Chapter-1: The dishonorable one

Well, another day of work in my boring life just ended.

Once again I'm going home alone, with the only thing to make me feel something being the cold breeze of the night, feeling the wind in my face and hair as I try not to think about my depressive lifestyle.

My parents have long gone to the other side and I never had any siblings so, I was left alone, an orphan. Unfortunately, I was never adopted and just grew up in the poor environment of a third-rate orphanage, and had to study in the local public school luckily getting a pretty good education and that gave me hope that maybe things would eventually get better, and they actually did for a while I had 'friends' and people that seemed to care, but as time passed I slowly realized that unlike them I was not a talented person and we slowly grew worlds apart. I don't have any family or friends, it's just me. What's the point in life if I have nobody?

It's a question most would ask themselves in my situation, but I am fine that way, even tho I do feel lonely from time to time. I don't really need people with me all the time or at least I tell myself so all the time.

But reality is humans can't live all by themselves, even if I'm resistant to loneliness, I can't stay alone forever that's reality. I wish I had realized that before I was all alone, tried to make connections with more people even if it's not that real it's still better than nothing, right?

Well, now the only things I have besides my hateful job is my otaku life, watching anime, reading manga and novels, it's my only escape from u my sad life.

I especially love isekais, they are my favorite genre of story, the ones about worlds of sword and magic are my thing. I don't even know how many I've read or seen, but they are quite the amount. It's just the best way I have of making it feels less real, the pain I feel every day. That feeling that no matter how hard you try, others will never even look at you because you're just not worth it..... Oh sorry, I'm getting all depressive again.

If I could ever get reincarnated or summoned to a world of swords and magic, I would just live my life how I felt like, even if it was a hard world to live in, I would do it. Maybe then just for once I would feel accomplished, successful... I would finally matter.

It would be nice to build a harem of my own, maybe a country/Kingdom, became the strongest or highest rank adventurer, master all magic or skills, just go around exploring a new world, having a hard new life full of people against u or something like that. Anything feels better than my current emptiness, I guess.

All these and much more sound like interesting experiences. Things that would truly only happen in fantasy or dreams, things that I deeply wish were my reality all I want us just one thing, one field where I can expel and for once have others acknowledge my existence.

"hahaha, to have such delusions at my age, seriously am I that lonely? That desperate? Well, wouldn't it be nice if fantasy like things such as those would actually happen in real life?"(Protagonist)

I was saying such things while crossing the road, I would soon reach my small apartment and read some of my fantasy stories to drift away from my pessimism, and just as sudden as my negative thoughts, a bright light came at a high speed in my direction. I couldn't even see what it was, I could only stay still and do nothing. I've heard that once you know you'll die the memories of your life flash through your brain like if telling: "So much has already happened, there were good and bad times but we made up here, is this really the end?".

For the first time, I felt this kind of stimulus, and the memories that embraced me right before my life ends, they were small details and things that if only I had paid attention to, I could have lived a better life. In the end, I questioned myself for the first time. "Was I really the one who put myself in that situation?", I had mostly blamed it on others for rejecting me, but maybe I never wanted to be accepted in the first place...

Those last thoughts just like me disappeared as fast as they appeared and my mind fell into a darkness that I had yet to experience.

Not much is needed to guess in what kind of situation I am in, I'm either in a coma or I'm...Dead. I'm most probably dead, considering what I just experienced, but funny enough, I don't remember what happened before I died, I still have that feeling of the end for me has come, yet I can't remember what happened... Maybe it's better this way... so, this is the feeling of death huh? Such coldness and disgust, it's otherworldly... I can't describe it only feel it. If I had to compare it to anything, I would say it's like sleep paralysis but many dimensions worse than it.

"So, what happens now? Will, I simply rest here doing nothing for the rest of eternity? Or is the so-called other life real? Maybe I'll just get to start my life over but remember all my experiences..... That would be pretty interesting, hahaha!"(Protagonist)

I thought to myself questioning and trying not to fell into the realization of my situation, I rather never have to think than to reflect for the rest of continuity.

