Faking Pleasures [FILIPINO, TAGALOG]

I put my eyeglasses down pagkatapos kong mag type. Hinilot ko muna ang noo ko bago ko isara ang laptop. Sumandal muna ako sa upuan at hinigop ang kape ko.

Bigla nag ring ang phone ko. It was Sierra, my editor. She's been calling all day kung tapos naba akong mag update sa ginagawa kong manuscript.

I tapped the accept button.

"Thank God at sumagot kana." Bungad niya sa akin. "Alam mo bang I called 1 million times already?"

"150 missed calls lang wag kang OA." Sagot ko naman.

"Whatever, tapos ka na bang mag update? Kasi kung hindi pa, mapapatay na talaga ako ni boss."

"See you in your funeral then." I joked.

"Waaaaaah! Wag ka naman ganyan miss Dana, ayokong mamatay na virgin!" Iyak niya.

Tumawa ako. "I'm just joking, okay? I'll email it to you now."

"Really? You're the best miss Dana. I love you!" She said before she ended the call.

I sighed. After that, I opened the laptop again. The reason why she's calling me all day is because I didn't update my story for a month and even our boss is contacting me but I've been avoiding them. No one knows my identity even Sierra, she just knew my phone number and that's all.

My first story got popular when I first posted it in my website. It was just my lewd imaginations na napagtripan ko lang na isulat. Hindi ko namang akalaing sumikat kaya they contacted me at sinabing gawin akong writer. Of course, pumayag ako but under one condition na ayaw kong magpakita sa kanila. I don't know..I am just scared that other people might know me and maybe they judge me because of the things that I write.

I got out from my study room at ibinagsak ang katawan ko sa bed ko. I've had an author's block kaya hindi ako nakapagsulat lately. To be honest, I really don't have the experience yet. I'm on my 30th book already and I ran out of ideas.

I've been wondering what it really feels like to experience that. I always act like I know everything to my friends.

I sighed. Napagdesisyunan ko nalang na maligo at magbihis. I am too old for bars kaya manonood nalang ako ng sine. I don't want to contact my friends for now. I just want to be alone today.

I looked myself in the mirror, I am wearing my eyeglasses, simple printed white shirt with a blazer and a pair of ripped jeans. I guess this will do. I grabbed my keys and wear my bag as I go out. I want this day for myself only.

When I reached the parking of the mall, kaagad na akong tumungo sa elevator. I tapped the close button and suddenly it was stopped by someone kaya nagbukas ulit. I didn't mind whoever it is kasi nabusy ako paglagay ng susi ko sa bag ko.

"What floor are you?" Oh? It was a man.

"2nd please." I said, still not seeing his face kasi hinahanap ko pa ang cellphone ko to check kung ano ang mga movies na showing ngayon.

He didn't answer but I could feel that he tapped the button.

When I settled down, I took a slight glance on him. Infairness, matangkad, malawak ang braso at mabango tsaka merong bigote. A living example of the leading men in my book but I still can't see his face kaya hindi ko rin masabi.

We were at the 10th floor kasi punuan ang parking ang daming sigurong tao ngayon sa mall.

As the elevator goes down, the lights are starting to flicker. Now, I'm having a bad feeling about this. As I reached the bar handle, bigla nalang nag accelerate ang elevator tsaka nag stop at nawalan ng ilaw.

"Oh my God!" kinakabahang sabi ko habang nakahawak ako sa handle. "Excuse me, mister? Are you there?"

"Yes." kalmadong sabi niya. "I'm going to call for help."

"Oh! Thank God at may kasama ako.." pabulong na sabi ko.

I felt his body moving towards the buttons at may sumagot naman na staff.

"I'm so sorry for the inconvenience sir, bigla po kasing nag brown out and our generator will take some time po. Please wait and we'll send some people po."

"Okay." sagot naman niya at tsaka nawala ang tawag. "Are you okay, miss?"

Napalunok ako sa ganda ng boses niya. Wait, maghunos dili ka Dana at baka masampal ko ang sarili ko. May pumapasok na naman kasing masamang imahinasyon sa isip ko.

"Yes, I'm good. Thank you." sagot ko naman.

He chuckled. "I guess we'll be stuck here for a while.."

"Yeah.."

Good thing at nakuha ko ang cellphone ko sa bag ko. I opened it and it somehow lightened around at nakita ko ang mukha niya. Muntik ko ng mabitawan ang cellphone ko ng nagkatitigan kami.

"Warren?!" hindi makapaniwalang sabi ko.

Napaatras ako at lumayo sa kaniya ng konti.

"A-anong ginagawa mo dito?"

He smirked. "Aren't you supposed to say "hi" first before you asked that? And besides, why do you look so nervous?"

"I-I'm not!"

Unti-unti siyang lumapit sa akin hanggang sa napasandal ako sa pader. I am now feeling the scenes that I've written in my stories.

"Then why are you going away?" Papalapit at papalapit na siya sa harap ko and I don't like this feeling.

I cleared my throat. "Gusto ko lang sumandal sa pader. Wag ka namang feeling, 'no!"

"Still the Dana that I've known. Feisty..but what happened to your style? Did you go through a lot?" He's going to touch my cheek pero sinampal ko ang kamay niya.

"Don't touch me!"

"Oh..okay."

But he's taking steps towards me.

"Don't come closer!" Pasigaw na sabi ko. "Don't you dare or else-"

"Or else what, Dana?" I could see the rage in his eyes as he is getting closer to me.

"O-or else..you won't see your nuts tomorrow!" pagbabanta ko.

"Scary." Tipid na sabi niya. "You can't stop me now, Dana. I am back for you.."

Napakagat ako sa labi ko nang bigla niya higitin ang bewang ko. Ngayon, tanaw na tanaw ko na ang mukha niya kahit sa konting ilaw na binibigay ng cellphone ko. This is not the Warren I've known.

Hindi na ako nakapag react nang bigla nalang niya akong kinabig at hinalikan. Nabitawan ko ang cellphone ko sa ginawa niya. Ilang beses ko siyang pinaghahampas sa dibdib niya pero hindi man lang siya natinag, sa laki ba naman ng katawan niya.

His kisses were deep na para bang halos lunukin na niya ang dila ko. Hindi ako makahinga, para akong na estatwa sa ginagawa niya ngayon. He was my first kiss at ngayon he's back to claim me again. What is he thinking?!

He bend down, lifted me up and harshly doing little kisses to my neck. This can't be happening..I just want to go out and watch a movie pero bakit ganito ang nangyayari?

"Tama na.." I could feel my tears are falling.

But I think he couldn't hear me kasi hindi pa din siya tumitigil.

"Warren..please.." I sobbed. "Please, stop.."

Bigla siyang huminto at niyakap ako. "I-I'm sorry.."

Marahas ko siyang tinulak at pinunasan ang luha ko. Bigla namang bumukas ang elevator at sinalubong kami ng dalawang crew pero hindi ko na narinig ang sinabi nila dahil sa nagmamadali akong lumabas.