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"You all say that I favor Jiujiu and the fourth child, but what you don't know is that my heart is filled with hatred!"

"The third child is the one I feel most sorry for. When he was little, it was me who didn't want to look after him, I owe him that much. So even when he later wanted to marry into another family, I agreed. I thought to myself, this child never had good days in our household, maybe things would improve if he left."

"But it's different for the eldest and the second child. I breastfed them until they were weaned. To have a chance to glance at them, I got up in the middle of the night to finish all the household chores, just so I could spend time with them during the day. But what I got for daytime was just heavier tasks."

"Especially the eldest, my very first child—how could I not dote on him?"

"But they recognized Miss Li as their mother, they were taught to say that I was not their mother."