared breakfast."
What? But I am not drunk.