battle of the Trident/ aftermath mc's POV

The battle is ended and my body feels like it's gone through the Dante's inferno. Like seriously! I'm literally experienced a river full of blood and flesh. Though I'm also responsible for some of it. The trident become Red with blood and dead people's body's are floating like dead fish. It is was literally hell.

I know I have killed hundreds of people today,

for what ? So that I can get a Castle? gold? Woman? position? influence? power?

I'm starting to question myself, what's the point of having them? if those achievement are came from the cost of another humans life. A living persons life!!! Each of those soldier that I killed have a family. For those family that soldier might be the only earning member. Without him bringing food, that family might starv to death.

The soldiers I killed, some might have children at home, that are waiting for their fathers return. Some waiting for their son's, brother's, husband's return. But they won't be able to return because I've sent them to the afterlife.

Those man that died in my hand today were not all evil, they are just simple and unfortunate men. That is drafted to the war effort.

With this many innocent's blood in my hand, Can I really call myself a good person?

I believe that I am!!! I have done lots good things for many people that I've encountered. But does the good deeds washout the bad one's?

Ahhhgg....Every single joint of my bones are screaming. I believe I need a cool down period. Both my body and souls needs at least 8 hours of sleep.

Why F am I thinking about those Dead people that I already killed? Because I feel bad about them that they died? They would have died in battle anyway. So what does that make different from dying from my hand or any other man's hand. The results would be the same. In a way I saved more lives by winning the battle faster than the cannon storyline.

Well, saving someone means you can't save the other. But also I'm not killing people to get in lots of people's good sides to gain Castle,gold,Woman, position,influence,power. But technically I'm doing this get them as well. Whatever!

In there years of my time in westeros I've experienced lots of things. Shity politics that nobles of this continent play with eachother.

Beautiful landscape(seven different continent patched up into one landscape with different weather conditions and climate).

Equally breath taking beautiful unrealistic medieval castles.

Horrible and unique foods that tastes very good after you get used to it.

Then I have encountered several Beautiful scheming woman, Beautiful scary woman, Beautiful older women ( the milfs), Beautiful unsecured woman, And lastly some of obsessed one as well. And somehow had sex with them.

what was I thinking ?

I don't know if that was good or bad, Probably bad.

Oh Well, if I could survive up until now. Then I can survive in the future as well. Hopefully.

It's time for some rest. It's been a long day.

Today I have done much more than fighting a battle. But damn.... the battle was really awesome as hell. I'm not a warmonger, I don't like needles killing and bloodshed. I just enjoying the war that happening around here. And that is basically killing and bloodshed.

I'm not a psychopath, it's just..... my Head is messed up with two different souls.

I don't know what I'm right now!

Overall, I have done much more for the war effort in this Rebellion than anyone else. Hope that people will take it in a good way, when all this is over.

Robert may have defeated prince Raegar Targaryen and won the battle with his hammer and gained all the credit. But I have defeated the Barristan selmy the badass.

The man is a kind of a legend around here in westeros.

(flash back)

When we clashed our swords, he announced himself, " Ser Barristan selmy of the Kingsguard. State your's Ser !!!"

And I replied In my dramatic Way, " Ser Alan Winters, A Knight of this rebellion. It's an honor I guess."

And that's that, no more talking and only the fighting.

I was exhausted from swinging sword all day but I was confident enough to take him head on. I thought I could definitely defeat him easily, even if I'm exhausted, But that was a mistake i underestimated his skills. And got stabbed in the process. it's not very fatal but it was the first time someone's sword tip touched my skin.

I must admit Ser Barristan selmy is very skilled swordsman. In terms of strength I'm better than him. Most of the time he used my strength against me to compensate that.

But I have much more higher recovery rate him. Thus He couldn't keep up with me in the end.

In the finale our swords were locked I was slowly overpowering him. But seeing him in this miserable state I had enough, I kicked him in the chest in a very spartan way. And he landed far away and tried very hard to get on his fit.

it's not very knight thing to do, I understand that but this old man needs put down. He earned my respect in both world.

I came near him watched How heavily he's wounded. When he looked up to me, And what I saw is that he accepted his fate. And thus I was about to strike him down.

But suddenly I was distracted by loud cry Of Roberts shouting. And all around us could clearly hear him screaming.

Raegaaaaaar....