the void

I was tired, my parents died when I was a child. My girlfriend, who became my fiancée, died one month before our wedding.

I... waited so long to have my family, to have someone who also loved me and fate took her away from me. And now? Dead.

When I was 28 years old, it was 2 years since she died, and here I was, lying in a hospital bed. I found out that I had a serious disease in my bones, and that was what killed me...

And now I am standing in front of this being, he wears a baggy pajama-like outfit, and has long white hair and pink eyes.

The being dressed and ready for sleep said "Hi Jeremy, I am sorry for everything that happened to you, none of this should have happened. but you were a variant in your universe, that should no longer exist."

I am confused by what she just said "variant that shouldn't exist? what do you mean by that?"

she gives me a pitying look and again I hear her voice which is clearly a voice that has just woken up "let me sum it up for you, you were supposed to die with your parents that day. yes, the day of the car accident which took both their lives. but something interfered with that and you survived until you were 28.

I widened my eyes when I heard this, and pain came inside me, but it passed after I thought about it. The reason for the pain? is that I could have gone with them, and we stretched out together in heaven, instead of spending so many years alone and missing my family terribly.

but remembering Alisson, that went away. if I had died that day, I would never have met her. even though I would have gone through so much pain to see her die, me meeting her was the best thing in my life, so I wouldn't change any of it.

The being looks at me fondly "your conviction about the person you love is really admirable, I envy this girl. but let's get to the point since it was the fault of the laws that I myself made together with my parents, I must make up for having made you suffer so much. 3 wishes and choose your future world!!! isn't it amazing!!!?"

she speaks with excitement, but I am not excited. I live tired for a long time, live again?

"Don't worry, you can also choose your memories and your feelings! You can take out the bad things and leave only the good, so you can go to the new life without any regrets!" says the being in front of me, even with so much excitement... she still made the sleepy noise and rubbed her eyes, as if she was still and wanted to go to sleep.

I ask a question I was mentally asking myself "can't I go to my fiancée and my parents?"

"your parents and fiancée have already started a new life. so I can't do that for you, sorry" she answers me.

That made me fall back and start to cry, when I heard about the wishes and choose my future world, I thought I could see them again... and that made the wall I had built for so long come down.