Chapter-1 MISERY

Mam..Mam..excuse me mam!

"yes.. stacy" I answered my assistant coming back to reality.

"Um mam I wanted to ask if you want me to help you pack up" stacy asked me standing at my studio's door.

"pack up for what?" I asked

" Mam I informed you last week about annual music awards of Symphony, invitation. " she said emphasising each and every word.

" oh yes you did,and sorry I forgot about it totally ." I said after remembering about it.

"so,do you want me to help you?" she said smiling nervously.

"um no, but thanks I can do it myself.can you just help me wrap up here?"I asked getting up from the chair.

" actually I need to go back my mom is going to call me"

"yeah sure, you can go I will clean it up for you"she said

"thank you so much "I said grabbing my Jacket from the stand.

" um by the way when are we leaving for the award show?" I asked putting my Jacket on.

"day after tomorrow, by evening flight" she said while tidying up my desk.

"Ok... bye then good night " I said while leaving from the studio.

"bye mam" she said while stopping a bit .

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I was sitting in my car wondering, if what happen shouldn't have happened than I and him would be so happy together. it's been 6 years now after all that passed,but I am still waiting for him. every memory of us feels as real as it felt that moment, I still remember how he smelt like,his touch,his voice ,that sarcastic yet cute behaviour, stubborn but loving, and just a small mistake changed everything. I was lost in my own world when

my driver mukesh said looking back,"Mam we reached home "

"oh" I said

"bye then " I said getting out from the car.

mukesh waved his hand drove back.

*********

I sat on the sofa of my living room exhausted

I was staring at the ceiling wall when my phone beeped. I checked on it, it was my mother calling me.

I picked up the video call.

"hello beta lovie" she said "hy my daughter lovie (my nickname) in hindi

"hy ma" I said faking a smile like an idiot

"beta how are you,you are looking so thin, do you eat on time,is every thing all right "my mom asked dramatically or worriedly. as according to all Indian mothers if their children are little bit slim they consider them as malnourished.

"ma I am fine,I eat on time,I exercise daily, I sleep perfectly, and I wash my clothes and mattresses, all the stuff regularly ." I answered all the questions she was going to ask me in advance.

"ok ok I know...how do you know what am I going to say "she said quite offended by me.

"mother India, your questions are same as ncert text books they never change ." I said laughing at her cuteness.

"and how are you and dad,what about that idiot?" I said

"every body is fine and I am warning you last time don't call my son an idiot." she said speaking for her son.

and I just laughed

"look When I used to call him animal, then also you said don't call him animal then tell me how am I supposed to address a animal who can speak. " I said again offending her.

"can't you just address him by his name,it is not that hard to pronounce. "she said almost getting angry.

" ok ok mother India, I will not call your son an idiot or animal again, by the way I wanted to tell you something " I said

"what?" she asked

" I am going to attend annual music awards of the symphony,so don't panic if you can't contact me ok"

"what, really! it's such an amazing news.I am so happy my daughter will be receiving an award. I will tell all our relatives and friends proudly that my daughter will be receiving an award. wow" she said excitedly.

"wo mom wait,I am just nominated I don't know yet if I will be receiving an award.so don't tell anyone about it now! you get it right?."I said

" ok I won't tell anyone about it now other than your dad but tell me exactly everything about it like where is this award show held,and how long will you be there shooting for it and who all are going to attend it,and yes have you written a speech like what you are going to say when you will win?" my mom asked enquiring like a TV reporter .

"mom, I am not sure if I will win and you are asking me if I have written a speech, like seriously, and I will be there for two weeks the event will be broadcasted on TV next month only the important activities will be shown, among all other things,and everybody related to music industry will be there all the great personalities. "I said somewhat annoyed

"ok but 2 weeks just for a single award show isn't it too long though " she asked curiously

"I don't know stacy told me there are various activities and stuff,it compulsory for all the guests to take part in it" I said

"ok,but do record some videos and send it to me " she said

"fine ma I will ask stacy to do so,if we are allowed to record something.and bye I have to pack my things,I will call you before leaving ok"

"ok darling, good night "she said giving a kiss to her phone screen

" good night ma" and I ended the video.

then I stood up from there and started packing my clothes from the wardrobe, I was busy packing ,and then I heard some noise coming from my study room,as if something fell down.

"what was that now" I said walking towards my study room .

I went in and switched on the the lights, And found some books lying on the floor and there were some glass pieces around it.

I picked the books carefully and saw my and his photo frame broken.

"how this....." I spoke tearing up

I picked the frame carefully and and threw the broken glass and kept the photo with the books again on the shelf.

