I needed this drive as a time to reflect on myself and where I went wrong. For the past few years, they have always been there to clean up my mess, maybe that's the problem. I do whatever I want on impulse never thinking of the consequences or how it would affect the people around me.
But just when I think I am the master of my thoughts fate takes a new turn. Emotions come like hands on the wheel of my "car," taking me somewhere different to a place I never expected to be. There are days my breath gets caught in my chest and then I know the fear is gaining on me. I breathe shallow and find a way to release the tension. The more apprehensive I get, the more I look like I've got adult ADHD. Being born in this dysfunctional family, maybe I have.