unfaithfully yours.. part 1

6months passed.

Still the same problems.

Still the same setup.

Im still inlove with him....

and him..

More and more, everyday i fell more inlove with..

him and him...

In different ways they showed me..

how they really love me..

how they really want me..

and how they dont want to lose me..

Everyday its harder for me to choose,

harder to do the right desicion..

How will i ever choose if i dont want them to be hurt?

Still stucked in this quicksand..

How can i ever undo my mistakes?

And how can i ever make things right??

Will i ever make it right?

EMN: whoooo brain bleed ako sa english mga dong,day! hahaha!! nyeta internal hemorrage to mga tol! haha!! Sige na eto na talaga start.. warm up lang yan..

pangunawa at paalala: yan para basahin nyo to italic na bold pa hahaha! kakasabi ko lang madami akong brutal na babasahing nabasa (whoo ang balon!) kagagawan kasi ng Dara Kara, Slaughter High at Class 3C has a secret kaya brutal ang isip ko ngayon hahaha! joke lang po di po ako naninisi.. nagpaplug nga lang po ako ng mga magagandang stories.. grabe dandaaaaaa!! basahin nyo po yan *peace* (^__________^)v

SELENA's POV:

6months later, sa nakalipas na 6months napakasaya, pero napakahirap din..

bakit ganun? hindi pwedeng maging masaya nalang sa bawat panahon at oras? bakit kailangan may magdusa? bakit kelangan pumili kung pareho silang nagpapasaya saken at napapasaya ko? hindi pwedeng dalawa? hindi ba pwedeng pareho sila dahil pareho ko silang mahal at pareho nila akong mahal? hindi ba pwedeng...

"MY LOVELY WIFE BREAKFAST IS READY COME AND GET IT!" pagputol ni Guy sa malalim kong iniisip. haaaays. "COMING HONEY" sigaw ko kay Guy at nagmadali akong bumaba simula noong nalaman nya 6months ago, everyday of my life i woke up feeling lucky and blessed because of how he showed me and how he showered me with love.. he loves me soo really too much.. redundant ba? eh sa redundant din daw kasi ang pagmamahal nya saken.. corny i know but still nakakakilig for me.

Bumaba na ako at sabay kaming kumaen, matapos kumaen niligpit ko na ang pinagkainan namen at dumiretso sa kusina para maghugas ng plato ng lumapit sya saken at sabay na naghugas ng plato, ang posisyon namen nasa likod ko sya yakap yakap ako while washing the dishes.. sweet isnt it?

everyday naman eh pasweet ng pasweet yang loves ko.. but still everyday isnt complete if i cant see him..

nang matapos lahat ng dapat at PWEDENG gawin sa kusina.. you know what i mean.. ginawa na namen, as usual pinagod nanamna nya ko but thats fine, if it makes him happy ill do it everyday..

kaya lang i want Jon to be happy also kung pwede lang hatiin ang katawan ko sa dalawa, ginawa ko na..

andito kame ngayon sa sala nanonood ng "AUGUST RUSH" nakayakap sya sa likod ko habang hinahalikan yung buhok ko.. i feel somehow contented.. pero..

"Hon, tumawag pala kanina si V, magkikita daw sa spa, alam mo na girl talk.. broken hearted kasi si Luisa diba, eh nagkausap daw sila, so paguusapan namen ok lang ba?"

pasimple akong sumilip sa mukha nya.

A lie, i didnt have to tell..

i saw him as he stop caressing my hair, he just watch there even though he doesnt look like he understand a thing.. i know his hurting.. i am too.. whenever i see them getting hurt by leaving them.. mas nasasaktan ako.. i can see it in his eyes, the sadness.. and it pains me, it really do, but what can i do to stop? how will i stop from this? di ko din kasi alam kung paano..

i always feel incomplete without them..

natapos ang pinapanood namen ng wala akong naiintindihan. Bigla nalang kasi nya akong niyakap ng mahigpit, like ill be away from him forever, then he started kissing me then everything went blurr because of the sensation his giving me. Paulit-ulit ginawa namen yun, and everytime we do it, he always makes sure that ill feel his love.

*KINAUMAGAHAN*

i prepared something for Guy maaga akong gumising para gawan sya ng surprise.. gusto ko bago ako umaalis may ngiti sa mga labi nya.. atleast meron syang pagkakaabalahan habang wala ako.. call me selfish bitch pero excited na akong makita ang aking pinakamamahal na si Jon.. yes.. mas mahal ko si Jon, pero mahal ko din asawa ko.. hindi ko sya basta iiwan lang.. hindi ko kayang mawala sya.. o kahit sino sa kanilang dalawa.. parehong mahal ko sila..

Nang matapos ko ng gawin yung surprise ginawa ko naman yung almusal nya.. for sure kasi di na sya magluluto kaya dadamihan ko na hanggang dinner nya mamaya.. minsan lang kame magkita ni Jon 2x to 3x a week kaya naman sinusulit namen ang bawat segundong magkasama kame.. umagang umaga palang umaalis na ako ng bahay at babalik ako dito pagsapit ng 12 ng madaling araw.. lagi naman ganun ang setup.. hinahayaan naman ako ni Guy..

umalis na ako ng bahay.. nagtaxi.. mabilis lang naman ang byahe dahil sa kabilang subdivision lang sila 30mins lang ang layo nya.. pero coverup ko kasi un para naman walang makakilala saken kahit sino.. ayoko naman maiskandalo ang asawa ko.. gaya ng sabi ko mahal ko pa rin asawa ko..

andito na ako sa tapat ng bahay ni Jon "LOVENEST" ika nga nya.. kinikilig ako kapag sinasabi nya yun eh.. kinuha ko na yung keys sa bag ko dahil meron naman akong duplicate ng susi para hindi daw akong mahirapan sa pagpunta..

as i open the door i saw the man i do love more..

GUY's POV:

nagising ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagbangon sa higaan ni Selena.. its still 3 am.. nakita ko syang may kinuha sa study table nya.. naglabas sya ng stickynote.. at nagsimulang magsulat.. i pretend to sleep mukhang alam ko na kasi kung anong ginagawa nya.. shes planning to make a suprise for me.. im really happy that she didnt left me, masaya ako na nandito pa rin sya, umuuwi pa rin sa bahay namen.. im still her husband.. i dont wanna ruin what we have now.. mahal na mahal ko ang asawa ko kahit na may kahati ako sa oras at pagmamahal nya.. kahit ako dapat ang mas may karapatan dahil ako ang asawa, legally, at ako naman ang nauna.. ayos lang saken yun atleast nasa tabi ko pa din sya.. dahil MAS ako.. MAS matagal kaming nagsama, MAS nakakasama ko sya sa bahay, MAS marami ang oras nya saken at higit sa lahat kaya kong ipaglandakan na mahal na mahal ko sya..

Oo, bobo na kung bobo, tanga, siraulo, walang respeto sa sarili, martyr at kung anu-ano pa na pwedeng itawag saken.. lahat naman ng iisipin nila walang kwenta para saken.. bakit kung sakali bang sundin ko ang mga kagustuhan nila sigurado ba akong di mawawala ang asawa ko.. kaya nga pagbalik ko dito at malaman kong nainlo---- basta yun.. nang malaman ko yun di ako nagdalawang isip ibenta lahat ng negosyong naipundar ko.. lahat yun nailiquidate ko na.. sobra pa yun para sa aming dalawa hanggang sa pagtanda namen kaya bakit kelangan ko pang umalis sa tabi ng asawa ko? kung pwedeng makasama ko naman sya diba..

*muah*

"dont worry ill be home as soon as i can, i love you hon"

nagising ako sa pagmumuni-muni ko nang dampian ako ng halik ng asawa ko, its already 5am.. i almost forgot na kaya pala may surprises syang nakahanda para saken dahil pambawi kumbaga nya saken sa magiging matagal nyang pagbabalik.. aalis sya dito ng ganito kaaga, at uuwi din sya dito ng ganito kaumaga.. masakit isipin na pagkauwi nya sa bahay na ito pagod na pagod sya, gigising sya ng hapon na.. after she wakes up ill shower her with more love MAS kesa sa kung sinoman sya..

i know where is she going, kahit pinaalam nya na saken na pupunta sya kina V.. alam ko nanaman ang totoo.. matagal na.. almost 4months na din akong nagpapakatanga..

kala ko kasi nagawa ko ng ibalik sa dati ang lahat.. dahil pag nagpapaalam sya kina V o Luisa lang sya, mga childhood friends namen..

i stand up to see what did she did this time.. kada aalis kasi sya, madami syang pakulo, madami sya gingawang nakakapagpangiti at the same time nakakadurog sa puso at pagkatao ko..

*FLASHBACK*

4months ago..

nagpaalam saken ang aken asawa na pupuntahan nya ulit si Luisa dahil brokenhearted, nagloloko daw kasi ang asawa nito, may babae, nahuli ni Luisa at may anak na daw.. Mahal na mahal pa din daw nito ang asawa kaya lang nasasaktan kada nakikita ang mukha.. Kaya nga maagang umaalis si Selena para masamahan si Luisa baka daw kasi magsuicide ulit gaya ng dati. Buti daw naabutan ng isa pa nilang classmate. Kaya ayun salitan sila sa pagsama sa babae, 3x a week sya kung pumunta kay Luisa, ayos lang saken kasi nakikita ko naman na paguwi nya na nagenjoy sya kasama ang kaibigan nya kaya ayos na ako doon. Masaya na ako para sa asawa ko, lahat nga ng mga negosyo namen unti-unti ko nang binebenta para di ko na kailangan pang umalis sa mga boring na business meetings. Magiinvest nalang ako atleast mas makakasama ko ang asawa ko.. kelangan kong bunuin ang halos isang taon kong pagkawala sa tabi nya.. di ko sya masisisi na naghanap sya ng kalinga sa iba dahil matagal akong nawala, nawalan pa kame ng communications, akala nya siguro di na ako makakabalik o kaya nalungkot lang sya o kaya..

*DING DONG*

agad akong tumakbo sa pintuan sa pagaakalang ang aking asawa ay maagang umuwi kahit madalas madaling araw na sya sa paguwi, ok lang yun basta pag gising ko una kong nakikita ang aking asawa..

"ang aga... Oh! Hi.. Luisa.."

EMN: bakit andoon si Luisa? anu-ano ang matutuklasan nya? Paniniwalaan ba nya?

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EMN: hehe as much as i want to finish this already i cant, i cant be online as i pleased cause i need to balance my time with my two kids and with my duties as a daughter and a concern citizen.. wahahaha XD whooo brainbleed.. english eh.. kelangan magsanay, magaapply ako sa call center bukas.. goodluck saken ala-una na gising pa.. hahaha sooo this is it...

GUYS's POV:

"ang aga... Oh! Hi.. Luisa.."

