Chapter 33
Millary POV
Pero parang may nag -uudyok pa sa akin na makinig pa ng musika para lalo akong makapag-isip ng tama at ng bigla ako napatingin sa aking braso na kanina lang ay namumula at ngayon naman ay may pasa na at sabi ko na nga ba magiging pasa ito pero alam ko naman kasalanan ko ito at naisip ko na sana hindi nalang ako nangahas na pasukin yun at upang lalong makapag-isip ako ng tama kaya nag patugtog ulit ako
Reason To Believe ni rod stewart
If I listened long enough to you
I'd find a way to believe that it's all true
Knowing that you lied
Straight-faced while I cried
Still I look to find a reason to believe
Someone like you
Makes it hard to live without
Somebody else
Someone like you
Makes it easy to give
Never think about myself
If I gave you time to change my mind
I'd find a way just to leave the past behind
Knowing that you lied
Straight-faced while I cried
Still I look to find a reason to believe
If I listened long enough to you
I'd find a way to believe that it's all true
Knowing that you lied
Straight-faced while I cried
Still I look to find a reason to believe
Someone like you
Makes it hard to live without
Somebody else
Someone like you
Makes it easy to give
Never think about myself
Someone like you
Makes it hard to live without
Somebody else
Someone like you
Makes it easy to give
Never think about myself
Whoo
Someone like you
Makes it hard to live without
Somebody else
Someone like you
Makes it easy to give
Never think about myself
Someone like you
Makes it hard to live without
Somebody else
Ang sumunod ko pinakingan ay you stood by me
I didn't know where I was goin
It was dark and raining
Stuck in the middle of nowhere
Feeling lost and full of fear
Then you found me
And you showed me the way
You stood by me
When my hope and faith were gone
You gave me strength to carry on
You stood by me
When everythin' fell apart
You came to fix my broken heart
You stood by me
You stood by me
I was lying down and wasted
I was feeling so jaded
I've been struggling with depressions
Confused and full of questions
Then you reach for my hand
And made me understand
You stood by me
When my hope and faith were gone
You gave me strength to carry on
You stood by me
When everythin' fell apart
You came to fix my broken heart
You stood by me
I know I don't deserve
All your love and care
Because I always took you for granted
You gave me everything
Even though I keep on making mistakes
You stood by me
When my hope and faith were gone
You gave me strength to carry on
You stood by me
When everythin' fell apart
You came to fix my broken heart
You stood by me
When my hope and faith were gone
You gave me strength to carry on
You stood by me
When everythin' fell apart
You came to fix my broken heart
You stood by me
You stood by me
You stood by me
At sinundan ng grateful ni hezekiah walker
I am grateful for the things that you have done
Yes, I'm grateful for the victories we've won
I could go on and on and on about your works
Because I'm grateful, grateful, so grateful just to praise you Lord
Flowing from my heart are the issues of my heart, it's gratefulness
I am grateful for the things that you have done
Yes, I'm grateful for the victories we've won
I could go on and on and on about your works
Because I'm grateful, grateful, so grateful just to praise you Lord
Flowing from my heart are the issues of my heart, it's gratefulness
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, grateful
Grateful, grateful, grateful, gratefulness is flowing from my heart
Flowing from my heart are the issues of my heart, it's gratefulness
At ng matapos ko ng pakinggan kong ang mga musika na yun ay biglang naglaglagan ang aking luha sa aking mga bakit hindi ko mapigilan ang umiyak bakit taksil ang aking luha sa mata na patuloy itong pumapatak , alam ko naman may kasalanan ako dahil pumasok ako sa kwarto na yun pero bakit ba ndi ko maiwasan umiiyak dahil nasaktan ba ako sa pasa na nakuwa ko dahil sa maigpit na pagkakahawak niya o dahil sa nasaktan ang aking puso sa aking nakita na yung buong kwarto na yun ay ginawa niyang museum ng kanyang napayapang asawa, bigla kong tinanong ang aking sarili kung daat ko na bang itigil ang aking kahibangan ko kay sir jann michael at dapat ko na bang tapusin ito at siguro nga kailangan ko na umalis dito at ipagpatuloy ang aking buhay kasi kung lalo akong matatagal dito ay lalo lang akong masasaktan at lalo ko lang sasaktan ang aking sarili sa pagmamahal sa isang lalaking walang pagmamahal sa akin kaya nagpasya ako kaagad akong nagtype ng message sa aking pinsan na papatulong akong umalis sa mansyon at magpapatulong akong magtago at muling magtago kanino sa aking pamilya at magtago sa lalaking mahal ko pero walang pagmamahal sa akin at kailangan kong itago ang anak namin baka kunin nito ang anak ko o baka ang mas malala baka sabihin nito sa akin na ipalaglag ko ang aming anak dahil baka gusto nito ang maanakan lang nito ang kanyang namayapang asawa kung iyon ang aking maririnig siguro mas double ang sakit na aking matatangap at yun ang pinakamasakit na possible nitong sabihin sa akin at ang pinaka ayaw kong marinig kaya bago ko pa marinig yun ay aalis na ako dito at agad ko pinagalitana ng aking sarili , Ayy naku millary ano bang pinasukan mo? kung hindi mo sinunod ang puso mo sana ang problema mo lang ang pagtaguhan ang iyong pamilya pero ngayon naging dalawa na ang problema mo at buo na talaga ang desisyon ko na aalis na ako dito at ndi ko na kailangan ubusin ang dalawang linggong palugit ko at kapag may chance ay tuluyan na akong aalis at ilang saglit lang napatingin ako sa aking cellphone ng marinig ko ito tumunog at binasa ko ang message ng aking pinsan
"sigurado ka cous na aalis ka na diyan" sabi ng pinsan ko sa text
"oo sigurado na ako" reply ko dito
"mukhang mahal mo na yata yan bakit iiwan mo" sabi nito sa akin
"mahabang istorya " reply ko dito
"okay ikwento mo pag nagkita tayo ah" sabi nito sa akin
"okay cous" replyko dito
"kailan mo pala balak umalis?" tanong nito
"bukas" sagot ko dito sabay ng butung hiningang malalim