I can make it

After being married for 8 years,I have only these blessings with me as a constant reminder to fight. Daily I wake up just because of Sarah and Dew. These past years were never easy, being with an alcoholic spouse leaves you totally wound up. I had nobody to turn to, my parents got me married just looking at his family name. They never bothered to ask me if I am happy. According to them it was their duty. Today again Sarah got an attack, me and her father again fought due to the stress she fainted. She never likes us fighting. Being the elder one she observed everything with time,and is very shy and reserved. She just wants to be with herself. I want to work but don't know how to leave them alone at home. I want to give them everything but find myself so helpless. Every day begins with a thought that "I can make it" - just for these two.