"Hi Guy, how are you? ang tagal nating nde nagkita ah.. si Selena ba andyan?" -Luisa

"Ah wala eh.. ahm tuloy ka muna, sakto naghahanda ako ng tanghalian"

"salamat"-Luisa

Luisa, Brea, Lean, Marc, JayJay at Victoria o V. Sila ang mga College friends namen.. pero si V, childhood friend ng asawa ko, kasama nya kasi ito sa ampunan, ulila kasi sila., nalayo lang namen kame sa kanila noong nagkaroon kame ng business ni Selena sa Cavite, nagtagal kame doon nang 3taon kaya nawalan na kame ng balita sa kanila pagbalik namen dito sa bahay namen sa Manila. Nakakamiss din bumalik sa nakaraan. Bakit kaya sya nandito? Diba dapat..

"Hey Guy, are you okay? your spacing out? May problema ba?"-Luisa

"wala naman, what are you saying again"

"haay, your spacing out again, like you used to, kapag si Selena talaga nawawala sa paningin mo, ganyan ka" birong sabi ni Luisa

"hahaha well alam mo naman kung gaano ko kamahal si Selena diba?"

"kaya nga, bakit di kaya naging ganyan ang asawa ko? His a womanizer, mahirap talaga pag may asawang gwapo" at tumawa sya ng may pait at lungkot.. nasasaktan ako para sa kanya

"oo nabalitaan ko nga kay Selena na.. well, alam mo na"

"aba! updated pa rin pala ang bruha kahit di namen nakakasama ha? siguro nakakausap nya si Lean o si V, ang daya nga hindi naman sya sumama sa girls night out namen, yung reunion nameng mga girls, lagi syang wala, kayo ha nakalimutan nyo na kame and created your own world heheh"-Luisa

"haha hindi naman, naging busy lang kame sa.. sa ahmm"

"ahh.. sa isa't-isa hahahaha... huhuhuhuhuhu"-Luisa

Shhhh, tahan na sige ka papanget ka, ang panget mo pa naman umiiyak"

"buti pa kayo ni Selena hanggang ngayon matatag pa din, masaya, mahal ang isa't-isa"-Luisa

matatag pa nga ba kame? o may lamat na pero matagal ko lang iniignora, masaya? masaya pa kaya talaga sya? mahal? mahal pa kaya nya ako? o MAS higit na SYA? mga tanong sa isip ko na matagal ko ng gusto itanong kay Selena, pero natatakot ako.. oo, duwag ako eh.. dibale ng sabihang duwag, sa pagiging duwag ko nakakasama ang asawa ko eh..

may pag asa pa ba talaga kame? o ako lang yung patuloy na kumakapit at pumipigil sa kanya?

"pasensya ka na Guy ha, ngayon lang tayo ulit nagkita tapos ganito pa yung salubong ko sayo, nasaan na pala si Selena?"-Luisa

"ha? aah.. ano.. nasa.. ahm.. aah nasa office kelangan kasi maclose yung deal sa chinese tycoon kaya dapat hands on kame"

"wow ha, lalo kayong naasenso ah, grabe your the most perfect couple back in high school until ngayon ganun pa din.. grabe ang sarap talaga ng luto mo Guy eto ang namiss ko at mamimiss ko eh"-Luisa

"huh bakit? di ka na ba babalik at dadalaw dito?" im not good in lying, pero akalain mo yun nagawa kong magsinungaling ng tuloy tuloy para lang pagtakpan ang asawa ko

"were going to migrate in Canada, me and my husband, also the kids, para malayo sya sa tukso, para makapagsimula ulit, para maayos namen at maibalik ang dati"-Luisa

"so i wont be seeing you ever?"

"well, you will, but maybe pag naghilom na ang mga sugat at maayos na ang mga la--lamat huhuhu"-Luisa

"shhhh, tahan na, your a very strong woman, kaya mo yan"

ako kaya, kaya ko bang maging strong man? mukhang we are in the same fate Luisa

"bakit ganyan ka makatingin?please dont look at me like that"-Luisa

"like what?"

"like kinakaawaan mo ko, na parang pati sarili mo kinakaawaan mo, like we are in the same fate, well as a matter of fact, were not huhuhuhuhu"-Luisa magaling talaga sya bumasa ng xpression ng mukha mula noon hanggang ngayon, kaya lang di nya alam yung kakayahan nyang yan..

"shhh dont cry, im not ok? di ako naaawa sayo, humahanga nga ako sayo kasi nakakaya mo yan?"

"i need to, mahal ko ang mga anak ko at mahal ko pa din ang asawa ko, i need to claim him back, im still the wife, gusto ko magkaroon ng buong pamilya, hindi gaya namin nina Jayjay at Lean na never had the chance na maranasan ang isang buo, masaya at simpleng pamilya, kaya kelangan kong kayanin, for my kids, for my husband, and also for me.. hindi ko kakayanin na makita syang mapunta sa iba.. hinding-hindi"-Luisa

pagkatapos namen magkwentuhan ng halos 3oras umaalis na din si Luisa, at sa pagalis nya maraming bagay ang gumugulo sa isip ko..

dapat ko din bang ipaglaban pa?

o dapat ko na syang pakawalan?

pero kaya ko bang wala sya tabi ko? sa piling ko?

hindi, hinding hindi ko kakakayanin, mas nanaisin ko pa ang mamamatay kesa mawala sya saken..

pero sa loob ng maraming buwan, binigay ko naman lahat ng best ko para ipakita at iparamdam na mahal na mahal ko sya, na sya ang buhay ko at sya lang ang kaya kong mahalin.. meron pa ba akong kayang ibigay na hindi ko pa naiibigay sakanya? ano pa ba ang kulang saken? may mga dapat pa ba akong gawin?

pagnakita ko kaya sya mamayang umaga, ano ang sasabihin ko? dalawa lang ang nararamdaman ko ngayon, i felt betrayed and left behind..

gusto ko syang sumbatan, awayin pero mahal ko sya, hindi ko sya kayang saktan, ako nalang ang masaktan, wag lang sya.. anong gagawin ko? Mababaliw na ako kakaisip.. nalilito na ako sa dapat kong gawin..

3RD PERSON'S POV:

sa lalim ng iniisip ni Guy hindi nya na namalayan na nakatulog na pala sya, at sa sobrang pagod ng kanyang katawan at isipan hindi na din nya namalayan ang pagtabi sakanya ng kanyang asawa na nakangiti pa rin habang inaaalala ang mga ginawa nila ni Jon

napabalikwas si Guy ng gising dahil sa bangungot nya, tuluyan na syang iniwanan ng asawa at hindi na kailan pa man babalik.. tinignan nya ang kama kung katabi nya ang asawa, ngunit hindi nya eto nakita, wala syang maramdaman sa mga oras na yun kundi lungkot, sakit at takot.. para syang mapupugtuan ng hininga.. parang nawawala ang hangin at sumisikip ang dibdib nya..

"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!"-Guy

may narinig si Guy na yabag pero hindi nya eto pinansin, dahil sa kalungkutan, iniisip nyang hindi na sya babalikan pa ni Selena, gaya sa panaginip nya.. tuluyan ng nawala sakanya ang asawa.. kung kelan desidido na syang..

"Hon, bakit? ano yun?" Si Selena sa harapan nya may pag aalala sa tinig at mukha nito.. when he saw her, her beautiful face, hinawakan nya ang mukha ng babae para malaman kung likha lang ng kanyang imahinasyon ang babaeng nakikita nya.. and when he felt the warmth in his heart the moment na lumapat ang palad nya sa mukha ng asawa he felt relief and glad.. he felt alive..

agad nya etong niyakap at pinugpog ng halik..

"oh bakit?anong nangyari sayo?" tanong ni Selena habang yakap pa din ang asawa..

"nanaginip kasi ako, iniwanan mo daw ako at sumama ka sa iba, akala ko totoo na dahil wala ka sa tabi ko" may luha sa mga matang sinasabi ni Guy..

"shhh, tahan na, diba sabi ko naman sayo, di kita iiwan, uuwi din ako ano ka ba?" may ngiti na sabi ni Selena..

"akala ko kasi iniwanan mo na talaga ako" tuluyan ng umiyak ang lalaki..

"hinding hindi kita iiwan yan ang tandaan mo ok?iloveyou with all my heart, asawa kita, kaya i will stay with you till our last breath" sabi ni Selena at yumakap sa asawa, hinalikan nya eto upang lalong ipadama ang pagmamahal nya..and he kissed her with so much passion and love.. letting her feel what he feels..

his kisses went all over her face..

his hands were roaming all over his body..

then his kisses went deeper and deeper..

he lay Selena down, not caring anymore if she was with someguy's bed a moment ago, all he want is his wife.. his life..

pagtapos nang mangyari sa kanila, tinapos na ni Selena ang naudlot na paghahanda nya ng tanghalian nilang mag asawa..

"so kamusta naman kahapon hon?" Pasimpleng tanong ni Guy gaya bg dati nyang ginagawa bago pa nya nalaman ang totoo..

"well, ayun ganun pa din, lagi pa din umiiyak, balak na nga nilang magmigrate eh kasi lagi lang daw naaalala ni Luisa yung mga ginawa ng asawa nya, buong araw lang namen syang kasama at pinapasaya kahit papaano effective pa din ang pagiging comedian ko" nangingiting sabi ni Selena..

he looks at her intently..

"oh bakit?"Selena

"ilove you hon"Guy

Selena smiled, "ilove you too hon"

GUY's POV:

i rather believed those lies than feel what i felt a while ago when i woke up without my wife beside me..

mas kaya kong maging tanga, mas kaya kong mag antay na magsawa sya sa kung anuman yan o kung sinuman.. pero hinding hindi ko kakayanin na mawala sya sa tabi ko kaya gagawin ko ang lahat just to show her how much i love her, just to let her know that i will and always love her..

*END OF FLASHBACK*

EMN: ayun oh?! haaays bakit kaya ang mga ibang babae, nasa kanila na yung most loyal, most loving husband/bf pero nagloloko pa sila, hindi ba nila alam ang daming naghahanap ng ganyan (*AHEM* isa na ako dun *AHEM*) ahahaha XD

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EMN: pasensya ngayon lang ulit.. nakakahaggard kasi yung training.. nyeta! 11pm to 7am pero need pumasok ng 9pm dahil last trip na oh diba nganga?! tapos gigising pa ng 11am para maghatid sa anak na papasok.. oh lalong nganga! so eto na muna.. salamat sa mga nagbabasa.. ^_________^ you take all the tiredness away hahaha XD ang artiii..

SELENA's POV: (present time)

as i open the door i saw the man i do love more..

"i thought i might surprise you, hindi pala ako pala nasopresa mo.. ang aga mo naman"-Jon

"ooh ok, then ill come back later when your surprise is finish.. uuwi nalang muna ako" kunwa'y seryosong sabi ko kay Jon..

"na-uh uh! there is no way im letting you go now.. ive been dying just to feel you here in my arms again then you will just leave me.. im not letting you, even you beg for it.. cause you belong here in my arms, you belong with me"-Jon

"sus nagdrama naman po ang manong, hindi na mabiro" natatawa kong sabi at agad na niyakap sya..

"why do you always need to ruin the moment?"-Jon

"hahaha wala lang.. i just love seeing your forehead creased a bit" i teased and let go of him then tumayo na ako..

