Dave Tries to Change His Mindset

But Dave's kiss was totally out of reach for Sid. Sid will have to get the first kiss of his life from someone else, or never know the experience.

Probably the latter would happen, since Sid had no intention of giving his mouth to anyone else but Dave, and Dave...

Love, without any chance of reciprocity, was like a huge stone lying in the heart. It was not only heavy, but it also blocked the sunlight, enveloping the heart in the eternal darkness of hopelessness. But that's okay, Sid will be able to live with this boulder, if only Dave would be happy. Sid will never ask Dave for that kiss.

But the first beer in his life was something completely different. They could have had their first beer together and it would not violate Dave's intimate zone, and it would make Sid aware that he and Dave had at least that kind of 'first time' experience.

"But are you sure you are well?" his older colleague was asking. "Now you are pale."