As I was questioning what would happen next and avoiding depressing myself, time went by and I have no grasp of how long I've been in this situation, but it's probably been hours of pure nothing except myself. Having to get around not falling into to the negative side of my situation is something I've always found hard, cause most of the time what's viewed as negative is the sync with reality and that's just how it is.

While I was starting to think, that this might be the end of the line for me. I started feeling things around myself again change.

That aura of nothingness that had formed around me was slowly fading away as my once lost senses were re-surfacing and taking me over, I can't say it's pleasant neither can I deny my relief. I could once again after an unknown period, feel again.

I try opening my eyes out of reflex without even noticing, and I could feel a slight gush of wind flow against me as my eyes slowly widen to once again, appreciate the raw beauty of the world around me.

"Arrrrgh! Too much light!"(Protagonist)

As once I open them, I can feel my eyes burning in genuine pain and I immediately close them.

I give myself a bit of time and then I try again, this time opening them much slower than before and properly giving my eyes time to adjust.

"Wow! The blue sky sure looks beautiful, scenes like this just have great contrast between the leaves of the trees with rays of light giving it the last touch."(Protagonist)

I look around and finally realize I'm in the middle of a forest. How? Is it maybe? Reincarnation?..... No.... This, this can't be..... Can it?

As I question myself, I observe my surroundings, and not too far away from me, there are a body and a puddle of water with a lot of blood surrounding them. Just, what happened here? I couldn't help but ask myself.

Since I got curious, I start to get up and as I'm getting up, I look at my hands and th-the-they are... green! Yes, green! They are green with black ugly nails, and the same goes for my foot being green with black nails.

Also, I seem to have shrunken, I'm now about 50 to 60 cm(1.9 feet) high. Did I reincarnate into a goblin?!

"WHY A GOBLIN?!?!?! Aaaarrrrghhgh!"(Protagonist)

I yelled in frustration as I realized that my so waited and wanted experience might not be, what I hoped for.

"Hahaha! I am such a letdown.... I said I would take regardless and am already complaining about the first inconvenience.... Instead of complaining I could try and figure out my situation."(Protagonist)

Out of all the monsters I got one of the weakest and most hated ones, goblins are known for having a hideous appearance, I'm even afraid to look at myself in a mirror. With such thought in mind, I start touching my face and.....

It's not as bad as I thought, even though my face doesn't seem to look good, it's not as ugly as I thought, or at least that's what I hope.

While I was hoping to not be too ugly, I once again focused on the corpse that is just some meters away from me.

Even though just looking at this should have Been enough to make me feel unwell or disgusted, right now looking at this goblin corpse, the only thing in my mind is "FOOD! It's edible!". Since I woke up a while ago, I have been feeling unusually hungry, at first, I thought I could control it, but I can't.

So, I lost to my instincts and devoured the goblin corpse and even the puddle of water, that wasn't water, it was jelly-like and I believe it was a slime, just another weak monster that is considered a beginner-level monster just like goblins.

Only bones are left huh? I will try to not think too much about what I just did. At least now I'm full and can think better yeah, let's be positive.

I'm now in a new life, in a new world. I doubt I'm just asleep or in coma in a hospital, and even if I am, It won't change anything! So, let's just try to live in this knew world, not like I can do anything about this, like try to go back to my world and even if I could, I wouldn't.

I don't have friends or family there, I don't have any attachment there and I have always wanted to live in another world. So, it's perfect! Well, I still have to confirm there's magic in this world and some other things that as an isekai fan have to see and try for myself. Let's start this new life as a goblin in a new world!

The first thing I need to test out is.

...

It didn't work huh? Then, What about this one?

[This system function is not available yet, the screen menu must first be activated.]

What? Not available yet?

Wait maybe. Let's try that out.

As I thought of those words a floating screen window like in video games appeared in front of me.

[menu screen]

STATS

SKILLS

MAGIC

INVENTORY

EQUIPMENT

MAP

PARTY

GUIDANCE

The options in front of me were:

1-Stats,2-Skills,3-Magic,4-Inventory,

5-Equipment,6-Map,7-Party and

8-Guidance.