"a ganoon? so you really love teasing me then?"-Jon

"well sort of, cause your cute.. as cute as a dog" marahan akong lumayo sakanya upang mas madali para sa aken ang tumakbo.. alam ko na kasi gagawin nya..

"oh really as cute as a dog eh? okay then this dog will come and get you arf arf"-Jon

at agad akong tumakbo para makalayo sa kanya.. naghabulan at nagpaikot-ikot lang kame sa sofa..

ganito kame pag magkasama, walang ibang iniintindi at higit sa lahat kame lang ang may ari ng mundong ito.. at masayang masaya kame, sana nga, kung pwede lang na hindi na matapos ang mga oras na to.. kung sana pwedeng itigil ang orasan para magkasama lang kame ng ganito ngayon.. ganito kasaya.. pero alam kong hindi pwede.. paano si Guy.. hindi din naman ako magigung kumpleto kapag di ko nakasama ang asawa ko..

"HULI KA!!"-Jon agad akong nilundagan ni Jon sa sofa kaya naman..

"hahaha tama hahaha na hahaha tama na loves hahahaha.." pagpigil ko kay Jon sa patuloy na pagkiliti nya saken..

"i hope we can be like this everyday loves"-Jon

i also do hope so but i cant leave my husband.. i cant tell him that, thats why i just give him a peck on his cheek..

"di ba we talked about this?" akmang tatayo na ako ngunit lalo nyang dinagan ang katawan nya saken..

"i know we did, pero im missing you more and more everytime your not beside me.. mahal na mahal kita Selena, you are my life, and when your apart from me, im just like a zombie, just walking and doing things around, but im not actually living.. im like a walking dead you know"-Jon

"haha walking dead talaga ah.." then he stared at me intently. i know what he is trying to say but what can i do i also love Guy and i cant just leave him like that.. he still occupy the half space of my heart..

"oh cmon dont be too serious.. diba we must make most out of our time together, so lets do it"

"haaaaaaaaaaays, fine then what should we do first?"-Jon

"this" then i kissed him.. then hinalikan nya din ako sa mas may intensidad na halik.. bawat halik nanunuot sa aking laman.. like we are hungry lions, hungry for meat.. but as for us, we are hungry for each other.. his hands were roaming around my body, as my body were hungered for his touch.. his hands roam around me and all you can hear are my moans..

ive always feel hungry whenever when im doing this with him.. like i cant get enough of him.. his insatiable..

i also wanted to touch his body but when im about to, his right hand pinned my two hands on top of my head.. then he started... tying it?

"uaaahmmm where did you get that? untie me loves, i want to feel you" as i try to untie myself but to no avail..

"you cant loves, thats your punishments for ruining the moment earlier"-Jon

"but loves.."

"no more buts and questions or else ill add more ties"-Jon

so i have no further questions anymore.. cause he already claimed my lips, my body and my soul again.

i didnt know how many times we did what we did.. i know this is not just lust, cause i can feel that is not just my body that feels the satisfaction, also my soul feels it.. we feel it.. when it comes to Guy, my heart feels the satisfaction not just my body.. i dont know why but both of them satisfy me in every different way, thats why i cant choose whom to let go..

"hmmmmmm" -Jon says as i feel his hug gets tighter he is facing my back so i turn around to face him, to be able to see his beautiful face

"napagod ka ba labslabs?"

"hahaha stop calling me that, parang tanga lang"-Jon

"sus! kunwari pa, kinikilig naman yung mama dyan"

"hahaha oo naman, ndi naman ako nananalo sayo diba? saka fyi lang miss, recharge na ako.. gusto mong patunayan ko?"-Jon

"hahaha hindi na, magsawa ka naman sa paulit ulit nyan grabe ha"

"yan ang di mangyayari Selena, ang magsawa ako sayo.. magkaroon man ng snow sa mt pinatubo, sumikat man ang araw sa timog o saan mang parte.. hinding hindi ako magsasawa sayo ok? yan ang tatandaan mo.. mahal na mahal kita."-Jon

i kissed him lightly on his lips and smile.. "i know.. and i also love you.. and you know that right?"

he nods then get up even his still naked, he doesnt care, well i dont care.. i love seeing his sexy body anyways.

"so lets continue our date that we supposed to have.. hmm what you say? you wanna watch a movie with me labslabs?"-Jon

"hahahaha, baduy nga yung labslabs.. but sure lets continue our movie date.."

naupo na kame sa sofa para manood ng dvd, we dont wanna go out, cause this is our world.. we seldom do that simula ng umuwi si Guy dito sa Pinas.

"so what are we going to watch? tsk tsk.. mukhang nauubusan ka na ng romantic bones and new ideas para mapakilig ako ah"

"haha well, wait and see labslabs, just wait and see" natatawang sumunod nalang ako sakanya sa kwarto..

we are watching a movie, actually its already about to end kasi ikakasal na yung bidang babae sa bidang lalaki, but still no surprise.. well, i always get a surprise when we are together eh..

"tsk tsk ano ba yan labslabs wala pa din yung surprise"

"shhh wag kang maingay nga"-Jon

haays ganyan yan pag nanonood kame, hindi pwededng makausap kasi masyadong tutok sa tv.. but i love staring at him when his watching, i can see different kind of reactions that i love to see..

~so will you take anna, as your lawfully wedded wife, in richer and in poorer.. blah blah blah~ then blank..

#EMN : sensya di ko alam yung spiel ng ganyan eh ahahaha#

then i tear fell from my eyes cause when i look at the tv its no longer the bidang babae na kinakasal sa bidang lalaki.. its our picture together from different places we went.. sa beaches, hotels, and more.. what really makes me cry is when i saw Jon's face on the tv kneeling with a ring on his hand and saying something i dont hear then i look at my Jon, with the same position as he is, on tv..

"will you please be wife? i know that this is not the wedding you wanted with me.. but i want to feel that you are mine, mine alone.."-Jon

"hm im.. hm i dont hm know what hm to say" i said between by sobs. i really cant say anything, i also love him with the whole half of my heart as i love my husband with the whole half of my heart also..

"just please say yes?"-Jon

"haha hm how can i say hm no when hm your using that hm puppy eyes hm on me?"

"well i know you cant resist me.. ok mayor please start."-Jon

the tv went all black then mayor V is now in front of tv.. kinakasal kame ng idol ko..

~will you take Jon as you lawfully wedded husband,blah blah blah~

#EMN: di ko talaga alam to guys haha sensya kaya lets proceed to their unique vows#

"Selena, please take this ring as you take my heart away with you.. the moment i saw you, my heart was racing, and until now, just by thinking of you, my heart always feel like, horses are racing inside.. mahal na mahal kita Selena.. no matter what the people thinks or says.. basta ang alam ko, hinding hindi ko kakayanin na mawala ka sa piling ko, mahal na mahal kita, hanggang sa huling hininga ng buhay ko.. please never leave my side, please never leave me for you will take my heart with you that i might die"-Jon

"nakakaasar ka naman, sabi ko pakiligin lang ako, hindi kasama yung paiyakin eh"

"haha, as long as those tears fell because your happy with what im doing, as long as those tears are the proof that you also love me, then so be it, i will enjoy seeing those tears love.. iloveyou with all my heart and soul.. you take my breath away"-Jon

"Jon, please take this ring as a sign of my undying love for you, and please never get tired of me, sana wag kang mapagod intindihin at unawain ako, ang mundong pinasok mo, alam kong mahirap para sayo but never forget that i love you with my heart and soul, that i will never ever leave you.. mahal na mahal din kita.. this would be one of the happiest moment of my life.. as ill be your wife, maybe secretly yet i know that your just mine.. and mine alone.."

~i now pronounce you man and wife, you may know kiss the bride~

EMN: sensya na yan lang muna, ngarag pa ang lola nyo.. lagi nalang bitin sa tulog eh.. sensya na talaga now lang.. nagtatalo pa isip at damdamin ko kung lalagyan ko ng bs eh vote nalang kung lagyan o hindi.. XD grabe pag nakakarinig ako ng tawag, at ako pinapasahgot ni mama hindi ko na napipigilan yung bunganga ko.. kung ano yung opening spiel ko sa work yun din minsan nasasabi ko pag may natawag sa cp.. haha one time tumawag si lola pagsagot ko "thank you for calling safelink wireless this is yce how may i help you today" nganga ang lola nyo, sinigawan anu-ano daw sinasabi ko.. agang almusal nun te hahaha.. meron na kameng sure date ng off it would tue and wed so every off nalang ako mag UD tsalamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat ^__________^

SELENA's POV:

after our "wedding" we just do what newly weds supposed to do..

well, of course you already knew what i meant.. we made love for the rest of the hours..

"you may not be mine physically, but your mine, MINE right, Mrs. Reyes?" emphasizing the mine word.. and worry is written all over his face while holding my hand so tight..

"yes my love.. im all yours.." i smiled at him and planted small kisses on his handsome face..

then i asked him: "sabihin mo nga saken na tama talaga tong ginagawa naten?"

"tama to.." Jon

"ang sarap pakinggan, it does feel right.. let's try this.. sabihin mong mali tong ginagawa naten"

"tama to, tama to, tama to.." Jon

"tama ba talaga to?"

then Jon stood up, even though he is in birthday suit. got his guitar then looked at me intently

NP: BY YOUR SIDE by SADE

You think I'd leave your side baby

You know me better than that

You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees

I wouldn't do that

I'll tell you you're right when you wrong

And if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold, I'll be there

Hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in

I will show you, you're so much better than you know

When you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again

I will find you darling and I will bring you home

And if you want to cry

I am here to dry your eyes

And in no time, you'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby

You know me better than that

You think id leave you down when you're down on your knees

I wouldn't do that

I'll tell you you're right when you want

And if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold, I'll be there

Hold you tight to me

Oh when you're low

I'll be there by your side baby

Oh when you're cold, I'll be there

Hold you tight to me

Oh when you're low

I'll be there by your side baby

a tear fell from my eye.. i love him more than him.. i can feel that.. but..

" i love you no matter what.. mahal na mahal kita.. ikaw lang ang mahal ko at mamahalin ko.. aantayin ko yung araw na magiging aken ka lang talaga.. yung pwede kong ipaglandakan sa buong mundo na ako ang ASAWA MO, na AKEN ANG PUSO'T KALULUWA AT ANG BUONG PAGKATAO MO.. pero habang hindi pa to yung tamang panahon magaantay ko.. lahat gagawin ko.. lahat makakaya ko.. basta nasa tabi lang kita, basta kasama kita. Andyan ka naman para saken db? hanggan huli magkakasama tayo? db? db" Jon

"oo naman, hanggang sa tamang panahon na magiging maayos ang lahat"

"tama, kahit sa next life pa yun, ok lang basta magkasama lang tayong dalawa ill be more than happy and contented" Jon said then he smiled at me while tears streaming to his face

i know his hurt, his pride, his ego, specially his heart.. but i cant leave my husband not because i pity him but because i also love him.. in different ways, i love them both..

when i got home its already 4am so i just take a shower for a minute then lay down in bed.. antok na antok na kasi ako at pagod na pagod.. hindi kasi kame natulog ni Jon, sinusulit ang bawat oras..

when i woke up its already 1 in the afternoon..

pagmulat ng mata ko ang unang nakita ko ay ang asawa kong nakangiti na nagmamasid saken..

