[28] This is my Confession!

Malcolm Pov^^^^^

I didn't stay at Katie's the whole night, it was until 4am then they took off for some flight it was terrible who takes a 4am flight, these people. I got home to a cool bedroom though Lip was laying in his bed with a relaxed face, nothing like the frown he had been wearing in the heat that was taking over the room.

After a shower I went back to sleep, though it only lasted an hour before I got woken from someone crawling into my bed in my face was a head full of green and maroon. Knowing that it was just Savannah I pulled her into me and tried to go back to sleep, she wasn't even asleep and was already latched to me like a koala making me smile a little.

Waking up it was to light kisses along my face, opening my eyes it was Savannah who was straddling my back kissing my cheek from the side, she was laughing while doing it. The smell of weed was also strong, looking to my right I saw Lip sitting in his bed smoking with Ian right next to him they were both just sitting there staring at us.

I hadn't actually seen Ian for a day since he had been spending it with Mickey, when I opened my mouth to speak Savannah was right there and she blew smoke in making me inhale. After coughing from the suddeness of it I flipped over pinning her down, "Unless you like live shows leave the room." I said to my brothers who chuckled as they walked out.

"A live show huh? and who says you are getting any?" Savannah said while I heard and 'OOOH' coming from Lip as he wasn't completely out of the room.

"Oh and why wouldn't I be, I remember someone sneaking into my bed this morning not the other way around." I joked kissing along her neck.

"Because.... ahhh.... Because we need.... ahh.... Because we need to talk." she said finally getting it out over the little moans she was letting out, though these words just made me freeze. No one says this unless it is bad news and even if we aren't in a relationship it is still bad news to hear something like this from a girl no matter what.

Seeing that I stopped she went on, "Well now that I have your attention I have some good news and some so-so new it really just depends on how you take it really. Which do you want first?"

I was still a slow on the uptake but it was better to hear good news first right? "The good."

"Well the good new is I talked to my dad and I don't need to sell drugs anymore so we can focus more on my studying, I am taking some summer classes to catch up more so I won't be held back." she said I could hear that happiness oozing from her voice which made me smile.

Brushing some hair away from her face I smiled at her, "That is good to hear, well then I can't wait to help but until we get WIFI here then we are using your place to do this."

"Oh trust me I already knew that."

"Alright now what is your other news?" I had calmed down since it was something like this then there was nothing to be afraid of what she was going to say, well at least until I saw her hesitant face. My heart tightened without notice seeing that.

"Well now stay with me and let me finish everything before you say a word cause I swear if you speak before I can get my words out then I will chop your balls off got it?!" she said while actually picking a knife off of the floor, no clue who put it there though, I just nodded.

"Good, okay where to start? Well for one let me just tell you this..... I like you no that isn't right I love you!" she said it with so much conviction and if I wasn't looking right into her eyes I would think it is a joke, when I went to speak she showed the knife making me shut up, "Listen here first. I know you said you don't want to date anyone and enjoy your youth but I don't want to hear that crap there is no way that you don't feel something for me!"

"So this is what is going to happen. I am going to leave but I will be back later, understand this though you only have the summer to give me and answer if you don't tell e your decision by the end then you won't see or hear from me again."

Without a word after she put on her shoes and left leaving me in the bed with my mind a mess, this isn't the first time that something like this had happen to me but how in the hell did it happen twice.

^^^FlashBack^^^^

It was one am and Katie woke me up since her and her family needed to go to the airport, they had a funeral to get to so they were leaving early to reach by morning, it was in Europe. Something was off though she was changing but she kept staring at me in her mirror finally I couldn't take it and asked her what was wrong.

"What is it little girl?" I asked wrapping my arms around her.

"Look Malcolm I love you and this isn't something that I can hold in anymore. I won't pressure you but I figured since I am getting the chance to run away at the moment then I will tell you now." she paused looking at my reaction, "You don't have to say anything now but by the end of summer I want an answer, if you can't give me one then we need to end this and just be friends."

I was froze, she knew how I felt about relationships so I was a little upset with her at the moment but I couldn't hate her for telling me her true feelings and not holding anything back. For the rest of the time we got ready in silence and when I walked her to her car she gave me a deep kiss with her parents and siblings smiling at me from inside the car.

I waved them off before driving away myself with a muddled head, it didn't clear until I made it home at 4am right when her flight was leaving. Well at least I still have Savannah I thought as I was falling asleep.

^^^^Flashback End^^^^^^

Well those were my thoughts until now, the only thing going through my head now was the sound of rushing water the same feeling I got hearing Katie say those words made me groan. Without a thought I went out into the kitchen where everyone was waiting, seeing me come they all spoke to me but I didn't hear a word which they picked up on.

Going to the fridge I grabbed a beer and took a big drink after opening this, "Do we have anything stronger than this?" I asked Fiona who was looking at me with a little worry since I didn't answer anyone.

"Sh*t Malcolm don't tell me that Savannah is pregnant too. It is already bad enough with Lip we don't need you to be in this situation too." she said while taking some vodka from the freezer.

"No nothing like that," I grabbed the bottle and took a big gulp from it letting the burning bring me back to reality, "No it is just within the span of less than twelve hours I got the 'Where is this going or make a decision' talk from both Katie and Savannah."

"Savannah!" Ian and Lip said same time.

"Savannah!" Debby said with a wide smile.

"Don't care really but Savannah let me see her gun once which was cool so choose her." Carl said with a huge smile, I would talk to with her later about that not that I really minded much though.

"Choose Savannah, I don't know how you and that other girl spend your time but Savannah looks at you the same way a fat kid looks at cake. Plus she is one that is actually around so why not." Fiona said patting my shoulder and walking away when she realized that it wasn't anything serious.

They were saying that but it wasn't that easy, sure from their point of view it was an easy choice but they hadn't seen the way me and Katie acted around each other so it was a one side view. Sighing I took a bigger drink then moved back to the room, this was my plan for the day 1) Drink, 2) Smoke, 3) Drink and Smoke until I fell numb.

This is how Savannah, Lip, Ian, and Mandy found me hours later in my room I didn't even remember if there was an episode happening, not that I had been paying attention to it much anyway so no matter. Savannah laughed seeing me like this and took the bottle taking it back to the kitchen, she came back with some white pills and a glass of water.

"Take these and stop stressing drama queen I gave you until the end of summer and from what your siblings tell me she did too so chill out." they all laughed and sat around smoking the weed that I already had rolled up.

"Yeah, yeah." I said taking the pills it would take a moment before they actually kicked in since it was just some old medicine, "What is on tap of the day?" I asked while putting my arm over my eyes.

"Nothing much just hoping that you could help me train some." Ian said hopefully since I was the only one who could really keep up with him.

"And I figured I could join you two, Lip is going to visit that college professor later so it is just us." Savannah said while leaning back on my stomach talking nonchalant

"Yeah sure just give me awhile." I said running my hands through her hair while trying to make the headache go down some, I really did drink to much.