Chapter 28

JAXSON

Since Alessia left, I've been mentally going crazy. At the table, I had to hide it from everyone especially Becca. I wasn't in the mood to hear their shit.

I let Becca's hand go and told everyone I had work to do. I had conference calls and I didn't want to be disturbed.

Looking at my office, I had to clean it up. Putting the furniture back in place, picking up the paper all over the floor and organizing it back in the right files.

I sat in my chair, replaying my conversation back with Becca earlier. I really can't believe that she went 2 fucking years without telling me she rejected her mate and has almost lost her wolf.

I can't lose my wolf. I'm an alpha. It's my job to protect my pack, I can't do that without my wolf.  I would be putting everyone's lives at risk. If anyone found out, we would be attacked. Innocent children will die.

I wouldn't even be able to protect my child.

My mind wondered to my pain in the ass mate. She is doing this on purpose to drive me insane. I give her credit because it's working.

I can't stop thinking about her. I called her but she didn't answer. The second time she answered. She wouldn't tell me where she was or who she was with. 

I begged her to come home.  She told me no. She did tell me she loved me. When she said that, at that moment I was so happy. I could feel my wolf's happiness. He was pacing around in my head but then she hung up.

I called her all night. Over and over again, I got her voicemail. I sent her text messages.  She didn't respond to not one.

I spent the whole night and most if the day sitting in my office chair staring out the window. This morning there were knocks on the door, I just ignored them.

Late in the afternoon I finally came out of my office. I went upstairs and took a shower. Standing there, feeling the hot water hit me, I felt arms wrap around me.

I quickly turned around and just looked at her for a second before taking a step to get out. Becca hit me on the back. "I'm getting sick of you always refusing me! Your mine and you haven't touched me in weeks!" She yelled. "Becca you known we can't do that because Alessia can feel it. I can't do that to her. Jessica told me what she went through and I just can't. I'm sorry." I said.

"What about me? What about what I want and what I need? My hormones are all over the place and I want you to fuck me!" She yelled. She came at me quickly, grabbed me to get me to kiss her. I pushed her back.

"WAIT! You rejected your mate 2 years ago, so he has been feeling it all this time!" I yelled.  She turned away from me. I grabbed her arm and turned her to face me. "How could you do that?  Do you still feel the bond?" I asked. She yanked herself out of my grip.  She walked to the other side of the room. "Why can't you see I don't care about him, all I care about is you! We could both break the bond if you would just do it!" She screamed.

I grabbed the vase on the table and threw it at the wall in her direction. No I wasn't trying to hit her but I'm frustrated and angry that she won't answer my questions, she won't tell me who it is. Her eyes widened and her body was shaking.

"I'm going outside to watch the training, when your ready to talk to me and answer all my questions, come find me and we will go somewhere alone and quiet. Becca you will tell me today."  I said. I left with no chance to give her to refuse.

I went sat on the porch. I'm watching Jake and Thomas lead several on my warriors in training. Trying to focus on them, they are looking good. I can't help but feel proud of my pack.

Some time later, Becca walked out the door and sat in the chair across from me.

I'm watching a fight between my top warrior Brian and Thomas. It's an interesting fight. A couple times I thought Brian was going to get the better of him but Thomas would always  come out of it and get the upper hand. I couldn't help but laugh.

A car was coming up the driveway. That is Alessia's car. My body tensed up. My heart beating fast. I could feel Becca looking at me.

She parked her car off to the side of the house by the kids. She got out and was attacked by all of them. They were tickling her and I could help but smile. I love seeing her like this. The kids love her.

"Jaxson!" Becca called my name. I turned my head  to face her. She was pissed. I got up and walked over to her. "Let's go. I want answers." I said and got into my car.  She got in and we drove off. We drove to a clearing in the woods. I pulled off to the side and shut my car off. We sat there  in silence.

"Speak." I commanded.  "Jaxson please don't do this, I dont want to talk about it." She pleaded. "Do you think I wanted to talk about Alessia with you, no I didn't but I had to. You had a right to know just as I do. I want to know everything."  "Fine. I saw my mate while I was out with Amy.  He came up to me, we talked for a few minutes before I told him I didn't want him, I wanted you. He was devastated. He begged me to reconsider but I didn't. I left him standing there and never looked back." She said. I was waiting for her to continue but she didn't. "Becca who is he? I was getting pissed.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. "It is Micah." She whispered. I was in shock. No She didn't tell  just say that. Why does it always come back to him?

"So that's why he's going after Alessia, what to get back at me for taking his mate?! I yelled. I got out of the car. I turned around and punched the window. I kept punching, I hate that asshole and he's intertwined with both the women I love. I saw nothing but red. I wanted to rip him to pieces.

Becca was behind me, crying and scared. She tried to stop me. I wouldn't listen. She threw herself around my waist. She wasn't calming me down. She was making it worse.

Finally after fucking up the side of my car, I stopped.  Trying to catch my breath. I looked over and asked one question. "Did you tell Micah that Alessia was my mate?" Wiping the tears from her face. "No, I haven't spoken to Micah since that day. She said.

We got in the car and drove. I needed a to get away from her to clear my head. I pulled up to the packhouse and told her to get out.  "I need to think, this is all too much." She got out and I drove off.

I drove around for a little while before going home.

I came through the house, greeting random pack members and went out back. I scanned around looking for her. I saw her dancing with a teenage boy and instantly my wolf took control. 

He let out a deep loud growl. Everyone froze.

Jessica came over trying to bring us inside. I wouldn't move. Alessia came and we ended up in my office, I mind linked Jessica to get out, she looked nervous but she did.

The next thing I know is my wolf grabbed Alessia and had her on the wall kissing her. She finally pushed me back but I knew she noticed my wolf in control.

"Stop, we can't do this." She whispered. I slammed my lips on hers again. She kissed me back. My hands roamed her body. I kissed down her neck. I felt my teeth growing. He's going to mark.  I don't even know if I have it in me to stop him.

Before he could pierce the skin, Alessia pushed back and screamed at me. "Were you really just going to do that to me?! NO! No! You don't get to do this! How dare you! I told you we were done and I meant it! I need you to leave me alone, you hurt me and I won't let you do it anymore." She said whispering the last part.

She walked out.