"good morning asawa ko, napagod ka siguro noh? i already prepared your bath and also our lunch" Guy

"bakit di mo ako ginising para napaghandaan naman kita ng tanghalian, dapat ako na gumawa non noh?"

"nah, its ok, masyadong mahimbing ang tulog ng mahal ko para istorbohin ko noh?" Guy

"kanina ka pa ba nakaupo dyan?"

"hindi naman, mga 1hour palang simula ng matapos akong magluto" Guy

"ngee ang tagal mo ng nakaupo jan, hindi ka nabored?"

"no i wont, its you that im looking at, why will i be bored? saka masarap pagmasdan ang mukha ng asawa ko para mabored ako noh?" Guy said then he help me get up then plant kisses all over my face

"tara na" while we are walking he said

"your still only mine right?" mahinang sabi ni Guy

"huh?" Kunwa'y di ko narinig..

"wala, wala.. tara na po sabi ko, ligo na po tayo" Guy

narinig ko naman yung sinabi nya.. dinig na dinig ko.. hindi ko lang kayang sagutin ng walang hesitation.. hindi ko kayang magsinungaling.

EMN: sorry yan muna times up na sa comp shop -______- pulubi eh

GUY's POV:

halos hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos kagabi, or rather kaninang madaling araw, 2 hrs lang ata ang tinulog ko dahil ng maramdaman kong tumabi na saken ang asawa ko matapos nyang maligo, bumangon na ako.. ewan, natatakot akong tumabi sa kanya..

natatakot akong may maamoy, makita o maramdaman man lang na kakaiba kapag tumabi sya saken.. cause the last time she went home, when she's already sleeping, i can sense the happines in her face.. and im afraid to see that, knowing its not me she's thinking and dreaming.. im afraid that its not me anymore..

instead of thinking more, bumangon na ako at nagpunta sa salas, hindi na din naman ako makakatulog pa eh..

nahihirapan ako, pero i need to be strong, i know everything has an ending.. THEY have an ending..

naupo nalang ako sa couch, thinking what to do next because i want to be secured, i want everything to be like it was used to be, i want to fall everything into place on how they used to be.. on how US we used to be..

kaya gagawin ko ang lahat ng paraan para maging akin lang ang asawa ko.. AKIN LANG..

umakyat uli ako sa taas ng makabuo ng plano para madivert ko ULI SAKEN ang attention ng asawa ko, besides 3x a week or so lang SILA nagkikita kaya magagawan ko pa ito ng paraan..

inaayos ko na yung bathtub, pinuno ko ito ng gatas ng kambing, maraming petals ng roses. i also hang some pictures of us, back when we are in high school and college. matapos kong gawin yun, bumababa na ako, while going down the stairs, i spread petals ng mga roses sa dadaanan ng asawa ko hanggang sa garden then nagpunta ako sa kusina. i set our table outside the garden, shower petals of roses around us. i also added some of our pictures around the table parang yun ang pinaka placemat namen. then i go back to the kitchen para lutuin ang lahat ng paborito ng asawa ko, pati na din ng mga bagong recipe na napagaralan ko sa cooking show kahapon.

when everythings done and ok, umakyat uli ako sa taas, medyo maaga pa, di pa sapat ang tulog na asawa ko kaya naupo lang ako sa kama at nakaharap sa kanya.. mesmerize by her face and memorizing every detail of her face that i already memorize so many years ago..

when its already 1pm, i started waking her up..

"good morning asawa ko, napagod ka siguro noh? i already prepared your bath and also our lunch"

"bakit di mo ako ginising para napaghandaan naman kita ng tanghalian, dapat ako na gumawa non noh?" Selena

"nah, its ok masyadong mahimbing ang tulog ng mahal ko para istorbohin ko noh?"

"kanina ka pa ba nakaupo dyan?"Selena

"hindi naman, mga 1hour palang simula ng matapos akong magluto"

"ngee ang tagal mo ng nakaupo jan, hindi ka nabored?"Selena

"no i wont, its you that im looking at, why will i be bored? saka masarap pagmasdan ang mukha ng asawa ko para mabored ako noh?" i said then i help her get up then plant kisses all over her face..

"tara na" i said while we are walking pabanyo

"your still only mine right?" mahinang sabi ko pero alam kong aabot sa pandinig nya..

"huh?" yan lang ang tanging nasagot nya..

"wala, wala.. tara na po sabi ko, ligo na po tayo"

babawiin ko uli sya.. by all means.. ill have MY WIFE BACK.. sabay kameng nagpunta sa banyo..

"WOW!, you did all this?" she asked

"yea" i said then started stripping our clothes..

"oh, this is our high school and college days right?"

"um-huh"

habang nagbabad kame sa bathtub, we just talk about our college days, how happy we were, we just reminisce, while we are talking marahan kong inaalis ang lahat ng bakas na iniwan NYA..

i just kept scrubbing her gently to erase every trace HE left..

matapos namen maligo, nauuna na akong bumaba para maiayos ang mga pagkaen sa mesa..

"MY WIFE, THE FOOD IS READY, COME AND GET IT!"

inabangan ko sya sa pagbaba nya ng hagdan to see her reaction to what i did.. to see if she's still excited being with me..

as she walk down the stairs slowly, with a teary eye, i can see happiness in it. i knew it! i knew that i can still have her back again, just to myself, just mine again..

"what's all this about?" Selena

"nothing, just to surprise the loveliest woman in the entire planet"

"hahaha! since when ka naging bolero hah?" she said as she reach my extend arms

"hindi po nambobola ang asawa nyong gwapo, talagang ikaw lang ang pinakamaganda sa mga mata ko eh" as we walk slowly to the garden

"sus, oo na po wala na akong sinabi" she said while smiling

when we got out sa garden i saw an angel glowing and smiling.. yes she is happy cause she is glowing like she was before this hapens, she is like this. so i can still claim her back. just mine alone.

"you like it?"

"no" she said, still amazed and not looking at me..

"hmmm?" niyakap ko sya. back hug

"i love it" she exclaimed then kiss me fully

we were panting after we stop kissing, i guided her to the table and we talk everything under the sun, lalo na yung mga memories namen dati, yun naman talaga ang plano ko, ang ipaalala sakanya kung gaano sya kasaya na kasama ako at kung gaano kame nagmamahalan, higit sa lahat, lahat ng mga pinagdaaanan namen dalawa.

after eating our brunch, we just watched a movie DONT MESS WITH ZOHAN nasa sahig ako at nasa sofa sya nakaupo, im between her legs, hugging me,habang sinusubuan ko sya ng saging na may chocolate ice cream when suddenly the phone rings

"hmm, ako na asawa ko"

she stands up then after 5minutes she came back

"sino yun?" i asked habang bumabalik sya sa dati nyang pwesto

"wala, wrong number lang, what happened?"

"ah ganun ba, ok, nagdate lang sila ng girl" i said nonchantly.. ewan, pero parang iba, basta kakaiba, saka parang nawalan ako ng ganang manood.. nahihirapan na ako, bakit pati dito sa teritoryo ko gusto nyang pumasok? bakit may karapatan ba syang.. hindi.. im just being paranoid.. tama.. i can do this..

thats why sumampa ako sa sofa and started nibbling her ear, her most sensitive part. just by doing this alam ko na na natuturn na on na sya

"hmmm, hon, stop im watching" she moaned .

"so? we can still watch that later" i started kissing her ear and biting it while my hands roam around her upper body..

"hmmmm Guy" its really music in my ears when she moaned my name.. i lay her on the sofa and started kissing her neck, down to her collarbone then got back to her lips.. her hands started roam around my body, from my nape to my neck down to my chest and i feel like burning as her hands roam around me..

we started stripping our clothes.. after doing so, i kissed her fully.. down to her neck, to her collarbone to her peak.. kissing and nibbling.. while my other hands massage the other peak.. just doing it vice versa as she moaned my name.. i just cant get enough of her.. then i started touching her core, feeling the wetness on my hand.. then i went down to her core to taste her fluids and suck it.. as my tongue in and out her core.. as i tasted and suckled all her fluids after reaching her climax i positioned myself on top..

(FF)

its already 7pm ng magising ako, matapos ng ilang beses na lovemaking nameng mag-asawa, i went down, even im just wearing my birthday suit..

bumaba ako sa kitchen, cause this is her favorite spot in the house, well of course aside from our bedroom

i found her setting the table already, wearing my shirt only. i felt happy and contented. my shirt suits her, stating that she is mine only..

"hmm, seducing me, eh?" she asked with a smile on her face

"dont need to" then i hug her and kissed her fully

"haha, ano ba? mamaya naman, grabe kiss palang nagagalit na alaga mo" she said playfully

"it only happens when your near"

"haha, ewan tara lets eat na.." then niyakag na nya ako sa kusina..

EMN: yan po muna XD next chapter JON's POV sensya na yan lang nakayanan ng utak ko grabe dinugo lahat ng pwedeng duguin eh haha! internal hemorrahge(tama ba? XD) to mga dudz!!

JON's POV:

after Selena left, almost 4am na din yun, di pa ako nakatulog agad, inaalala ko lahat.. oo nasa KANYA si Selena ngayon, so what? nasa aken naman ang puso ni Selena.. sana..

nakatulugan ko na din ang pag-iisip sa ginawa namen at sa mga plano kong gawin uli para lang makasama sya.. nagising ako ng around 2pm na.. hidni muna ako tumayo at kinapa ang kama.. it feels so big and empty, it would be really great having her beside me the moment i woke up.. SOON that will happen.. SOON!

naligo muna ako saglit, i dont want to trace away her kisses.. ewan baliw na ata talaga ako.. matapos kong magbihis naisipan kong tawagan ang mga kaibigan ko..

when i was about to dial Dylan's ( my bestfriend, who knows everything about us ) phone number, naisip kong tawagan muna si Selena.. i miss her voice saka magpapaalam ako sa kanya na makikipaginuman ako.. di ko kasi sya pwedeng hindi tatawagan.. after dialing their home phone, she picked it up. thank goodness its her..

"Hello, Sebastian's Residence, may i know who's speaking please?" Selena

"i hate that last name lalo na kung ikaw ang nagsasabi"

"HEY! why did you call you know i cant answer the phone ng madalas at higit sa lahat baka biglang iangat ni Guy yung receiver baka bigla.." Selena

"so be it Selena, i want you beside me right now. i need you and your love, darling, please come home.. in your real home.. in my arms.. please" gusto ko ng maiyak, i feel so empty right now without her by my side

"hey, dont do that, you know that i cant leave Guy like that, you.." Selena

"why? sino ba talagang mas mahal mo Selena? mahal mo sya kaya di mo sya kayang iwan, pero sabi mo mahal mo din ako diba?"

