C1: The diary of Protagonist...

I'm an atheist with no feelings, life starts by us crying and others smiling with happy, life ends by a feeling that we don't know what situation we'll be left off and the same others crying. When we're born we'll not know that we are crying, when we die..... think about it, I'm Charles Alister, born with no feelings, because i don't believe in anything, but crazy in everything, I too have parents, brothers and sisters and other relations which will be temporary, I'm a liar and I say I've no feelings that's a big lie, because when you care for others, and once they say they've all rights on you, but later say why are you interfering in my life...mmmm..... it hurts, I had a sister, not cousin, but a known who was very sweet to me, later she doesn't care of me, she doesn't even asks how are you, let's understand one thing, at one stage of life, we humans should understand nobody is permanent. That's even God. People say when you are interested in taking responsibility, you get superpower, in reply I asked how? Their answer was when you are decided to take responsibility, the responsibility itself is a superpower, it's strange right, again I'm gonna say that I'm Charles Alister and I'm doing my 12th grade of schooling at Roycord, University. I don't have any friends because i don't interact with anyone, but i had a superpower to take care of my loved ones, but if they leave me.... yes actually they left, but I've my parents, I'll always show my gratitude for raising me like a poet. I too have emotions and sentiment as everybody says, but if i tell this out, they'll say I'm a girl, I'm a female, why only females have gratitude, sentiment and emotion, boys are also humans, even we have it, my story is of getting a superpower in my life and helping the people whom I love, even if they don't love me.

Now everyone one will think that he is an atheist and why does he believe in superpower, yes i believe in superpower because it is a responsibility. i don't believe in superior things, but in superpower. I always wish like to be the heroes of Marvel and DC, but it's impossible, I'm the most ragged one in my university and I'm fed up of it, they come closer to me by very soft attitude, but no they have the wrong attitude.

My elder brother said don't believe anything because at times even salt will look like sugar.

We are the only creatures who hates a worm, but we doesn't know that worm can evolve into a butterfly, it's hard for me to become normal after i hear many words which came flying like thousands of arrows, and later they think that sorry is the solution for every problem. This is world, this world has a majority of negativity and hatred spread all around like the air we breathe, I repeat I'm Charles Alister and I care everyone, nobody cares me, except my parents, deeply saddened, my heart sank deep into the scary deep ocean where great creatures lives, my heart is like an anchor, and i know nobody will understand my words.

Another thing is advice, never advice stupid friends, he'll do the same thing again, he'll always walk on the wrong path, when you go to correct it, you will be stuck, I'm in dark, and broken, nobody can heal it, I already said I'm a liar, and I'm an atheist, but now i say if God exists let him take me to light.

Eye and lie have some connections, they're like the two edges of the magnet, i think you didn't get it, when saying lie, your mouth supports, but eye will never, they're like North and South pole in magnets. Lies are made to correct some and get pleasure to life, but not erasing the truth.

Once i had a thought, which will be strange, yes, will you betray your close friend? will you talk nonsense about him in his absence? i had all these thoughts but can anyone change the world. Once I asked myself what is the best way to cure broken heart? is it loneliness, No, it's nature, will nature support in curing a broken heart? yes for sure. Even if you have your loved one, it's a temporary cure, but nature is a permanent cure, as we are natural, nature can be our friend.

Last but not least, I wanna share about the relatives, I knew a girl who was younger than me, she called me her brother, days passed her care for the brother faded, even the love got faded when others entered her life, so love can't be permanent, I really apologize to my parents, your love is the great thing I've ever got, I live for my parents, but this world is toxic. I need to find real humans with humanity.

A sad truth about my dad is that he is a hardworking man, he had a very good education, but couldn't find value, i think education should also teach how to live in this world. We, humans should have degree for being master in knowing the harsh reality of life. Difference between hard work and smart work, we get satisfied with our food by hard work and we get happiness and pleasure through smart work, but both can change a human life. Attitude makes difference, yeah but how to maintain it, the world is unbreakable, but not are the things in world, everything can be broken, even attitude. In the coming days you will know what will happen to me, till then you have to travel with my life. Everyday You will get to know about me.

I hope it will be boring, but this is my diary and today is my birthday, it's 1st of January, the new year, I wish to myself, don't plead anyone to stay, let some good news and things fulfill for me, this diary is filled with tears and pain every 1st of January, and i write this diary every once at this day, so I'll be seeing you soon in the coming year, my parents adviced me when you hope for something you have to say

Amen.....

Yes Amen...

Charles Alister

with faded love and pain.