Military Outpost Deep Crystal
~~~(POV: Theron Shan)~~~
~~~(Location: Riding Speeder Bike towards Outpost Deep Crystal, Ord Mantell)~~~
As much as I hate all this, I need to ensure that whatever Nathan has said is true. All the things he's told me... If they are true, then the Republic and The Empire are in deep shit. The Star Cabal... I never thought the stories were true... It was just a way to interest SIS agents as they talked around a drink at the bar. Something to pass the time and listen to.
Nathan is more than I expected, and I can see why so many fear him. Even though I can't feel The Force, even I can tell there is immense Power radiating from him. The way he holds himself in absolute confidence. "For some reason, he reminds me of my father... But not the same discipline as him..." My father carried him the same way.
Jace Malcom was an accomplished military leader and special forces trooper. Having served under Havoc squad for the majority of his life. He and my mother grew close when they were younger, and I'm a result of that union, but my mom saw the love she shared with my father as a failure to her Jedi duties. Abandoning him, and soon me after.
I haven't spoken much with my father, but he's why I'm fighting for the Republic. He's my role model in all this. "Father... Why did you ever fall in love with Satele... Why do that even though you knew it would lead to nothing in the end..." I've questioned my parent's decisions all my life. After Satele abandoned me, my father was the one who raised me.
After I was old enough to make my own decisions and take care of myself, he left and went to help Several resistances in spite of the Republic ordering him not to. My memories and thoughts are stopped as I see the amazing paradise-like scenery of Ord Mantell and the ocean I'm riding next to. If it weren't for the war, this place would be somewhere people would never want to leave.
Coruscant was never like this, and there aren't enough times in my career where I get a chance to take a moment like this and enjoy myself. "Why wasn't I born with The Force..." I've asked myself this question countless times, and I resent a lot of things in life. The most being The Force and how it left me out of the family lineage of Power.
~~~(POV: Satele Shan)~~~
~~~(Location: Riding Speeder Bike towards Outpost Deep Crystal, Ord Mantell)~~~
My mind is hit with the emotions of Theron, and all of them are negative. There are many things that I wish to fix with my son, but I don't know how I'll do that if he won't let me try. "It's okay, Satele. Theron is special in ways you don't realize yet, and I sense something in him. Something buried." Nathan starts talking to me, but I'm hardly listening.
Ever since I learned that I was pregnant with Theron, I've held deep and unconditional love for him. And the first moment I heard his infant screams when he was born, I made a Force Bond with him. The first moment I held him, I knew he'd be the most important thing to me. But it destroyed me when we learned he couldn't use The Force. I blamed, and I'm still blaming myself.
Nathan means a great deal to me and in his own special way. Just like how I feel about Theron. "What would you do and think if you were in his shoes, Nathan... How would you feel towards me after all the things I've done..." He remains silent, and his emotions are impossible to read, and I don't know if he'll answer or not. It's hard to answer, at least I think it is.
Nathan speeds up and rides next to me, and he takes a breath. "There is no right answer I could give you, Satele. But sometimes, you have to sit people down and talk to them. Whether they like it or not. Theron won't hurt you. He never could. You're his mom, but he'll try his hardest to avoid you. So make it impossible and talk with him." That would never work... As much as I want it to...