"yes, i love him and i love you more ok? please bear that in mind.. please wag mo naman akong pahira...."Selena

"ako din nahihirapan Selena gusto kita sa tabi ko, gusto kong ipagsigawan na aken ka pero di ko magawa. mahal na mahal kita alam mo yan"

"i know and you know that i love you also.. please dont do this" Selena

"magpapaalam lang sana ako sayo na pupunta ako kina Dylan, magiinuman lang daw kame" pagiiba ko ng topic. it hurts like hell

"ok, ill call you there later ok? magiingat ka.. i love you so very much. bye" Selena said then she hung up

i hate her saying goodbyes, feeling ko yun na lagi ang last na paguusap namen. haay, i need to divert my attention for a moment kaya nag ayos nalang ako at nagpunta kina Dylan kahit na hindi ko pa sya tinatawagan.. i feel like crying and only Dylan can understand me, sa lahat ng mga kaibigan ko sya lang ang nakaunawa sa aken, lahat sila nagalit saken.. ng makasakay sa motor ko pinaharurot ko kagad to papuntang bahay nila Dylan. agad akong dumiretso sa bahay nila dahil alam kong sya yung taong di naglolock ng bahay, sabi nga nya gusto daw nya ng action kaya gusto nyang may pumuntang akyat bahay sa kanila.. wala lang daw.. trip lang..

"hey bro, anong masamang hangin ang nagdala sayo dito sa aking mumunting bahay?" Dylan

"mumunti ka dyan?! sipain kita, munti na sayo tong 7bedrooms mong bahay? eh anong tawag mo sa bahay ko? kubo?" natatawang tanong ko kay Dylan at naupo sa sofa

"well, sort of? haha anyways, ano? laklakan na ba?" tumayo sya at pumunta ng kusina para kumuha ng maiinom.. 4pm na.. wala pang 20mins ng tawagan ko si Selena.. haay

"what's with the long face? oh never mind dont answer me alam ko na ang sagot dyan. Selena right?" i just nod as a confirmation

"haaay, alam mo bilib na talaga ako sa pagibig mong wagas tol, biruin mo nakakaya mo yang ganyang set up, its been what? 7 months or so, pero ang tatatag mo talaga pre, i salute you" sabay saludo saken

"loko" ang tangi kong nasabi, ewan, ako din hanga sa sarili ko at natiis ko to. well i guess everybodys right. love can make us people do and act crazy

"so tell me whats the problem now?"seryosong tanong nya saken at lumipat sa tabi ko

"well, its getting harder bro, i want her for myself. i want her to be mine alone, gusto ko pag gising ko sya yung nasa tabi ko" sentimyento ko

"haaay, love and cupid why did you ever exist? your making my man crazy" natatawang sabi nya

"sira ka talaga, kapag ikaw nainlove tatawan din kitang gago ka hah?" sabi ko sabay batok sa kanya

"lol, di mo ko matitiis noh? saka kapag nangyari yun then ill be digging my own grave dude, and i dont wanna die young" natatawa nyang sabi

"sus, sinsasabi mo lang yan pero sige ako na sagot sa kape at biscuits" then nagtawanan lang kame ng nagtawanan hanggang sa bumibigat na yung pakiramdam ko kaya wala na akong nagawa ng kusang magunahang tumulo ang mga luha ko.. napansin ko nalang na ako nalang pala ang natawa habang umiiyak.. so gay.. pero wala eh mahal ko, kahit na magmukhang bakla ayos lang, mahal ko sya eh.. si Dylan naman tinatapik ang likod ko at pilit pinapakalma..

halos isang oras din akong umiiyak, hinahayaan lang ako ni Dylan, sabi nga nya makakagaan sa loob ang pagiyak, tama naman sya kaya lang hindi pa din nawawala ang sakit.. saktong 5:15pm ng magring ang phone ni Dylan, inabot nya saken ang beer na hindi ko na naubos dahil inuna ko ang pagiyak.. haha nakakatawa, ako ang pumasok sa ganitong sitwasyon pero ako yung hindi makalabas..

"ah oo andito sya, wala, nagkwekwentuhan lang kame habang nananood ng movie.. oo.. sige saglit" alam ko na kagad na si Selena ang kausap ni Dylan dahil kung isa sa mga barkada namen yun sasabihin nyang naiyak ako ngayon haay.. lumapit na ako sa kanya at inabot ang phone.. inhale.. exhale

"Hello Darling, miss me?" pilit kong pinapasigla ang boses ko

"yes i do, how bout you? did you miss me?" she said sweetly. paano nga ba uli ako nakapasok sa relasyon to, baka kasi mahanap ko ang daan palabas eh..

"of course maari bang hindi anong ginagawa mo?" well siguro kahit na nadaanan ko pa noon yung way palabas o kahit madaanan ko sya uli, hindi ko din tatahakin unless kasama ko sya palabas, ang babaeng mahal ko..

"i love you" she said sincerely.. wala na talaga, theres no more way out of this.. magtitiis nalang ako hanggang sa dumating yung tamang panahon para sa amen..

we talked for an hour like shes just living with her parents and were secret lovers, well we really are.. she just reminded me not to get home drunk and such.. after that, naginuman na uli kame ni Dylan habang walang tigil ang pagpatak ng mga luha ko.. hindi ko mapigil eh..

"you really want to get her right?" he asked suddenly..

"oo naman pare, ilang drum na ba ng luha ko ang nasaksihan mong pumatak para magtanong ng kasing nonsense nyan?"

"haha hindi drum kundi isang dam, isang lamesa dam ang tumagas hahaha!" Dylan

"gago! siraulo ka talaga"

"srsly speaking, bakit hindi mo sabihin kay Guy yung totoo na nagmamahalan kayo" Dylan

"para ano? para layuan ako ni Selena, mahal nga din daw nya si Guy, pero mas mahal lang daw nya ako"

"pero mahal pa rin nya, alam mo naiintriga ako sa lalaking yan, sama mo ko bukas puntahan natin" Dylan

"sure y not chocnut? makikita ko pa si Selena" natutuwa kong sabi..

"ok deal" Dylan

EMN: yan muna po... time na eh

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EMN: feelingera po ako kaya.. feel kong mageenglish.. NO TO GRAMMAR NAZI (=____=#) perfect ka?

GUY's POV:

We silently eat on our bed, inakyat ko nalang lahat ng pagkaen namen, while she's wearing my oversized shirt and as for me, well none.

"By the way hon, habang natutulog ka pa, tumawag si Jack Jack, puntahan at dalawin naman daw naten silang magasawa" Selena

"Bakit dadalawin, sino ba may sakit?"

"Wala, nanganak si Vie for the 6th time" natatawang sabi nya

"Ahh OK." Jack is one of my best of friends back in my high school days, pero na bago kasi lahat simula ng maging kami ni Selena

"so you wanna go there tomorrow?" i asked after finishing our meals at itabi ito sa side table.

"ikaw bahala, pwede mo silang dalawin, basta wag.." Selena

"Tayong dalawa ang pupunta at hindi ka na pwedeng umalis pa ng mag-isa" i said firmly, pero hindi na sya nagsalita pa.

But i know deep inside me, na gagawa at gagawa sya ng paraan para magkita sila. Para makasama nya yung lover nya, she will do everything.. At yun ang ikinakatakot ko, baka tumakas sya dahil masakal sya saken at sumama "sakanya" at di na bumalik pa. im scared that she might leave me.. Pero kung patuloy ko syang hahayaan, baka bigla nalang syang hindi umuwi saken. im scared, i dont know what to do anymore. Ang hirap.. haays

"im sorry love, you know i didnt mean to raise my voice, you know that i didnt mean that, right?" i said and came closer to her then hug her.

"its ok i understand" she said then hugged me back. Then kinuha ang kinainan namen at ibinababa sa kusina.

I just stayed in our bedroom. Does she really understand everything? even a thing? Of course she does.. NOT! She dont know how hell it feels like when she's with him..

Pero mahal ko sya eh, tanga na kung tanga pero di ko sya kayang iwan o hiwalayan. Iniisip ko pa nga lang and imaginaning myself living without her, nahihirapan na ako, it pains me so very much. kaya magawa ko pa kaya yun? of course i cant.

Well there's only one way, maiiwan ko lang sya kapag patay na ako, yun lang ang pwedeng paraan to be able to do things without her. Hays! im talking nonsense again. Di ko naman kaya. What a life!

"Sleepy already?" Selena asked habang papalapit saken. Umiling lang ako.

"Were going together, tomorrow right? Your going with me, right?" I asked then hugged her tightly

"haha hon, yes we will, but your hugging me to death" she said while giggling, so i loosen up the hug a bit

"you know the reason why im like this, right? cause i cant let go of you, cause i love you, cause your my life that id rather than die..."

"sshh dont say that, when i tell you na mahal kita, i meant every word, ok? besides always remember and hold unto my word that i will never ever never leave you,ok?"

"im very much happy hearing that from you" i hug her tighter. Then i started kissing her ears.

"Guy" she moaned. its really music to my ears when she says my name or moans it.. Kaya isipin ko pa lang na may ibang pangalan na binabanggit sya, it makes me go crazy. No, i shouldt be thinking about that now.

So to distract myself from thinking things, i started bbiting her ears. Cause thats her sweet spot. Thats the only spot that can make her instantly wet and turned on.

"ahhh,arent youuu sleepy?" she asked between her moans

"not yet, gusto ko munang pagpawisan at higit sa lahat gusto ko ng exercise." she just giggled as i lay her down our bed.

(KINABUKASAN)

I woke up early para iready ang milk bath nameng magasawa. Nang matapos yun, ginising ko na ang asawa ko.

"Hey, wake up sweetheart" i whisper to her ear habang marahan syang niyuyugyog

"what time is it?" she asked not even moving a muscle

"its already 8 in the morning sweets, so get your ass up now or we will be on that bed for another hour but i wont let you sleep my love" i said while caressing my wife's beautiful face

"later nalang hon, ang aga-aga pa, pinuyat mo lang kaya ako kagabi?" she said then tinalukbong ang unan sa mukha nya

"cmon baby, dadalawin pa naten sila Jack-Jack, bago yun bibili pa tayo ng mga fruits pero syempre bago yun dadaan muna tayo sa pancake house"

"really?" she asked excitedly and then sit straight up not minding that shes on her birthday suit

"on the second thought, pwede nalang tayo magpadeliver dito then we can make love all day" i asked as i wiggled my eyebrows on her

she giggled "sira ka talaga, hindi pwede no, dadalawin pa naten sila and besides we will be dating outside"

"sabi ko nga eh tumayo ka na dyan dahil may date pa tayo eh" i smiled

she just giggled. then pumunta ng bathroom at matapos namen maligo at magcuddle at well, alam nyo na. we are now in our robes.

"Hon, eto susuotin ko oh, bagay ba?" she asked while holding a summer dress

"Bakit ngayon ko lang nakita yan Hon? bumili ba tayo ng ganyan?"