Well, this is a very awesome system as it reminds me of a game I used to play called Niftirium Online also know as N.O, it was the most popular VRMMORPG in the world before it got shut down because of excessive use of players who would give up on their life to play. Maybe this world has something to do with it, but if that's the case I might know a lot more about this new world than I thought.

Ok then, let's start by looking at the party menu.

[Party]

Members:

None.

Well, it looks just like N.O and it seems the other options will only appear after someone joins my party. I'll have to test that later.

Next, the map menu.

[Map]

Auto-Mapping

[Do u wish to turn the auto-mapping on?

y/n]

I immediately choose y, because if it's just like in N.O if you active auto-mapping, just as it sounds a mental map will be formed in your head and it will map all the areas you pass by automatically. If you chose n, you will have to do the mapping yourself, it was an option added to troll players who aren't paying attention or just skipping all the explanation and for players that like that kind of thing. Last time, when I was playing, I accidentally choose n and it was a total pain, but since the game had a crazy function where there's a low chance your character will be a prodigy and have high stats and my character was one of those with very good stats, so I couldn't just delete it to start a new one and had to play like that, luckily I won't have to go through it again.

[Equipment]

Head-none

Upper body-none

Right hand-none

Left hand-none

Lower body-none

Feet-none

Assessoreis-none

The equipment menu is also just like N.O's. Next inventory.

[Inventory]

Space available- infinite

Maximum size allowed- infinite

Maximum weight allowed- infinite

Maximum stack number- infinite

Restrictions for storing- Conscious living beings can only be stored with their authorization, while unconscious living beings can be stored normally if the individuals do not exceed a certain level. Any non-living can be stored without restrictions.

This one surprised me as in the game you had so many restrictions and could never store living-beings in the inventory, and as for weight, only 5000kg could be stored at max and stacks only reached 99 at max, about size I don't know the exact max size, but nothing too big could be stored in the inventory, so this is a total cheat. Thanks for giving me cheats!!

Next, magic.

[Magic]

Attribute- All/Any

Magic that can be learned and used- All/any

Restrictions to magic- None

Magic:

None

This is another total cheat. In the game you could at most learn 3 different elements and that only if you were dedicated to being a magician, would be impossible to learn multiple elements if you had more than one job(class). Also, you could never learn opposing elements like fire and water or ice. The worst part was you could never learn the strongest spells in an element if you only train that element, so only a full-fledged fire mage can use the strongest fire magics, but here I don't have any restrictions, so I will learn all magic for just fun and because I can do it. There are even some magic spells that can only be learned by specific races, but I can learn and use them all.

Next, skills.

[Skills]

Skills can be learned and used-All/any

Restrictions to skills-none

Skills:

Godly Demonic purple eyes

Auto-mapping

All magic

All skills

Hyper thinking -lv-1

Ultra detection -lv-1

Ultimate regeneration-lv-1

Resistance to all abnormalities

No boredom

Understanding

Universal language

How do I have all these skills? I was born today, so there's no way I could meet the conditions to get these skills and I've never seen any of them in N.O. They are probably a bonus of the system, that's probably good, but I wish I could know the effects of these skills.

As I thought that to myself some smaller windows screens started opening one after the other.

[<Godly demonic purple eyes>: It's an appraisal type skill that gives knowledge about everything to the user. The amount of information obtained depends on user's blessings.

The potential of the skill: This skill depends on the user's blessings. The higher the grades and the more blessings the user has the stronger the skill will be.

A skill bestowed to user by the Ancient Goddess of growth and evolution (Ancient god grade).

Skill used through the eyes.]

[<auto-mapping>: A skill given to the user by the system. It allows the user to have a perfect mental map of the world, it's areas will only be mapped after the user has been there once.]

[<All magic>: A skill given to the user by the system. This skills gives the user the benefit to learn and use All/any magic.]

[<All skills>: A skill given to the user by the system. This skills gives the user the benefit to learn and use All/any skill.]

[<Hyper thinking -lv-1>: It allows the user to think 2x faster than normal also gives +10 of wisdom and intelligence.

The benefits and bonuses given by the skill improve as the skill levels up.