Ravens around a Blue Jay

There were a lot of people around Jay, but for her…...she had never felt more lonelier than this. Not even before the phase of her life. Because that time, there was no hope for her at all!

She could barely could escape the situation on her own accord and was almost running away. These days even the slightest thing gets to her pretty easily. And she can never brush'em off no matter what.

There were people all over the corridor, and not even a few attentions were dragged. That's because she has never kept her mind and appearance in sync.

It's just an average student in hurry, but a tormenting tornado creating inside herself, which could explode any moment now. She was holding back her gasp and choking inaudibly. Her eye nerves were bordered dark red and tearing out from them. Daggers were piercing through her heart!

Isn't it an extreme one this time!

Said the most annoying voice, a voice from within Jay. It was of her own. As explained, not even her own mind was in sync with her own self. They were different!

Shut up!

Jay got more agitated and screamed inside her head which still lived, Stay put!!!

- Usually it takes time for the time around, is it the consequences of those drugs?

- I said keep shut!

- How can I keep shut when it's you speaking? You have keeping me dormant for a while too…

- Me and you…...I have no control on you nevertheless!

- Not me…. you have no control over yourself.

- Am I to blame here?

- For obvious!!! Even you were stable for the while, you're still born that way! Nothing can keep you from this.

- But he did…...he said I'm normal….

- That's far from it…. he's not here, because he lied!

- No…. you're lying….

- Am I? Or you are? You know where you belong. So shut the fuck up and let me out all on you all over again!

- ….no…. never again…. stop it…. stop!

But then…...only she can help herself now. Should she...

Jay shook her head violently. Not even the initiative thoughts should come in her mind for this. She doesn't remember the last time what happened when she let it loose even a bit. And going back to that torturous madhouse isn't even an option. Also…..she needs to keep her promise.

Don't get overwhelmed by it.

Do not let yourself possess you.

The priority is to get out of the academy fast.

She can't think of any other place to go except for that, where she didn't step in for a long while now.

But for now, she really needs to hurry.

In her situation for the time being, she didn't have the time to spare for apology after bumping into 2 people.

Things were worsening, she was almost at her limit. Few more stimulations, even if they are the little, it will accelerate her. Her head felt like bursting out. She had to take the support of the stair railing to prevent her mind from going blurry and make herself out from the gates.

Why is it that things have gone this monstrous now?

I did everything I could, keeping myself still alive anyhow. But none of the cure worked. And I know it will never.

Because there aren't any!

I can never make it through this by all myself.

He lied…...he lied to me…...

I don't even deserve this.

Why me of all people.

Anyone…. just save me!!!

Please….