"hindi binili ko last three weeks nung kasama ko sila Lean" i know that hindi nya binili yan kasama sina Lean, "sya" ang kasama ng asawa ko ng panahong binili nya yan

"pwede bang wag nalang yan? gusto ko kasi sana mag couple shirt tayo eh, ok lang ba?" i asked

"sure" she said smiling. i dont want her to wear something "that guy" buys for her. dapat ako lang ang naiisip nya kapag magkasama kame. this is our quality time, hindi ko "sya" papayagang mag-intrude samen.

"wow, ang ganda naman ng binili mong couple shirt at ang dami hah? we will wear this one. hahaha yan bagay" she said matapos namen suotin ang couple shirt, those little things she loved since college eh hindi pa din nagbabago, i hate wearing this, nakakahiya kasi at ang OA pero i can resort to these things as long as i can make my wife happy.. as long as she stays with me..

we went to the Pancake house and eat her favorite food..

"i really miss eating here" she said while were eating our breakfast already

"yea, we should do this everyday"

"yea we should date, but doing it everyday, nah..baka magsawa ka naman saken nyan" she said playfully.

"ako magsasawa? that wont happen. never. i wont ever let go of you. never, only death can make me" i said seriously

she kept quiet for a while then..

"i know. dont worry i have no intentions of leaving you, ok?" then we continued eating then went to a grocery store to buy Vie and J's some fruits also some pasalubong. then we went to St. Luke's to visit them.

"its been a long time na hon noh, since you see them?" she said, kasi kasama nya din daw minsan sila Lean, Vie at V and others para makapag girl bonding. ewan ko, minsan hindi ko na alam kung kelan talaga sya umaalis kasama sina V o kasama "sya". pero i rather let her be with her friends all day than being with him.

then as we reached our destination, bigla akong kinabahan, hindi ko alam, natatakot ako.. paano kung hindi pa sila nagkikita at magulat sila V na ngayon lang nakita si Selena, it means...

"here we are" then she slowly opened the door.

"Woah! its been a long time seeing you pare, buti lumabas ka na sa lungga." Jack-Jack said then hugged me

"oh, your a sight for a sore eyes Guy, we missed you, oo nga lagi ka nalang busy. buti pa si Selena nakakasama namen" said V.. i felt relieved, so hindi talaga lagi silang magkasama.

"Grabe pare, gwumapo tayo ah.. halika magkwentuhan muna tayo at namiss kitang kolokoy ka" Jack-Jack

EMN: yaan po muna..

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JON's POV:

"Hey love, what are you doing here in the living room? Bakit di ka nagdiretso sa love nest naten?" Lumapit ako sakanya para tabihan sya sa sofa.

"....." but she didnt move to hug me or didnt response.

"im so happy nakapunta ka dito its really a surprise na andito ka kahit na.." i stopped talking at nilapit ko uli yung katawan ko para yakapin sya then she hugged me tightly. So tightly i feel like she dont want me to let go. Like there's somethings wrong.

"hey what's the prob, why so quiet" I asked Selena. But still no response.

So i started kissing and caressing her, and a moan escape her mouth, so i continue to caress her back and kiss her neck down to her collarbone down to her peak, then another moan escape her mouth as she caress my back, as i play on her peak using my hand and mouth while my other hand roam her body as she keeps moaning my name then i went back to her mouth as for my hand on her peak and the other on her legs, teasing her. She growl sexily.

"Ahhh stop ahh doin that" she moaned. So i slid a finger in her slit.

"Aaaaah" she moaned with pleasure

So i continue thrusting my finger, then put another two fingers inside her "aaah" i moan between our kisses as i feel her wetness in my hand causes my groin hard. Bigtime.

Then right there and then, in our love sofa, we made love. Im very much happy, contented and loved.

When our breathing starting to steady I hug her tightly. Then she lightly pushes me away. I look at her confused, then let her go.

"Why?" Bakit iba yung nararamdaman ko? Bakit parang mali.

"You know i love you right?" She said then brushed her lips on mine.

"Yea and you know that i also do, more than my life, right?" Then tried to kiss her. Yes, TRIED. Umiwas kasi sya. I dont want this kind of situation, minsan na nga lang kame magkita eh. Then ganito pa..

"Hey you know what, naisip ko lang magpunta tayo sa beach para naman makapagdate..." then she cut me off.

"Im sorry Jon, you know that i love you more than i love my husband.."

"This is so hard" she mumbles, slowly tears streaming her face. I didnt respond. So she continues.

"You know that i cant leave him right? That.. that.. that id rather leave you than turn my back on my husband..im really sorry.. remember that i love you ok? Forget about me. Bye Jon, im sorry but im leaving you. This time, this time.." umiyak nyang sabi..

as for me, i dont know para akong napipi at hindi makapagsalita pa.

"Im not coming back again, im sorry" Selena said then she started walking away from me.

I cant move.

I cant talk.

All i can do is cry.

Tears streaming my face like a water falls..

I mean, literally.

"Bro, gising." Someone said so i started to open my eyes.

I sigh. Its a nightmare, a very shivering and earth shaking nightmare. Ang pinaka nakakatakot na panaginip.

But its a good thing that its just a dream, right? Its just a dream, it wont happen. Yea, she wouldn't do that, would she?

"Umiiyak at umuungol ka habang natutulog, ang hirap mo gisingin kaya binuhusan nalang kita ng tubig, ayos ka lang ba?" sabi ni dylan at tumabi saken sa sofa..

oo nga pala naginuman kame then nakatulog ako dito sa sofa

"Ang sakit ng ulo ko" nahahapo kong sabi. Buti nalang panaginip lang yun.

"eto kape, baliw ka kasi inubos mo isang emperador" kinuha ko ang kape at nagsip ng konti at muling nilapag sa center table at sinubsob ko ang mukha ko sa palad ko.

masakit na ulo because of a hangover + a nightmare + masakit na puso = a very horrible morning.

"Ano nga pala panaginip mo at umiiyak ka?"tanong ni Dylan pagbalik nya galing kwarto at binigyan ako ng towel at shirt dahil medyo madame din yung tubig na binuhos saken.

"Grabe sa tubig ah, pwedeng pigain yung shirt ko sa sobrang basa. Kaya pala sa panaginip ko water falls ang iyak ko" i bitterly smiled remembering the dream. It pains me, sobrang sakit sa puso mas higit pa sa sakit ng ulo na nararamdaman ko ngayon..

"Sorry dude, ayaw mo magising eh, di binuhos ko yung nasa pitsel" siraulo talaga pwede namang isang baso lang, bakit kelangan isang pitsel?

Oh well its a good a thing that he did that, cause i woke up from that horrible nightmare. But why does it feels so real? The pain and everything.

Then it hits me, paano kung mangyari yun? Paano kung pangitain yun ng pamamaalam saken ni Selena. Di ko kaya. Then, suddenly my tears burst.

"She walked away from me dude, shet ang hirap! Nakaw na sandali at oras lang ang kaya nyang ibigay saken. Tapos, tapos.." humagulgol na ako at hindi na natuloy ang sasabihin, yea wala din nangyari sa paginom ko kundi hangover, masakit pa din ngayon.. hindi nabawasan ng alak ang problema ko then the word na "tapos." Yun na ata yung pinakamahirap na tanggapin na salita.

"Tama na pre, i mean sige ilabas mo lang yang nararamdaman mo, pero stop thinking of that dream. Its just a dream." dylan

"Paano kung magkatotoo? Paano kung pangitain yun?"

"Di mo ba alam yung sabi-sabi ng mga matatanda, kabaligtaran daw ang nangyayari ng mga panaginip naten?" I just cried. Sana nga. SANA.

"Hey put yourself together, papakilala mo pa ako kay Guy, so i know what plan i have to do.. kung papaano sya hihiwalay kay Selena so you can have her to yourself" dylan

"Really, you will do it? You'll help me?" Excited kong tanong, cause i tried everything para di na umuwi si Selena yet eto pa rin kame sa sitwasyong to.

"Yes dude, ill try my best to do so. Ako nahihirapan kakaiyak mo eh, yuck! Biruin mo, ang isa sa mga genius ng barkada, uhugin pala" i laugh on that joke. Yeah matalino ako sa math and physics pero pagdating sa usapang puso, NAPAKABOBO KO! Yan capitalized,to emphasize sa sarili ko ang pagiging dakilang tanga ko. Pero wala eh, mahal ko, mahal na mahal ko, higit pa nga sa ego, sa pride, sa pagkalalaki at sa buhay ko. Im willing to strip that and everything i have in me basta i can be with her, for the rest of our lives.

"Tara na, bihis na ako oh" paglabas ni dylan galing kwarto, buti nakapagpalit na din ako ng shirt kaya lumakad na din kame.

I feel excited, agitated and nervous, baka kasi magalit saken si Selena kapag nagpakita kame dun biglaan lalo na at kasama ko si dylan

Then we arrived at our destination. Here goes nothing.

GUY's POV:

"Pre, Jon to, asan kayo? Andito kasi kame ng kaibigan ko yayayain ko sana kayo, pagpunta ko naman dito sa bahay nyo wala namang tao." Sabi ni Jon nagyayahoo messenger lang kame..

"Sensya na pre, bukas nalang siguro, nagdadate kasi kame ng misis ko ngayon eh"

"Sino yang kachat mo hon?" tanong ni Selena pagkatapos magCR i just mouthed that its Jon

"Ah ganon ba, sensya na sa istorbo kung ganon" Jon

"Ok lang, sensya na din hah. Bukas nalang. Salamat. Ingat"

"Sige, ingat kayo at pakasaya. Bye" then he logged out..

"Bakit daw hon?" Selena asked curiously

"Wala nagyayaya lang ng inuman, andun daw sila sa bahay, sabi ko nagdadate tayo eh"

"Huh?! Bakit sinabi mo pa yun?" Selena

Nagtatakang nag angat ako ng tingin sakanya. "Nakakahiya kasi" sabi nya at muling itinuon ang pansin sa pagkaen.

Hindi ko nalang pinansin si Selena at muling inalala ang sinabi ni Jon. There's something in his message, ewan. Pero i feel there's something wrong, i dont know, i can sense some bitterness in it basta.. But why say something like that.. Pwede kayang.. Ahh, siguro may problema lang talaga sya. Oh well, bukas ko nalang sya kakausapin. For now, i have to entertain my wife first.

"When were done here, where do you want to go next?"

"Umuwi nalang tayo." She said not even glancing at me. "Bakit naman? Date naten to, its our bonding day diba?" Then nilapit ko yung upuan ko sa tabi nya..

"Eh nagagalit ka kasi saken, di mo kasi ako iniimik" she said still looking her food..

"Silly, hindi noh, kelan ba ako nagalit sa babaeng pinakamaganda at syempre pinakamamahal ko?" Kahit nga may kahati na ako sayo hindi ko pa din makuhang magalit, dahil kahit gusto ko, mas nangingibabaw yung pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko para sayo.. when i said that her face lightens up ng mag angat sya ng tingin saken..

"Then surprise me, kahit saan mo ko dalhin sasama ako sayo" she said happily then kissed my lips. Smack lang. So much for the PDA around us. Yan kasi pinakaayaw ng asawa ko noh..

