Chapter Sixty-Four

Just a few seconds away and I already felt at lost for not feeling his warm body against mine, dummy me.

Sigh, like this I won't be able to hold on much longer…

But is that a bad thing?

We were, after all, going out… dating… wait, we were dating? That means, like, that Leo is my boyfriend? Boyfriend… I tasted the word in my mouth, and suddenly felt very giddy for some reason.

Ereinion Calien Leonel, my boyfriend.

I liked the sound of that.

I felt like a messy puddle of nerves; some part of me wanted him so bad that scared me, of how quickly it was to give him all of me, but the other part still believe this was a mistake, that it wouldn't work out, that he would leave me, that… I don't know, that I did not trust him?

Deep down I think I don't trust anyone… not even my brother, that's why I study so much, that I work hard so much, so I can take charge of things, that I do what needs to be done, not needing help of anyone…