Chasing a Dream

When i woke up i felt like floating, but im not in river, hell there is no water bodies near my home, feeling strange i open my eyes...

and....

nothing there i can see, no it not like im blind more like darkness surrounding me, its so dark like want to engulf light it self.

I don't know what this place is, I'am starting to have a small panic attack, trying to take deep breath and stating to practice meditation technique to calm my heart, what i have a weak heart and if i overwork myself a stroke will be my way to death.

So i had to practice my technique like it is next to breathing, still not at that level but im getting there as it has been only six months since i came to know that i have a heart disease.

We are getting side track, back to where we are since i can't see lets try hearing....and....nothing who ever is here seems to enjoy silence a lot and its putting me way out of my comfort zone.

I had to keep my full concentration on meditation to keep my heart rate low....its then that i made greatest discovery i cant feel my heart beat.

That not normal, i know that not normal at all, this means only two thing either im dreaming or im dead.

Let see if im dreaming i would never dream my self being all alone in a dark place so that means im dead.

Dont take me wrong i have already got into the term that 'im going to die very soon' after my diagnosis, so im very calm right now because i dont have to worry about my heart getting ready for a stroke.

I never thought that i will be this calm after my death, last thing i remember that going to sleep watching one piece or to be exact after seeing Ace's death at Marineford.

Well i became a fan of one piece after a friend's night stay at my house with all anime movie cd's, i had fun at that time and that was nearly one year ago.

What can i say laughing hard is not good for my heart, but not anymore now i can laugh all i want 'HAHAAHAAA'

Okay now lets see if i can move....i can move,

i will keep moving till i hear or see something.