Chapter 2

Yoongi held the couple of won on his hand, sighing to himself. He walked from aisle to aisle, looking for something cheap that could satisfy his grumbling stomach. After some time, he found himself holding a cup of ramen. He looked at the price again and assured himself that he would still at least have some cents left after he buy this. He went to the cashier and bought the food, filling it with hot water on the dispenser. He walked to the table outside, waiting for the ramen to be finished cooking. It was a chilly night, stars lighted the starry night and the moon shown full as it'll ever be. It reminded him of Jimin, the way they would go out and eat midnight snacks while looking at the night sky. He smiled painfully but went back to reality after some time. He ate the ramen in a fast pace, eager to go home and take his sleep. After finishing the cup, he threw it on the trash bin and walked home with only the sound of his shoes hitting the pavement being heard.

"Yoongi! What if a ghost suddenly came out of that dark alley over there?? That would be terrifying"

Unconsciuosly, he breathed out a laugh as he remembered that night. Beyond reaching his home, he still had the smile plastered on his face. But the smile faded as he saw a familiar black ferrari parked in front of his abode. He practically run to his porch, to be greeted by a tall man on his 20's.

"Hyung..." The guy said, facing Yoongi. Right in front of him, stood Taehyung. His bestfriend...Was..His/ their bestfriend.

"Taehyung" Yoongi exclaimed in acknowledgement. He stretched his hand forward for Taehyung to shake but he just glanced at it and hugged his hyung. This action surprised the older one, catching his breathe as the two made contact.

"H-Hyung..." Taehyung sobbed on the Yoongi's embrace. The pained voice behind each gasp the younger take was enough to pinch the heart of Yoongi. It hurts him, it hurts him to know that a person he see as a brother is hurting so much.

"Come Taehyung, let's get inside. We'll talk about it. Stop crying." Yoongi was known for being the biggest tsundere living on earth. He might be cold and un-movable on the outside but if you unfold the truth it would bring you a soften hearted Yoongi. The two went inside and sat on the couch. Taehyung's eyes once again watered and there he goes crying. It was hard, but Yoongi must try. "Tae, what is it?" He asked.

"Hyung. Tell me, why-why did we suddenly fell apart? Why do we have to leave each other gasping for air?"

Taehyung cried,  looking straight at Yoongi's eyes. Yoongi himself didn't knew the answer. But he knew who's fault it is. It was already four years since that day, but he knew that each and everyone of them still kept that pain of the past. He knew that Jimin's death was still visible on their eyes. It was the past they lose hope to erase.

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Flashback

"Doctor, what happened?" Jin, the older asked with the younger ones trailing before him. Yoongi on the other hand, stood there unmovable.

The man sighed, ready to blurt out the news.

"I'm sorry Mr. Kim, we couldn't save your friend. I'm really so-" Even before he could finish his words, a punch landed on his face.

"You motherfucker!! We trusted you! You killed my Jimin!! You fucking killed him! You are all useless! You're all a piece of shit. The only job is to save him but instead you! YOU GODDAMN KILLED HIM!!" with every words he punched the doctor. His weeping brothers tried to pry him off of the man, but that didn't do anything. He continue to hurt the man brutally, until the police had successfully got him off.

"Mr. Min! You are under arrest for human trafficking" The police exclaimed, locking the  assailant's hands.

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"Mr. Min, you may go now. I hope you wouldn't do such thing again. Thanks for your friends over there they saved you from rotting in prison for years. " Yoongi looked at the police indifferently, he doesn't give a fuck. He didn't regret his decisions earlier. But as he glanced to his friends he see as brothers, his heart clenched. He knew that because of him his hyungs and dongsaengs are hurting.

"Hyung..." Namjoon approached him, slowly. "I know it hurts. Its the same for us, but we need to be careful of our decisions. So please, try thinking before you move that way. Not only you were hurt but also us." He said, using the tone he never used before. And that left a big scar on Yoongi's heart and mind. After that day, he never made contact with the boys anymore. He didn't even come to Jimin's memorial. He didn't want to bother them anymore, as he thought that if he stay together with them he would continue hurting them. It was hard, but then he soon learned how to deal with being alone. Over a year, he wouldn't come out of his house, He wouldn't eat. He fought the urge to commit suicide, but slowly he was killing himself. One night, he was laying on the ground. Bones showing, his face starting to hollow. Even he can never feel himself anymore. He couldn't walk, couldn't crawl so he just stayed there. Slowly, he started to loose air. He's dying, he smiled at the thought. Because he knew that he would be with Jimin soon.

"hyung!!" that was the last thing he heard, before his eyes closed.

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"I'm sorry Taehyung-ah, this is all my fault. I know I can't take back all of those things with such thing as sorry. But, that's all I can do. You can go now Taehyung, don't ever come back. I-I'll just ruin everything for you again. Have a safe trip back home" Yoongi said, ushering Taehyung to go. Taehyung stood and glared at his hyung with disgust. And right then, he punched him.  Yoongi fell on the floor with a loud thud.

"You know what!?! This is what's fucking wrong with you! You always push us away. You thought everything you do is for our best! But you were only benefiting yourself. That day when you left, when we lost contact with you. Did you know how many things you sacrificed? Our friendship, everything. We might act as if we're alright and unaffected, but the truth is we are slowly dying! We make wrong decisions, but we can't hold unto the past forever! I hope this woke you up hyung" And with the words he wanted to let go, Taehyung left. While Yoongi stood there on the ground. Thinking over and over again the words that left Taehyung's mouth.

"We make wrong decisions. But we can't hold unto the past forever..."