Chapter 4

As far as the eye can see, only the rice plants are spread widely. Dinda threw her gaze on the glass that was beside the train window. He ignored Agus, who had been sitting next to him since then.

Dinda was too disappointed with the reality that happened. If in fact Agus is a gay person.

"Din!"

Dinda came to her senses when Agus called her.

"Hem...!" Dinda replied without turning her head to Agus. The scenery outside the carriage window is much more interesting.

"I want to talk to you and this is important," said Agus.

"Just say, Gus!" replied Dinda.

"I'm sorry!" Suddenly Agus grabbed Dinda's hand and pressed it on the cheek.

Dinda was a little surprised. "Apologize for what?" asked Dinda.

Tears had already filled Agus's eyes. "Din I'm sorry. You should know about all this." Agus looked very serious.

"Din, I actually accepted this arranged marriage just to cover up the indignity in me. Actually I'm not normal, Din, I'm a gay."

Dinda's heart was instantly broken. She tried to hold back her tears.

"I want us to end this marriage!" said Agus tearfully.

What Agus had just said was like a thunderbolt striking Dinda's sky. the woman was still silent and didn't speak anything.

"I can't make you happy. Because I have never loved you." Agus paused his remarks. "If we are separated, you can remarry."

"What if I don't want to!" retorted Dinda with a serious face. Her voice trembled like she was holding back crying.

Agus was surprised to hear Dinda's answer.

"It's not that easy for us to end this marriage, Agus. There are dad, Mom, Papa, mama, don't you think about how they feel?" Dinda wiped away the tears that had run down her cheeks.

"But!" Agus looked doubtful.

"But it's very difficult as hell, Dinda. Our relationship is very complicated." Agus insisted. He released Dinda's hand grip. Covered his chaotic face.

"I know, baby! this is indeed difficult. But we can definitely get through it. I'm sure you can definitely your codhy, Sweetheart! Dinda continued to convince Agus.

The handsome-faced man fell silent for several moments when he looked at Dinda. There was a sense of worry from his gaze.

"Baby, I'll never let you go. Unless I die later."

Agus placed his index finger on Dinda's lips. He saw the earnestness of his wife who loved him.

"But...!" Agus looked in doubt.

"We're going to get through this together Honey. I'm sure that you can definitely!" Dinda encouraged.

Agus shook his head. "Din, if you continue to be with me, your life will be threatened!" Agus's voice was hoarse again as if he was holding back a cry.

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Bandung, 07 : 00 pm

The air was cold when Dinda and Agus arrived at the station. The few people who were barada at the place were all wearing thick wear. Agus took off the jacket he was wearing.

"Wear this!" he said wearing a jacket on Dinda's body.

"You?" Dinda was both surprised and delighted.

"I'm okay," Agus replied.

Agus and Dinda were waiting for public transportation that would take them to Dinda's village in front of the station. The sound of Dinda's stomach starving sounded so loudly.

"You're hungry?" Agus looked at Dinda who was standing next to him.

"No!" retorted Dinda pretendingly.

Agus exhaled heavily. Then pulled Dinda's wrist and led the woman to a tavern.

"I'm not hungry, gus!" said Dinda.

"Never mind, I know that the hungry one is your stomach," Agus retorted after ordering soto betawi from the tavern.

Agus remembered his cell phone ringing since his departure. He took the smart object from the bag.

-Remember agus, I can do such a crazy thing if you really love that girl! You know who I am?" -

Agus read the incoming messages on his mobile phone. Instantly the man shuddered in horror.

---I'm in bandung. If I'm back I'll see you right away.---

"Why, baby?" said Dinda looking at Agus's tense face.

Agus was taken aback. He immediately put his mobile phone in a bag. Before Dinda knew.

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"Asallamualaikum!"

"Waallaikum greetings!" said a voice from inside the house.

"God' god, Dinda!" Mrs. Hana was surprised when she saw Dinda and Agus already standing at the door of her house.

"Let's go in!" invited Mrs. Hana.

"Papa!" Dinda hugged mr. Handoko who had just emerged from the room.

"My daughter!" said Mr. Handoko happily.

"I really miss papa," Dinda said.

"Why don't you guys call, we can pick you up at the station," said Mrs. Hana.

"On purpose, Ma, I want to make a surprise," Dinda retorted.

Dinda dropped her body on the bed. After Mrs. Hana asked her to catch up with Agus who had entered the room first.

"What are you doing, Agus?" Dinda looked at Agus who was sitting on a bench in front of the bookshelf in her room.

"You like to read huh?" asked Agus picking up one of Dinda's book collections.

The woman who was on the bed turned her head. "Yes, since I was in school I really liked to read," Dinda replied.

Agus nodded. He didn't turn his head to Dinda at all. His eyes fell on the book he was reading.

"What are you talking about with Papa?" asked Agus.

A split second Dinda just fell silent with a thoughtful face. Staring at the ceiling of the room.

"A lot!" replied Dinda after a moment she fell silent. Until Agus stared at his direction.

"What?" Agus closed the book he was reading and followed Dinda to the bed.

"Do you want to know?" Dinda stared suspiciously.

The man who was tidying up the quilt also nodded gently.

"May, if you want to tell a story," Agus replied putting his body on the bed.

Dinda exhaled heavily. She seemed hesitant to say it to Agus.

"Why?" Agus continued to urge.

Dinda boldly pulled her body closer to Agus. The man surged, surprised when Dinda's face was so close to her.

"What do you want to do, Dinda?" Agus was terrified. His heart was pounding so fast.

Dinda moved her face closer and closer. "He said you want to know!" said Dinda looking eagerly. Agus grasped tightly the blanket covering his chest.

"Papa wants to have a grandson soon!' said Dinda.

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