NO ITS MY LIFE

Walking down through the street..a familiar figure on the roadside ..looks like a couple is kissing each other..feeling disgust rush down on my body..but nevermind maybe they miss each other so much..you have to understand since you are in relationship too..

Here we go again..in my house..which is kinda hell for me..why ? because people in this house didnt know what is the meaning apriciate..open the door..the silence fill the house..when its end with

"why are you so late ?" that voice..the voice that sometime i hate to hear

"I have an extra class..could you please one day didnt nagging at me"

"Hey listen..make sure you come late its because of extra classes..or you will regret" she said and leave me

Yeah thats my sister..she is cold person..or i can say..she really love to scold me just because of small things..and sometime the things that she scold me about didnt make any sense..but what is the point of being mad..there is no one in this house will back up you anyway..but its okay..just defend yourself

"IRENE WHY DID MRS CHOI CALL ME AND SAID THAT YOU TAKE A MEDIC CLASSES" the sudden shout make me flinch and jump a little from my place

i look at my mom who seems angry

"mom i tell you many time i love to be a surgeon" i said and got cutt off

"i dont care ..cancel that class" she said and left me..i stood there feeling down..feeling sad..there is no one in this house who will be on my side..and suddenly my phone ring.. notification pooped up...a sudden smile appeared on my lips as its from my boyfriend..he ask to meet me at the park..feeling excited take over me and quickly run

once i arrive..its my boyfriend who is sitting on the bench playing with his phone

"hey baby" i said softly as he look up at me and stand up

"hey" he look nervous

"hey whats wrong ? is there something you have to tell me ?" i ask concern

"yes it is" i smile at him

"lets break up" he said

i dont know what to do..my whole world fall down..it is something that i didnt know will happen in my life..my heart stop beating for a second..seriously after all of this

"but w-why" that was all that come from my mouth

"i dont love you anymore..i dont think that you are the one for me..thank you for all those year that you spend with me" he said

"i love you ..dont you love me" i didnt let out a single tear even though its hurt so fucking bad

"i use too" he shortly reply

"just do whatever you want..its your heart..its your choice..but i want you to do something for me" i said

"what ?" he ask

"i know how small the world is..but please..dont ever show up infront of me again" i said to him

"i'll try" he said and start to walk away..with that..2 years of me and him is over..we're nothing..what am i suppose to do now is crying..but there is no even a single tear from my eyes..with that i walk away

I reach my house and sighed heavily..open the door and close it when i feel something burning on my cheeks..without i realise someone just slapped me

"WHAT THE FUCK YOU TAKING A MEDIC CLASS"

"dad-" i got slapped again

"I TOLD YOU TO BE A LAWYER AND NOT THAT STUPID SURGEON THAT YOU WANT-"

"STOP !" i finally have my courage to talk back after those 4 years suffer from parents controlling

"THIS IS MY LIFE..MY FUCKING LIFE..I DONT DO WHAT PEOPLE ASK ME TOO..I DO WHAT I WANT CAUSE THIS IS MY FUCKING LIFE..GO ON SLAPPED ME AGAIN DO IT AGAIN..CAUSE I KNOW IT WONT CHANGE THE FACT THAT YOU STILL GONNA ASK ME TO BE A LAWYER..IM JEALOUS OF ANOTHER CHILDREN WHO THEIR PARENTS SUPPORT WHAT THEY WANT TO DO..I WANT TO BE A SURGEON AND NOT THIS STUPID LAWYER" i finally let out all my anger..its feel good after you hold it for so long

"go on.." he said making me look at him

"go on be a surgeon..do what you want..and dont ever come back to this house..if you still want to be a surgeon ..get out from this house" thats all he said making me even more schocked..i look at my mom and she look schocked but didnt do anything..i look at my father back

"thank you..thank you for giving me permission..after all those year and its finally come..at least i got the permission" i said and its when a single tear drop from my face

i go upstairs to take all my clothe..and pack my things..after i done ..i go downstairs and my family look at me..i stop on my track for a while

"thank you for raising me..i still take all of you as my parents..but if you didnt take me as part of this family its okay..i'll take my rest of things tomorrow..if i dont..just burn it" i said and finally left the house

Here is me..walking alone in the night street..as 19 years old girl who want to persuade her dream..stop on her track ..at the bus stop..when the car passing by..and finally she failed..she fall on her knees..she finally cry her eyes out..after she break up with her boyfriend and the she got ditched by her family..in the night..alone..as 19 years old irene..