The heart’s battle: A journey through pain and abuse

“How could you ever do that to me?” I wept like a maniac, “You promised that I will always be safe with you. That you will always be the one I would have beside me, no matter how bad the situation gets. That you will never let me down?” But oh my aching heart, his eyes were cold, nowhere in those deep eyes I could see any remorse, nor any pain or guilt of the tragedy he caused me. Only showing how shallow his words have been since the past 6 years. All of that was a lie, all my love was engulfed by a snake, who never really loved me, never! “Answer me?” I demanded “When did I ever cheat on you? When did I ever let you go, when did I stop fighting for us? Was it me who cheated? Was it you who loved me despite that?” “I do not understand a single word you are saying. Trust me, I have never cheated on you. Why would I do so? And who on earth told you it was me who did this?” “Enough with the manipulations Anurag. Enough!” —- Anurag Rahi(name changed due to privacy concerns ), a guy who I met online, 6 years ago and we instantly became best friends, to lovers, and that’s when all the trouble began. This might seem like some ordinary love drama, but is a story based on real events, is my own life story, the events that will be the death of me, about how poisonous people can be, about why it is the best to just let people go, why loneliness is a gift, and a journey towards healing, or my deathbed. I am Megha, and I write this novel as I am at my lowest, to prove how difficult it is to save yourself from being drowned in the sea of depression, and if I could make it out alive. If you are reading this, pray for me. It’s hard to breathe.