She will understand

"Rose..." he finally replied and Roselyn forced a shy smile but John's emotionless facial expression didn't reassure her at all but made her even more worried and now familiar burning feeling in her stomach was suddenly back accompanied by nausea.

He didn't want children, it was clear after his facial expression. If he wanted he would have reacted differently. How could she be so silly to even think he would want kids when the timing was bad. 

"You don't want a baby I kn.." Roselyn murmured but John shushed her by placing his finger over her lips. He hinted a smile and forced his lips corners to slightly lift just to curve down once again.

"It's not that. It's that…." He seemed like he didn't want to continue his sentence or that he was keeping something.

"What is it then?" Roselyn asked trying to search for an answer in his desperate gaze which was just even more confusing than his tone of voice.