"What if we cruise in Europe, or anywhere you want atleast a week or two, this can be our second honeymoon, how about that?" i asked expecting she will say yes, but i know better...

"You know... i mean.. we cant just leave.. i mean.. you must.. ahh.. we must not spend money on some.. well on those kind of trips. Even though we have enough money for ourselves di mo pa rin masasabi.. lalo na at naibenta mo na lahat ng shares mo sa kumpanya, and every business and properties that we have, wag naman sana, pero paano kapag naulit yung aksidente dati.. you know what i mean right?" I just nod and smile. A fake smile. Yea i know better but im still hoping that when someday i asked her to leave this place, to go far from here and from this horrible situation, she will instantly say yes. Someday. HOPEFULLY, SOMEDAY.

"Ok then finish up your meal, i know where to take you" Then we left the restaurant and went to our destination.

We took a taxi to Southern part of Luzon where Enchanted World is. This is where we first met.

"Wow nakatayo pa pala to hon, may mga bago na silang rides and establishment pero it still feel so nostalgic." Amazed she was.

"Yea remember on this very gate, even though its a different gate, stillt this is where our eyes met. And then you smiled at me. Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko noon."

"Haha then nalaman mong si Migoy pala yung nginitian ko. Hahaha asar na asar ka saken noon diba?" She said joyfully. This is my only chance na magstay sya saken. Bring back our happy memories. Bring back the old times. Let her remember why she loved me.. so she shall stay with me..

"3days from now, it will be 15yrs since the day we met, so we will be on a grand date okay?"

"Huh? Yea, sure. Hon, look! Wow! lets try the new rides hon" she said joyfully while dragging me.

(FF)

After we tried all the crazy rides, napagod din sya sa wakas. Then i called a cab para makauwi na din kame. Its already 8pm na din kasi. Im so happy na makita syang masaya na kasama ako. It means the world to me. Even though maubos yung perang naipon namen at napagbentahan namen gagawin ko, as long as i can keep her. Mine alone.

"Did you enjoy our date?" I asked while her head is leaning on my shoulder.

"Yeah it was very fun. We should do this often. I miss going out like this with you. Pero.. ahm.. dito pa din dapat sa manila hah.." alanganin nyang sabi

"Yeah, i understand." I truly wish i that i really do understand.

"Ok take a rest muna. Ill wake you later pag nasa bahay na tayo. You look tired."

"Yeah i am. But still, i am happy. Very. Thanks hon." She said before she fell asleep.

Hays. I already learned something kanina habang kausap ko si JackJack.

(Flashback)

"Grabe pare, gwumapo tayo ah.. halika magkwentuhan muna tayo at namiss kitang kolokoy ka" Jack-Jack so i obliged when he takes me outside para daw makapagkwentuhan.

"so, how's life pare?" he asked while were walking on our way to cafeteria..

"Pasensya na kasi pre, alam mo naman na.." then he cuts me off

"yeah, yeah i understand. your busy with work. Grabe, mayaman ka na, nagpapayaman ka pa? baka hindi na kita mareach tol?" then he tap my shoulder

"hindi naman sa ganun, kaya lang.. well. ahm.. ok fine, guilty as charged" i said, anong sasabihin ko? na matagal ko ng binenta yung mga stocks and shares ng company ko.Na lahat ng properties na meron ako, eh ni-liquidate ko na. Na hindi totoong busy pa ako sa trabaho, kundi busy SYA sa kung sinumang ponsyopilatong yun. i can feel that Selena said im busy in the office kaya hindi ako nakakasama. Well, i cant do anything about this anymore. I might as well play fool till the end of time, well i still wishes that not until the end..

"grabe kala ko hindi ka nanaman pupunta eh. Naku! susugurin na talaga kita sa office mo" he said playfully. I just smiled at him. then nagkwento na sya sa mga namiss kong reunions namen.

Nagkwento sya tungkol sa mga kalokohan ng iba pang tropa. Well, i dont want to look foolish infront of them kaya i wouldnt bother confiding my problem sa isa sa mga bros ko.

Besides, hindi ko kayang sabihin ang mga ganoong bagay sa mga taong nakakakilala kay Selena, its like.. i dont know.. basta hindi ko sya kayang siraan. The perfect, demure and innocent girl she was. Nah-uh.

Kaya ko pa naman eh. Kaya ko pang magtiis eh. Then we reached our destination.

"so what do you want pre?" he asked as he scanned the food.

"wala, busog pa ko tol, kakakain lang kasi namen bago kame nagpunta dito eh. so, no thanks"

"oh, ok then. haha! wala palang sense pagpunta naten dito. tsk. lets go" my mouth is itching to ask this. i dont know, this my chance to know something right?

"why dont we buy some coffee and talk for a while. Para bro time muna while theyre doing the girl bonding?" i asked hopefully. nag-aalangan pa kasi akong itanong. Kung dapat ko pa bang itanong. masasaktan nanaman ako eh. Well, whats new i guess.

"Great idea. Lets go!" he said cheerfully. so i just followed him. matapos kameng makabili ng kape, sa isang coffee machine we went to a garden here then sat in one of the benches.

"so how's life? ahm, i mean as father?" panimula ko

"well, its great man. it makes you.. i dont know. more mature. nagbabago kasi yung priorities and pananaw naten sa buhay kapag may anak na eh" he said srsly

"wow dude. lalim naten, pananaw, nose bleed" natatawang sabi ko kaya nakitawa na din sya. this is it.

After we stop laughing, i asked.

"so, kapag ba nagkikita kita sila Selena, i mean saan-saan ba sila nagpupunta?"

"still the possessive and obsessive jerk, arent we?" nangaasar nyang sabi. well, its better that he thinks that way..

"sagutin mo nalang. dameng alam eh noh?!" kunwaring naiinis kong sabi pero nakangiti pa din.

"haha, basta talaga kay Selena. Yan tayo eh noh?" naiiling nyang sabi. but i didnt respond. i really want to know. kahit na alam ko na yung sagot.

"hays. well, dont worry bro, hindi naman sya maagaw sayo, recently nga lang sya nakipagkita samen dahil inaasikaso ka palagi.. anyways, noong nagkikita kasi sila, once a week lang diba then sobrang saglit lang siguro 2-3 hours lang sila magkakasama para magbonding at magchikahan. lalo na ng umalis na sila Luisa. Paano di magmamadali yun, inaalala ka kasi nun lagi." I just nod. Ang sarap sanang pakinggan kung totoo un. But i know why shes in a rush. But i cant tell them. Not yet, i hope that i dont have to. Maayos ko pa naman ito, db?

(End of Flashback)

i dont know kung paano ko pa nakausap ng matino si JJ nun. lutang na utak ko ng marinig ko un then masakit pa sa ulong isipin kung ano ba talaga. Pero higit sa lahat masakit sa puso. Kung kaya ko lang talaga. Hays never mind.

EMN: yaan po muna. may lakad bukas eh. wala pong magiging iba pang third party or someone new. meron na talaga tong storyline. ending na lang talaga yung inaayos ko kaya sorry i cant give Guy a new girl. inlab sya eh. next chapter Jon's POV ^___^ salamat po sa mga nagrereads.

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EMN: pasensya na po at si GUY uli ung POV di ko kasi feel na si Jon sa kasalukuyan, kaya si Guy melabs uli.. then may dinagdag po ako ng kaunti sa secrets and lies.. konti lang naman typo kasi yung years eh 15years na sila since high school pa kasi sila magkakilala..

Haba na ng kaepalan ko sensya naman. Sabagay wala naman nagbabasa XD

GUYs POV:

"Were here hon, wake up" sabi ko sa asawa ko at malumanay na niyugyog pero nananatili syang nakasandal saken kaya marahan kong kinuha ang wallet ko at saka nag bayad. Marahan kong inalis ang ulo ni Selena at lumabas, them binuhat ko sya hanggang sa kwarto. Tinanggal ko ang sapatos at ang mga damit. Leaving her undergarments only. Hays. My beautiful wife.

"Hmmmmp" she mumbles. Ang sarap ng tulog nya kaya naisipan ko na pupunasan ko nalang sya. Patayo na ako ng marinig ko syang magsalita

"Sssh, dont cry. Mmmm. You know.. i love you more.. don't worry.. i won't leave you" i smiled bitterly, im sure that shes dreaming of me, begging her to stay. Well, i can do that wag lang syang mawala saken. But then again, she said she wouldnt, so somehow im still happy. Aken pa din ang asawa ko. Someday, i hope, magsasawa din sya at babalik kame sa dati.

Nagdala lang ako sa kwarto ng maliit na planggana at bimpo kasama ang pangtulog ng asawa ko. Pinunasan ko sya ng marahan. Pero nagising sya pagdampi ng bimpo sa kanyang mukha.

"Hmmm. Hon, bakit pinupunusan mo ko? Dapat ginising mo nalang ako. Para naman akong maysakit nyan, saka isa pa pagod ka din dapat di mo na.." i just cut her off.

"I will never get tired of serving and showing how i love you. It makes me happy kapag ganitong napagsisilbihan ko ang asawa ko noh" i said smiling and continue what im doing.

"Ahh. How sweet. Anong oras na pala hon?"

"Its aleady past 10pm, syempre, mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. I just want you to feel and know that every seconds of the day."

"And you know that I also love you too" she said then smile at me and let me do what im doing. After cleaning her,actually yung mukha at kamay lang naman nya yung nalinis ko, "madudumihan" ko din naman sya mamaya. Lalo na't gising na sya. Then she gave me a kiss, fully, on my lips. Medyo nagulat ako kasi naglalakbay yung utak ko pero i responded as well. As hot and with the same intensity she's giving me.

Then her hands started to roam around my body, as she keeps on moaning my name. So i just mimick what her hands are doing and where it lands to. Cause i also want her to feel the pleasure and fire she's giving me and also because the fire inside me is burning like hell from her pleasurable touches and kisses.

Im very much happy, cause i know, sooner, that i can have my wife back. All to myself. Again.

(FF)

Its already 10am pagtingin ko sa wall clock, medyo tanghali na pala, magdamag kasi kame ng asawa ko. Inabot kame ng 1am cause we cant get enough of each other. I smiled of that thought. Bumangon na ako dahil wala sa tabi ko ang asawa ko, malamang nagluluto sya ng almusal. So i just took a quick shower and went down na din. I saw my wife, already preparing the table.

"I was about to go up and wake you" Selena habang inaayos ang lamesa.

"Nah, dapat nga ako ang maghahanda ng almusal, dahil pinagod kita" i said then winked at her. Then she blushes, ayaw na ayaw nya kasi ng mga ganoon birp. Nahihiya daw sya.

"GUY!" she exclaimed

"Haha! Just kidding, now sit down and eat with me before i eat you" i said jokingly

"HON!" Then she playfully slap my shoulder

"Wow! Sarap naman ng almusal, bacon, fried rice and Selena on the side" tumawa lang sya sa sinabi ko at kumain na kame.

