I feel so... lonely

It was all in the past.

Well, another life, should be a better way to explain it.

Diane's death, her lovers, her smile and happiness, her tears and heartaches... They were all in another life that she wished she could not remember.

But at that moment, she wished she did. Maybe if she was well aware of the things she passed through, the people she met along the way, and the struggles she faced.

Maybe if she knew them well, she would be able to handle whatever would come without any issues.

And the feelings she had in her heart... Maybe she would be able to understand them very clearly and know how to handle them. Love? She never had thoughts of them till now.

She never even knew what it felt like. She could not understand the concept, always finding it complex and cruel; each time she saw a guy and a girl getting into a fight, cursing at each other, crying, and then hugging to make up all of a sudden.