I Would Rather Have Been One-sided

This was something that had been firmly held in his heart since he was a teenager. He was like a little boy who didn't know anything, who quickly grabbed a piece of pumice wood in front of him to keep himself from drowning in various things in this world. 

"You always ask me why other people can, but you can't." Qin Gengxin suddenly looked at Xian Guiying and said softly, "I'll tell you now."

For some reason, Xian Guiying felt suffocated.

She had known Qin Gengxin for too long, and he had never said this much in front of others, nor had he ever shared his thoughts with anyone.

He was always like that, whatever he wanted, he didn't need anyone to understand, he never explained, and he didn't have the patience to explain anything either for a person or for a matter.