Chapter 14
Jungkook's POV
I never wanted Jimin to think like that. I was not angry on him. Moreover I was angry at myself because I am starting to like him or is it just attraction. I want an answer. If this is gonna end like the previous one, I don't think I can handle it.
I don't know whether this is my second right chance..........
I turned around to see all other members were looking around pretending as though nothing have happened. should I go behind him, stop him, explain him
should I?
I think I should first clear my mind and think for an answer I can, give him time. He always gave me space and time, now its my turn
I went outside in the garden to freshen my mind. I need answers. It was twilight. A quiet place for the loudest questions. I sat down on the ground beside a bunch of flowers.
did I move on from Jane?
yes, I did. if I wouldn't, I won't be sitting here seeking for answers
am I scared of loving again?
yes, I am scared, so is jimin. If he is scared of losing me, so am I. We are both in love and pain
can I ignore and leave him forever?
no, I cant. I tried to do it once and see the results now. He hates me. I'm so stupid, so so stupid. What should I do now???
do I love him?
do I
OR
I dont
I am confused
Just someone help me please......
I felt a warm hand on my shoulder. I hope it is Jimin. I'll tell him sorry. I'll do whatever I can to make him happy. But why do I want to make him happy?
why cant I see him cry?
I dont know
I turned around to see and felt a wave of disappointment.
"Are you fine?" he sat on the ground beside me
"Yeah....i'm fine" I lied
"You know you can lie to everyone else but not me. I know you very well. I know what you are feeling but maybe I can't understand it. Only you can do so. Only the person who feels pain can actually how much it was to bear. It you think why am I saying this let me tell you this, I know about you and Jimin from the start. The day you both slept together, I saw you both. I saw how you two were attached to each other, everyday I saw a emotion arising in both of you but I also saw how you were resisting against it- fighting against it. I know you are afraid but never let that destroy your beautiful future with Jimin" Jin hyung said softly
I cant hold back my tears anymore. Jin hyung hug me and comforted me till my cries became sniffles. It felt good to take something off from my chest.
"Do you wanna say anything or ask something" Jin hyung said
"No. I have lost him forever. He hates me now" I removed myself from the hug. There was a quiet silence around us
"You know its never too late. There may still be a chance. Go grab it before, it finally disappears like a falling star. Go make a wish and wait for it to come true. Everything happens for a reason." why is he so damn good with words
"What i did was my mistake, my fault. yesterday when i saw Jimin with Hoseok hyung, so close like they are boyfriends, it angered me. I didnt want to admit but yes I was jealous and in that stupidity, i ignored him today. I was cold to him. when I knew I felt jealous, I was afraid to get hurt, to be broken again. So I thought it would be worth a try to ignore him and see whether I can leave him. But seeing the outcome I know I can't do that. I was a fool. I want him to be with me again. Is that so wrong. I will beg him, if that is what he wants. But right now i dont know what I am feeling is love or a rebound"
nothing so easy as catching a heart on the rebound
"How would you feel if Hoseok and Jimin started loving each other?"
"I................I dont know the answer to that but I can tell you that it would be very difficult to trust someone again" I replied honestly
"How would you feel when Jimin was right there standing in front of you, extended his hand towards you, but you never took it because something was holding you back . Later if that same hand belongs to someone else?"
"I would sure regret it. I would think why I didn't grab his hand. What hold me back?"
"What would you do, when Jimin was standing right in front, extending his hand while you were slowly raising your hand too. But suddenly a car came out of nowhere and hit him. What would you do? Would that hand be in air trembling or next to him in the hospital bed!?"
"I would never let that happen, I would immediately keep my hand on his and protect him from all the darkness" I said with a determined look. I wont let anything happen to my jimin"
A clapping sound brought me back to reality. I was confused as to why Jin hyung was so happy. He was grinning. he smacked me on the head
"Hey! What was that for?" I asked rubbing the spot
"You ask me whether, what you feel is attraction or love and here you are talking about Jimin like a lover. You idiot!. You had already fallen in love with him. There is no turning back . It's time you grabbed the hand before its gone"
"But--"
"Listen if you do as I say, you would thanks me later. Trust me. Just this one. Tell him sorry, beg for his forgiveness and ask for a chance. You knock on one door other will on their own. You know he can't be angry on anybody for long time. He is not like those who forget the old friends when new come. Now its up to you. Go get him or lose him" Jin hyung patted my back and went inside
I think I should do what he told me to do. I went inside and stood outside Jimin's door. I released a breath I didnt know I hold.
I knocked on the door............................