do i still deserve you?

At 11 am, I just sat relaxed on the terrace looking at the wide and long yard which is equipped with ornamental grass on all edges, there is even a fountain with a small pond on two sides, poles equipped with balloon lights, so it looks beautiful.

Silently, I can't stop remembering what happened between me and Leonardo, not about Sebastian. I don't know why even though I have to concentrate on our relationship, and I shouldn't think about him because he is my enemy and he belongs to Zoe. Zoe is also my friend!

"I can't get carried away Because he can't have a crush on me, especially this morning he just left me!" I grumbled, imagining Leonardo's handsome annoying face.

"Georgina..."

I turned when I heard Mrs Camille's voice. She just came out and approached me, but somehow I still feel awkward because she might see how messy the room is in the music room. she sat beside me precisely on the short steps that connect the terrace with the yard.

"Why hasn't he come yet?" she asked, because I said that Sebastian will coming.

"um... maybe he's on his way" I replied somewhat nervously.

"then invite him to have lunch together later. I'm curious about him..."

"He's untidy... he has tattoos and piercings," I said, smiling a little then looked down imagining my Father's response to Sebastian. "I don't have much attention to his appearance but Dad values ​​his appearance so much that when he finds out that he has lots of tattoos and piercings. then we were caught making out at home, and he was very angry," I said again, for some reason, I spontaneously told the embarrassing incident.

"Um... I... I can't take sides on this," Mrs. Camille replied with a confused expression. "I know your father wants the best for you... but... but you're not a teenager anymore. Making out is a natural thing," she continued with a dry smile.

"That's why I'm sad....he always treats me as a teenage girl."

"but don't be sad about this," said Mrs Camille, holding my shoulder. "He did this because you are very precious to him. He wants you to get a good man, who can protect you ...your honor... you have to take the positive side," she continued.

I just nodded, not wanting to continue this conversation. I don't want to open up too much to Mrs. Camille because she might also be Mum and Dad's spy.

'I have to be careful,' I thought anxiously.

tin tin...

the sound of a horn from a distant gate caught our attention. the security guard immediately opened the gate and I saw that it was Sebastian who came, I'm sure it was because I knew his car!

"who's it?" asked Mrs. Camille.

"he's my boyfriend" I answered standing up, and so was Mrs Camille. I can't deny that I'm happy because he dared to meet me in this mansion, but my happiness faded because I remember that last night he betrayed me and he has to explain who that girl is.

.a few seconds later, Sebastian got out of the car and I was very surprised to see that he looked very different than usual. .he wore a white shirt combined with black pants and did not wear earrings at all, and his arms were covered so that the tattoos were not visible at all, even his hair was neatly combed.

'Gosh, he's so hot... looks like I'm going to pass out,' I thought as my eyes kept fixing on him and I ignored Mrs. Camille who was talking beside me.

"Hi..."

"Oh, Hey..." Mrs. Camille immediately greeted Sebastian by holding out her hand. "I'm Camille McCartney...nice to meet you!"

Sebastian nodded his head. "I'm Sebastian, Georgina's boyfriend," he said, then glanced at me and ended his handshake with Mrs Camille.

"Okay, then you guys can talk..."

"Umm..." I turned to Mrs. Camille. "Can you chat in the side garden?" I asked reluctantly.

"Um, of course, but after that you two go to the dining room to have lunch together," replied Mrs. Camille then entered the mansion again.

I sighed and turned to look at Sebastian who was also looking at me without a smile. I didn't want to be sweet to him so I immediately walked towards the side garden by crossing the yard to the side. I just kept quiet and kept walking and Sebastian followed me until we finally got there and immediately stopped at the gazebo, then sat on a chair in the same position face to face but I still don't want to look at him.

"It seems that Mrs. Camille is very nice to you and maybe she will make it easier for us to meet," said Sebastian.

"I think this will be our last meeting if you remember what you did last night," I said, trying to be selfish now. I know I had faults with Leonardo, but it all started with him and Sebastian had to explain to me. "Who is she? Did you sleep with her last night?"

"No..." he shook his head.

"Explain to me," I said as I leaned back against the shoulder of the chair and crossed my arms.

"Okay..." he sighed. "Actually... she's just my partner at the club. she's also a DJ. But because last night a guest star performed there, we ended up not performing..."

"hmm..."

"Finally me and my friends got drunk...I don't know what happened, I just danced and danced, I felt so upset because I wanted you so badly to be there at that time but I knew it was impossible. at that time I was very hopeless considering our relationship which your family always opposed. I'm just enjoying the night, letting anyone approach me... I'm drunk...I imagined that the one next to me would be you…"

I paused, feeling what Sebastian said made sense because last night I saw the girl kiss him so enthusiastically while he just gave up.

"I was very drunk that time...and in the morning my friend said that he saw you coming to the club...and my friend said that you saw what I was doing with that girl.. he didn't dare to stop me, didn't dare to stop you too because there might be chaos," he explained again.

"what should I believe?" I whispered.

"You have to ..."

"You could be lying... I know you don't care about me. You ignored me after that romantic breakfast when you knew I was forced to return to the mansion because my parents were coming, not because I didn't want to be with you!".I insisted, not wanting to melt away just because of the explanation. I still really want him but I want him to fight, not me who keeps begging.

"Darling ...." Sebastian showed a look of sadness on his face. "You should know that at that time I was very upset... I couldn't control myself. I had planned many things to celebrate your birthday but it just failed in the end..."

"You already know the situation. You should understand..."

"I'm sorry…" he nodded. "Now I realize that what you said is true. I have to be brave to face your parents to prove that I love you... because I don't want to keep our relationship secret... we are not teenagers anymore. Because we love each other then we have to show that we deserve to be together."

I swallowed my saliva, his words made my soul tremble.

"At the weekend I will come here, meet them," he said again with a smile. "I'm going to dress like this so they don't judge me too badly..."

I was stunned, my lips seemed mute, did not know what to say. I like his decision and I don't want our relationship to end, but somehow I feel like I don't deserve him anymore, I betrayed him last night.

'if he finds out what I did with Leonardo, he will be very disappointed,' I thought fearfully. ..' Maybe he'll leave me... no, that can't be happening. Besides, Leonardo and I just did it because we wanted to have fun, not have a special relationship. no... I can't keep feeling guilty. and between us should not happen intercourse like last night!'

I insisted to myself, wanting to waste this opportunity because this is what I've been waiting for so long.

"You will forgive me?" The question snapped me out of my daydream.

"Um..." I nodded. "You know what's best for our relationship..."

he smiled, then caressed my lips with an intense look, but again I felt inappropriate for him.

'If you know, another man has been enjoying my lips, even my whole body last night... I'm so stupid,' I thought guiltily, but suddenly Sebastian stood up and leaned towards me and kissed my lips gently.

I feel awkward, and it's very difficult to return the kiss, even if it used to be beautiful, now it feels bland.