The clothes he found on the chair were ones he never thought he would wear. After Nikolai stared silently at the clothes which made his stomach turn, he shifted his eyes toward the forearm, which had a hidden tracking mark.
'My darkness is the bane of elements,' Nikolai thought to himself as possible ways out filled his mind. 'However, I can't seem to erase the mark. I'm not sure if Edward Ver Rosia could tell if I removed the mark, too.'
Nikolai lamented how cruel his fate could be: to be the retainer of Saint Maria himself, the one person known as the Beloved Saint of Celestia. However, Nikolai knew that the fate of the royal family was intertwined with hardships and sufferings, so he didn't want to get mixed up with them.
Her powers have yet to be awakened, which explains why Nikolai didn't turn to dust next to her. However, there will be a day when that happens, and the loathsome powers of Celestia will flow through her veins.