We were joking around while eating then niligpit ko na yung pinagkaen namen. Then sabay na kameng naligo sa bathtub. Well syempre hindi lang kame naligo. Halos 1oras mahigit kame sa banyo, pleasuring each other habang pinapaliguan ang isa't-isa. Then we continue "IT" on our bedroom. Im just happy. Very much.

Were just cuddling on our bedroom. Then nagring yung telephone kaya umalis na sa kama si Selena and said na maghahanda na sya nang pangtanghalian namen. Ala-una pasado na din kase.

"Hey bro, pwede na ba kameng pumunta dyan?" Jon

"Oo naman, tatawagan na nga sana kita eh. Sure. Pero sinong kame? Papakilala mo na ba girlfriend mo ha?"

"Haha. Sure. But some other time bro. Busy pa yun, twice to thrice a week nga lang kame magkita non eh. Pero bestfriend ko kasama ko birthday kasi non, walang mayayang kasama, eh naisip kita. So, pupunta na kame dyan ha." natatawa nyang sabi

"Sure. Dito na tayo maginuman ayaw kasi ng asawa ko na lumalabas ako kapag nainom eh. Saka sakto naghahanda na ng tanghalian si Selena."

"Ngayon pa lang kayo maghahanda ng tanghalian? Alauna pasado na ah." Seryosong tanong nya

"Oo eh, pinagod kasi ako ni misis. Haha. Sige na. Punta nalang kayo. Bye" then binaba nalang nya bigla. Kaya bumaba nalang din ako para tignan kung anong niluluto nya.

"Who called?" She asked ng yakapin ko sya sa likod.

"Jon" i said then snuggle at her neck. I feel her stiffened, or does she? Nah. Then i started kissing and licking her neck.

"Hon, mmmmm may bisita ka mamaya diba" she said between her moans.

"So?" Then continued licking her neck

Then humarap sya saken ng dahan-dahan at pushes me away. Slowly. Then she turned around to the stove din agad. I dont know why but i felt a fang of pain when she did that. First time she pushes me away. Bigla din akong kinabahan. Why? Even I dont know. Basta, may mali eh.

So i just hug her waist and hugged her so tight. Di ko alam pero i feel like she's miles away from me right now. Then i suck her neck making her moan. Then i stop when i know that i already gave her a love bite.

"What was that for?" Nagtatakang tanong nya pagkatapos nyang patayin yung kalan.

"Nothing. Just marking my territory" then i leave her dumbfonded. Nashock siguro miski ako nashock sa ginawa ko. I dont know i just felt doing that. Then the doorbell rings. Andito na pala si Jon.

EMN: this is it pansit muna. anyways, what is Dylan and Jon's plan? Will Guy find out that his rival is his new found friend? naks.. damang dama ko pag english.. walang epal kahit mali. XD thanks uli sa mga nagbabasa lalo na kay @thegirlinred199 && @KuElaSuAzo. arigato. many many. hahaha hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as i did while writing it. ^___^

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EMN: si selena naman, para mabugbog nyo na sya sa utak nyo haha. XD ganun kasi ginagawa ko kay nina dobrev eh. Biruin mo tanggihan ba daw yung alok na kasal ni Ian. Kaya sila nagkalabuan at kaya nagbreak eh. Tsk. Tsk. Walang utak, ayawan ba si Ian? Gosh! Choosy masyado te? Nyeta! Ako yan, ako na magtatanong, pag nagNO pipikutin ko o gagawing shotgun marriage. Haha. I just so love Ian Joseph Somerhalder. Who wouldn't?

That's just my sentiments as the secret wife of Ian Joseph Somerhalder! XD loveee.it

Anyways enjoy reading.

play MM sa side. Bagay na bagay kay selena db? Haha. Pak na pak yung song. Love it.. enjoy!

SELENA's POV :

Maaga akong gumising dahil may kelangan akong gawin. Kagabi nanaginip ako, im about to leave Jon dahil sinabi ni Guy na sasama na daw ako sakanya. Alam na daw ni Guy yung samen ni Jon basta ganun, kasama ko daw si Guy magpaalam kay Jon. Weird nga eh. Dahil dun, Jon's crying and begging me not to leave him. Then biglang naging blurr yung background, nasa beach na kame bigla but his still on his knees crying and begging. Lumuhod daw ako sa harap nya then said

"Sssh, dont cry. Mmmm. You know i love you more don't worry i won't leave you" when i said that bigla nanaman nag iba yung setting, kinakasal na daw kame sa beach. Then nagising ako na si Guy nasa harap ko pinununasan ako.

Ewan, but i feel something bad will happen kaya kahit puyat pinilit kong bumangon ng 8am para matawagan ko si Jon.

After a few rings. Finally, he answerd.

"Hey handsome, good morning. I miss you" pinasigla ko ang boses ko alam ko kasi nagtatampo dahil sinabi ni Guy na magkadate kame.

"Sino to? Tantanan mo ko pwede, may asawa na ako." Then he hung up. Bagong gising, hindi siguro nya nakita yung caller id na ako ang natawag. May mga fangirls kasi yan, natawag para lang magconfess nang pagibig. Haha nakasimangot yun bago titingin sa caller id. Then nagring din agad ang phone. Haha. Edi tumawag sya. I answered it after 2rings baka magising naman kasi si Guy. Kawawa naman, pagod yun kagabi eh.

"Bakit tumatawag ka, kala ko ba tantanan ka?" Kunwari'y galit kong sabi

"Sorry na love, i didnt know it was you. I miss you too. 2days from now monthsary na naten" naglalambing nyang saken. Oo nga pala. Excited na ako.

"Ewan. Aga aga kong gumising makausap ka lang tapos sisigawan mo ko" kunwari nagtatampo pa din ako pero ang totoo nakangiti ako.

"Oo na sige na hindi na ako nagtatampo ,kahit na nagdate kayo ni Guy. Love you always." Alam nya talaga pag nagrarason lang ako

"Love you too. I miss you so much. Anong gagawin naten sa monthsary naten?" Malambing kong tanong

"It will be a surprise love" then nagkwentuhan lang kame sa mga ginawa nila Dylan noong naginuman sila kahapon. Then nakita kong its almost 9am na pala.

"Love i need to hung up now" alangan kong sabi. He doesn't want me saying goodbye to him.

"I hope na ako ang pinagsisilbihan mo ngayon" Malungkot na sabi nya pero di na ako sumagot pa. Anong sasabihin ko? I also don't know. Then muli syang nagsalita.

"Magtanan nalang kaya tayo. Mag abroad tayo yung malayong malayo..." i just cut him off

"You know i cant do that diba? Nagusap na tayo diba?"

"Yeah we did. Pero di ko pa din magets. Mas mahal mo ko love diba? Diba? dapat lumayo nalang tayo" jon

"I told you, hindi ko pwedeng basta iiwan si Guy. He will be devastated. Gosh. Baka anong gawin nya, i told you kapag over stress sya, kung anu ano ginagawa nya."

"I do understand. Kaso nahihirapan na din ako" jon

"I know that. Pero.. love naman, eto nanaman ba tayo. Diba kinwento ko na sayo na noong college kame, nang sabay mamatay yung magulang nya sa plane crash, ilang beses syang nagpapakamatay. Nasasalba lang talaga sya. His weak. His.. basta please let's not talk about this anymore. Malapit na monthsary naten magtatalo pa ba tayo?"

"Ok. Basta i love you. I miss you. See you love" then he hungs up. Tsk. Nagtatampo nanaman yun. Hindi naman kasi madali yung gusto nyang mangyari. Isa pa hindi lang dahil sa naaawa at natatakot ako sa maaaring gagawin ni Guy kaya ako nagsstay pa din. Its more than that. Because mahal ko din sya. I do. Some may not believe it. Pero hindi ko kasi napipicture yung sarili ko na nagigising na wala si Guy. Pero i still picture myself waking up na si Jon ang nabubungaran ko. Hay. Ang gulo ng utak at puso ko noh. What can i do? I love them both. I know im really selfish. Di ko kasi kayang ilet go kahit isa man lang sakanila. I will feel incomplete. Hays, makaluto na nga lang. Natapos na akong nagluto at inaayos ko na yung mesa its already 10am. Kelangan ko din palang gisingin asawa ko dahil sasakit na ulo non pag nag oversleep. Then i heard footsteps.

"I was about to go up and wake you" sabi ko habang inaayos ang mesa.

"Nah, dapat nga ako ang maghahanda ng almusal, dahil pinagod kita" he playfully said then winked at me. I felt that im blushing.

"GUY!" I exclaimed. Siraulo kasi. Di naman dapat pinaguusapan yun eh. Tsk. Ang landi ng asawa ko.

"Haha! Just kidding, now sit down and eat with me before i eat you" he said while laughing hard.

"HON!" Then i playfully slap his shoulder.

"Wow! Sarap naman ng almusal, bacon, fried rice and Selena on the side" natawa naman ako sa sinabi nya. Baliw na talaga asawa ko.

We were joking around while eating, saglit lang kame kumain maglulunch pa kase kame later. We love eating eh. Then nakita ko na nililigpit nalang ni Guy yung pinagkaen namen. Then sabay na kameng umakyat para daw sabay na din kameng maligo sa bathtub. Napakalandi talaga. Alam ko naman na hindi lang kame maliligo. Syempre tama ako ng hinala ko, hindi lang kame naligo. Kaya halos 1oras mahigit kame sa banyo, pleasuring each other habang pinapaliguan ang isa't-isa. Trip nya yan. Maiba naman daw at hindi na po sya nakuntento cause we continue "IT" on our bedroom.

Were just cuddling on our bedroom. Then nagring yung telephone kaya tumayo na ko sa kama and mouthed to Guy na maghahanda na ako nang pangtanghalian namen. Ala-una pasado na din kase.

Nagsaing na ako kaya i started cooking. Naghiwa na kasi ako ng kelangan ko kanina kaya mabilis nalang maluluto tong mechado. Both Guy and Jon's fav food. Then i heard my husband going down the stairs.

"Who called?" I asked ng yakapin nya ako sa likod. Tsk. Gusto magpalambing ng mama.

"Jon" he said then snuggle his face on my neck. I feel that i stiffened. Why does he needs to complicate things than it is. Then he started kissing and licking my neck.

"Hon, mmmmm may bisita ka mamaya diba" i said between my moans. Baka kasi dumating na si Jon

Tsk. Lagot saken tong lalaking to.

"So?" Sabi nya na parang bored then he continues licking my neck

Kaya humarap ako sakanya ng dahan-dahan and pushes him away. Marahan lang naman. Then i turned around to the stove din agad. Baka masunog eh.

Then bigla nalang nyang niyakap ang bewang ko and hugged me so tight. I feel i can no longer breath. But i just let him be. Mahirap suyuin to, pag nagtatampo eh.

Then nabigla nalang ako when he started sucking my neck making me moan. Then he stops.

"What was that for?" Nagtatakang tanong ko sakanya pagkatapos kong patayin yung kalan.

"Nothing. Just marking my territory" then he walks out. Ako? Natulala. What does he mean by that. I really have a bad feeling about this.

Then the doorbell rings. Si Jon.

~~to be continued