" ss...aah..ouch" I cried as one of the glass piece pricked into my right feet.

l sat on the couch near, holding my leg and started crying badly I don't know if the cause of pain was my hurting feet or the broken frame,or the fact that I will never see him again, I can't accept it. I will never be able to.

suddenly my phone rang, I got up and tried to reach it.

"Hello..Hello?"

"yeah hy" I said

"what dude why are you not picking up our calls, we are trying to reach you from last one hour !"Vincent said

(oh sorry I forgot to tell you that rather than being an independent Indian singer meera is also a part of one of the most famous band of the world "rockstars'. there are 9 members in the band group. Ron Vincent the leader of the band group and meera's best friend also a lead rapper of rap line there are 4 more people other than him in the rap line.

kara Wilson, Emily brown, John Williams and Alex. Meera is a part of vocalist group and the lead singer there are four members in vocal line including veronica Davies,Christopher, fred Anderson, rose gracia and meera jai Singh)

"oh really sorry actually I was in the washroom" I said

"washroom...from last one hour?" he asked unbelievably.

"yeah" I answered

" try to fool someone else, you can't fool me,tell me are you alright did something happen?" he asked me worriedly.

he is my bestie and often acts like my mother to me.

"yeah Mr weasley I am perfectly fine, I was just washing my clothes so it took me some time" I said , I call him Mr weasley because first I like giving people nicknames and second I am big fan of Harry Potter.

"OK..but why are you doing it yourself you could have used washing machine or just simply send it to laundry" he said again using his over smart brain.

"those are some pure fabrics can only be washed by hands so.." I said perfectly handling the situation.

"ok ,oh right I called you to tell you that next week we have to attend an award show and we will be leaving day after tomorrow so be ready." he said

" wait by any chance is it annual music awards of ,THE SYMPHONY?" I asked

" right, but wait how do you know ?" he said

" Oh God "I exclaimed

"what happened " he asked

" well I am already going there ,I am nominated in the best singer of the year category " I said

" woah really that's great, and even our group is nominated in the youth choice category. "

he said excitedly

"wow that's really good, ok listen My mom is calling me I'll call you later and send me the flight timings and all." I said as I can't handle the pain anymore.

"bye then"

"ok bye"

"aah..."

I walked towards the bedroom to fetch the first aid box,and tied the bandage on it.

after freshening up I went to sleep.

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"Hahahahahaha stop it aniket focus there"

"really my girlfriend is so beautiful and she sings so beautifully how can I focus anywhere else huh"

"who are you all"

"Aniket ..... aniket...help me please save me"

"aah....h leave us please I beg you "

(a bullet sound )

"Aniket...."

"Aniket..." I woke up shivering.

I checked the time it was 4 in the morning, I looked for my water bottle,it was empty so I decided to fetch some water from the kitchen.

As I went towards the kitchen through the living room I heard the main door opening.

"who is it??" I asked

"who the hell is it answer me?" I asked walking towards the main entrance of my flat.

I walked to the entrance and found the door open I checked outside but there was no body out there. suddenly someone pulled me inside my flat stuffing something into my mouth .

I tried my best to shout but there was no way I could have.

he dragged me inside my living room and threw me on the sofa.

"what do you think...huh, you are just a celebrity not God how dare you huh?."

he punched me hard on my stomach and then slapped me .

"leave me please...." I tried to speak as he took out that cloth out of my mouth

" help me....help me....please help..!" I shouted as louder as I can .

"no need to shout sweety nobody is going to hear you did you forget your flat is soundproof? huh.... today nobody is going to come between us I will RIP you up today,I will make you mine!"he yelled on my face with a smirk on his face.

"leave me please....please what did I do to you?" I asked him helplessly

he turned me aside and tied my hands with zip ties. and slapped me again and again harder saying, "shut up ....shut up..do you understand me fucking slut ? huhh"

the he threw me on the ground making my head hurt badly. he hovered over me tried to unbutton my shirt. I resisted him as best as I could but he didn't stopped and tried to take of my pants. I tried hard to reach the table beside my sofa I picked up the table lamp while he was busy opening my pants and hit him hard on his head making him unconscious. I got up from there and ran Inside my bedroom and locked it from inside.

and then called the emergency services

"hello, I am speaking from police station how can I help you?" a lady Mabye in her 40's asked me

"H..Hello,there's a....man..in my house....he broke into...my house and tried to...tried to..rape me can you...please come faster..please ". I said crying badly

"OK sweety can you tell me how many of them are there?"

"just one man .....he is wearing a black hoodie and a mask" I said

"ok where are you darling right now,and where is that man?" she asked me as sweetly as she can.

"I am in my bedroom right now I locked it from inside ,and that man is in the living room unconscious "I said.

