Hold My Hand, I Can Help

[NOUR]

"Yes. I need you to calm down because seeing you angry is angering my lycan and that is even more dangerous," Delbert said and Nour let out an empty laugh. 

His heart was shattering to pieces and his light was slowly dying; and fuck everything, how the world is slowly disappearing in the dark shadows. Perhaps he should have run away with Alanor, right?

"I'm here, worried about how to deal with my mate and somehow you find a way of turning it to your advantage? Wow," Nour chuckled darkly. 

He was tired of the night already and honestly, he just wanted to run and keep running, because perhaps if he ran fast enough, he would be able to forget the avoidable horrors that were waiting for him beyond his facade. 

He didn't want to think of what life was going to be like for him. He didn't want to imagine how everything would get; because the longer he thought of that, the more violent he got and today, he just wanted to run and run. 

The young 'omega' wasn't going to scare the people even more, but goodness, he was sick of what was spinning around him. If he wasn't in control, he would easily kill a few wolves and that wouldn't be fair for anyone, at least not tonight anyway.

"It's common sense, Burda. You are like family to my brother, and that makes you my family whether you like it or not. Seeing you angry makes my lycan want to rip off Grant's neck and unless you want that—

"—I suggest you calm the fuck down so we can find a way to deal with this. Is that still hard for you to understand or do I need to put it in writing for you?" Delbert asked, letting out low growls and Nour sighed. 

He was so close to killing this lycan. Well, he couldn't exactly kill him but at least he would try to shut him up, because it was irritating to listen to Delbert point out the obvious to him. What the fuck was he supposed to do when his heart was breaking too?

"Well then, let's go kill him. It's not like he will ever look at me in the way a mate would another, right? I'll lead the way. I will kill him myself if I have to; it should save me the agony of dealing with a whore for a mate."

At that statement, Delbert stared at the young wolf sadly as he tried to comprehend what Nour was feeling. Truthfully, he couldn't even begin to understand because he had no idea what that would mean for him.

He had never been abandoned in such a manner and while his family wasn't the greatest at handling trauma either, he had to try and make things make sense for himself. However, seeing Nour this devastated was breaking his heart too.

He could feel his lycan wanting out for all the wrong reasons and one of the dominantly wrong reasons that the lycan wanted out for, was simply the murder of Grant Hindley. It was a given for the lycan but then Nour didn't know about that.

Well, it wasn't like they had been besties with Delbert for years anyway, right?

"You can't do that. You are not in the capacity to do that because it would cripple you. You need him," Delbert said, the reminder sounding like poison on his lips, because he knew that the young wolf wasn't in the mood for that sore subject.

It was one that he had lived with, one that he had been determined to keep at bay but right now Delbert was running out of options to get the young wolf to calm down. 

He knew it was a risky subject, not just for Nour, but also for the people of the midlands and even more importantly, for the people of Acrod. It would determine so many things and a chain of the impossible would be started which wasn't something to be looked forward to. 

Nour knew that. Delbert knew that too, but goddamn, the ringing sound of his heart shattering in his ears for the poor wolf was slowly blinking his way through to reason.

"I need him?" Nour asked humorlessly, before adding, "You think I need the damn fucking whore that everyone in Acrod has got a taste of? You have got to be fucking kidding me."

Nour was done trying to be positive. 

He couldn't pretend about another thing this time. His whole life was a secret that he needed to guard with his life and now he was adding his rage to it too. It just didn't make any sense to him and he despised it.

Whatever happened, he could only wish that the time came when he didn't have to hide, but even he knew that it would really be a long while, and while at that, he would have to go through some things he hated. 

Like hiding a mate he wanted to murder and yet a mate he needed to stay with because the fucking universe had screwed up again. Maybe there was a better way out, but was there, at least for Nour anyway?

"Yes!! You need him if you are going to take after your—" Delbert began frustratedly as he ran a hand through his hair that was currently released. 

He wanted to say something, anything positive but even he knew that there wasn't a thing he could say, that would make Nour feel better about the evening that he hadn't even wanted to come to. 

Maybe this was the universe punishing him for never wanting a mate, right? 

"You need him, and you know it too, Cassius!!" Delbert added, instantly shutting Nour up. Of course, the truth was a bitter pill to swallow, but hearing the lycan remind him that he needed his mate who lived in the brothels was like a punch to his gut.

"I never wanted this!!! I didn't subscribe to this, Delbert… I never wanted to be born this way and now I am getting punished for it. Tell me, what could I have done that got the universe so angry with me? 

"What was my mistake other than accepting things for what they were?" Nour expressed frustratedly and Delbert just sighed before roughly pulling the very naked Nour into his arms, engulfing him in a warm hug.

"You won't do this alone, I'll always be here," Delbert said when Nour finally relaxed in the hug.

"It's so tiring," Nour said defeatedly.

"I know, Cass, I know… Sorry, I'm not able to do anything about the situation," Delbert said comfortingly before the both of them went into silence in each other's arms.