A Black Diamond's Journey across Existence

Pain, death, despair, unwillingness, and black. Those were the moments that were the most recent within my pre-existence. I know that there was more to life than that, but these emotions were the strongest. I think I was someone, a human who had lived shorter than they should have. I know what I was but not who, the names and faces of everyone I knew were blank including myself, except for those who didn't exist. By this I mean those from fiction who's look and demeanor was decided by someone else. Wow I watched a lot of those, was I a weeb or an otaku?

As I sank further into my contemplation of myself and previous life, a moment that seemed to last forever but was just me being self absorbed into myself. I felt a strong gargantuan pressure crush me and instead of feeling the same despair as before I felt good, as if I'm being completed. Wait, am I a masochist? Please no! I hate pain and I am certain I never felt this way in my recollection whenever I was in pain.

Before I could sink further down into the rabbit hole of kinks and self kink shaming I felt a wave upon waves of energy crash upon myself. I was getting stronger and I knew it and the energy kept coming, it was so massive it seemed though coming from the planet itself. Wait, that was too specific, why would I think the energy came from the planet? The energy kept coming and seemed to slowly compress and store itself within my chest. As the energy continued to flow into me I felt my existence become stronger. I could feel my limbs whose existence I seemed to have forgotten about. As the energy kept pouring into my chest I felt it slowly getting weaker and weaker to the point where it was about to vanish.

As I began to make my way out of this prison of rock, two new sources of energy made their way to me. However, the first was different. Instead of power it gave me something much better, knowledge. Words and what they mean began to fill in my head. Homeworld, purpose, diamond, death, life, colonies, etc. Oh I get it now. I'm in Steven Universe and I'm… Black Diamond? Ok she or I never existed so is this cannon? I mean I liked the show, so I hope I'm not in an AU. That would suck.

Enough of this foreplay, I'm getting out of here. Wait a second. Why is the third source just waiting for me? As if it needs my permission to be absorbed? The first two were automatic, is it because I'm fully formed. No, that's not it.

The first energy source was from the planet and the second was from the Homeworld energy(HE), where's the third one coming from? According to the HE I should have already gotten everything, is it a unique energy from the planet? It couldn't be from an enemy source as there is no way White would allow anything to interfere with a diamond birth. White must have already known about it. Should I eat it or not?

I can take my time to think about it. Gem bodies are just light and mass while their gem holds their consciousness. So they are about 95 percent consciousness and a diamond's consciousness is considerably more pure. From the moment my body formed only half a second had passed. Cool, I got anime thinking.

On one hand I got this completely unknown thing that would be absorbed into my very being with unknown side effects and on the other hand it could be something that could bring me benefits and help my potential. That and along with the fact I feel a strong desire to devour it, I chose to give in to temptation. What could go wrong?

And like every person who said this sentence, I immediately regretted it.

Why? Because I now know what this energy is and what I have done in the process. Its soul energy, an energy that only comes from a sentient being who was or is currently alive. I watched in horror as previously weak consciousness of the energy dissipated as the souls rushed into my gem. I felt a familiar trickle in my brain as countless memories flowed past me. Memories of this race, how it started, progressed, and ended.

I'm not even going to try to pronounce their name but these guys were geniuses. They made Krypton look like kindergarten. I mean this is some Rick level stuff. They had all kinds of blueprints, knowledge, and martial arts that could have had them rule the universe. They were on the verge of interdimensional travel. I know what you're thinking.

"But Black, if these guys were so smart how did they all die?"

My answer to that is, for all their wealth, power, and knowledge they had a flaw that every genius person or civilization shares. They though they were better than everyone else and tried to fuck with a cosmic entity. Which in turn provided them with a memetic virus that transferred to every person on the planet and used the connection between their ancestry to infect every single one of the species within existence and killed them like a Thanos snap.

This was around millenia ago so their machines and structures aged to dust and the only being to remember them was the planet. That was what the soul energy was, the will, soul, and memories of the planet and the life that it gave birth to. Weakened by time and the actions of the Homeworld gems. It goes to show that while confidence is good, pride is a useless existence. Good thing my mind and consciousness were strong enough to handle and absorb it and since this wasn't mentioned by the Homeworld energy I guess this means I'm a cut above the rest. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Jokes aside I'm going to need some time to process this and I have already been here for a few seconds, and that's with my accelerated mind. Wow, this race was impressive. But enough thinking I'm ready to get out.

With that in mind I used my new found strength and burst my way out of the ground. As I broke through the crust I felt the entire planet quake and break apart, almost in grievous anger. Disoriented by this non geographical environment I fell to my knees and took my first breath of air. Or I would have taken my first breath if there was any air. As my long hair began to fall to the side and obstruct my vision I saw a pair of pure white feet with black nails step in front of me.

As I attempted to look up at the being with my hair in my eyes she said in a calm and slightly enthusiastic voice.

"Well well you certainly know how to make an entrance."