"well how is he unconscious?" she enquired

"I hit him with a table lamp.... please help me" I cried out my soul.

"ok ok sweety the cops are on their way we have traced your location,don't worry!and keep talking to me alright " she said.

"Hmmm" I hummed in response because I couldn't say anything as I was starting to choke on my own tears now .and started to feel numb all over my body. And then I fell on the ground as I wasn't able to stand anymore and started to gasp for breath.

"Hello ....hello...are you there darling?" she asked as she couldn't hear me anymore.

I tried my best to speak out but I couldn't.

then I used my all strength and said "yes..."

" do you want me call your friends or family?" she asked

" hmmm" I replied

" ok can you tell me your name for that?"

"M..meera...j..j..jai ...s..singh"I said as clear I can.

Then she called Ron as I have his no to be used in any case of emergency.

Then I again heard some loud bangs on the door. and then I fell unconscious.

When I opened my eyes I was already in the ambulance with a oxygen mask on and Ron was sitting beside me crying like hell.

"prepare the injections....."

I heard some nurses around me...talking..and panicking. then I again fell unconscious.

***********

when I woke up I was in the hospital room and there were two cops and doctors around me they were asking me about how all that happened but I didn't said a word. because I was still too shocked to do so.

then they left from there dissapointed.

"meera...meera... dude I am so sorry" Ron came and hugged me tightly.

all the members of my group were there even stacy was standing behind Alex.

I still didn't uttered a single word.

*********

5 DAYS LATER.

"Look meera I cooked your favourite rajma chawal,you like it right? come on get up now."

Ana asked me( Ana is Ron's wife and is 5 months pregnant now)

Ana and Ron have been living with me in my apartment since I discharged from the hospital as they are worried about me.

"meera get up now please look I worked very hard to make it you don't how many you tube videos I watched and found the perfect one with the same recipe as yours,if you don't eat it then I will Never talk to you again." she said sitting on the chair beside my bed.

"Ana I am not hungry..please leave me alone " I said without looking at her.

"really Meera get up now you haven't eaten anything since yesterday and you barely eat anything,you are just sleeping here since we came back from the hospital,stop it now and come out have dinner with us" she said angrily .

"I don't want to...just leave me alone..leave me alone.." I said and started crying.

and then Ron took Ana out of my room.

when I calmed down I realised it was not her mistake why did I yelled at her,and she is pregnant already going through a lot,I felt guilty.then I got up and washed up and went to the kitchen.

Ron and Ana were sitting on the sofa Ron stood up seeing me approaching.

" hy Guys....., and sorry Ana, I am very sorry to shout at you like that just now I don't know I was just out of my mind. please forgive me if you can." I said apologising to her

" It's okay..I understand but you have to do something if you want me to forgive you"

she said as cute as she could

"ok ... what do I have to do tell me." I said

" Then have the dinner with us and tell me how my rajma chawal tastes that's it, no bargain. " she said folding her hands.

"Ok no bargain let's eat now" I replied

"perfect,let's go ron" she said smiling widely

then we walked towards the dining table and sat down.

she served us all the things she prepared.

" so master chef how is it?" she asked curiously

" not that bad,it's really amazing " I said with a fake smile on.

"I knew it, I am so talented after all," she said proudly.

" Ron aren't you going to eat?" I asked as he was not saying a word just we both were conversating.

" um..yeah let's eat, it's very tasty babes" he said looking towards ana.

"Thank you babes, I love you" she said getting all lovey - dovey .

"so dude How are you feeling now?" he asked me getting all teary as if he was going to cry.

"um...there's some pain in my stomach otherwise fine" I said pretending to be fine.

the he burst out.,and started crying badly .and then people say boys are insensitive.

"I am sorry meera, I couldn't protect you,I was not with you when you needed me the most" he said while hugging me tightly.

" It's okay bro, it is not your fault and we can't change, that happened anyway so let it go" I said tearing up.

"No, if I was there it wouldn't have happened,I am sorry,I am so sorry " he said while crying

"look it's not your fault,so stop saying sorry and we should be happy right that nothing bad happened, you don't know how badly I hit him, I am surprised that he is not in coma."

" you don't know your bestfriend is so strong,all the guys were scared of me in my school,so don't worry" I said while showing my triceps that don't exist.

"bro never fear anything, always remember your bro is always with you." he said while stopping his Nigera waterfall for a bit.

"Then didn't you go Paris for annual music festival?" I said trying to change the topic.

" are you serious, after all this happened do you think we will leave you alone." Ana said.

"No I mean we all should be there right because if somebody else takes my award I will be very sad" I said pouting.

"But...."

"ok meera let's go we'll leave tomorrow " he said cutting Ana