Roses are Red

Things went back to normal after a few days of vacation. Everything was the same. Reeve was acting normal but sometimes kinda weird. I mean weird in a sweet way. Sometimes I just felt my face blushing when he was acting strangely sweet.

Days went by until its the month of February. Lots of hearts everywhere. I might place some hearts on the house too so we will be filled with love. I can't help but fall more each day. It's like the more I get to know him, the more I see everything the more I like him. He's not perfect but I wouldn't change a thing about him. I like him just the way he is. Living with him on one roof allows me to have the chance to see him the way he is. Sometimes I just wished he wouls just be open about it and tell me instead of using actions that confuses me a lot. You know I don't want to assume on anything because I don't want to get disappointed in the end. My heart is hoping too much now which I think is too dangerous. Don't want to get my heart broken. I don't want to cry for things like this. So now I'm so thinking way too advance now.

I decided to buy a dessert on the way home. We are used to doing this bringing something home with us once in a while well more like once a week. We both loved this pastry and coffee shop. We are even collecting stickers to get a planner at the end of the year. Oh yeah I remembered I haven't written anything on my planner yet. Maybe I should start using it and put some events already. Even though I could write it on my phone, I still prefer writing because I'm more part of the traditional ones actually. I prefer books than e-books.

What day it is? Is it valentine's day already? Lots of couples are here on a date now. I took my phone and checked the date and it's the thirteenth and I have to get home because Reeve is waiting for me to get home and he has work to do. I paid for the bill and rushed home.

When I came home Reeve was feeding Kenji we agreed to start weaning on the next month but look at this guy, he's already starting now with some mashed vegetables.

I placed the dessert bag in front of him and said, "I thought we will start it next month?"

"No worries it's still the same though. Just a few days and its the next month already." he grinned at me while happily feeding the baby.

"Aren't you gonna be late? I'll continue feeding him so you could prepare." He gave me the baby and rushed to his room. When he came out I could smell his favorite perfume filling up our little home. He stopped by where I placed the dessert bag and asked if he could bring it. I nodded in agreement and signaled for him to go now.

I watched as he closed the door and stared at it. His smell is so intoxicating making my heart hurt. It's like he just left a few minutes ago and I'm missing him already. I returned to feeding Kenji on which he wants to eat more. I know Kenji's been trying to grab on whatever we are eating and maybe that's why he decided to start on it early.

I remembered those couples at the café. Sometimes I envy them they could show their love in public. I always hate this season because I don't have a lovelife but well for the past months I had someone to go with somehow. Tomorrow will be valentine's day and I'm hoping a little that 'someone' would give some flowers too. I felt silly and laughed at my thoughts. I think it's better if I just sleep it off. After tomorrow the heart's day will come to an end anyway. I set up the mattress in the living room and I don't know why but I felt sad in my room.

I woke up to hearing a giggling Kenji and noticed me wrapped in a blanket. Maybe I got so cold last night. I looked up and saw the two of them sitting on couch while Kenji was holding a stuffed rose. Reeve made him crawl towards me and I took the rose and gave hime a peck on his cheek.

"Happy Heart's Day Sach" he said. I smiled and hid in the blanket because I just remembered that I haven't brushed my teeth and I don't know if I drooled while sleeping. He smiled at me and sat beside me. He was staring at me all the time and a crease came across my forehead. I still feel unconscious everytime he stares at me and makes me feel like there's butterflies on my stomach. He handed me a heart-shaped pillow and I accepted it with a puzzling expression on my face.

"Remember my new year's resolution? I said I wanted to be brave about something. I actually don't want to ruin things between us but I can't help giving you my heart. I want you to take care of it in the future. I can't imagine someone else holding that. It's just you. Only you." he paused for a little and its like I'm dreaming. Am I hearing these words now? For real?

"I'm not rushing into anything. You don't have to worry. I still want us to enjoy everything like usual. Get to know each other better. Just let me show you how much I like you and how serious I am with you. With us. With everything."

"I like you Sachie..."

Upon hearing those words I felt my heart drumming so fast.

What a nice Valentines dream this is... I don't want to wake up.

Don't wake me up...

12/08/19