Look within yourself

Blue

I wait for the phone to ring and he answers on the first ring. At first, there is silence on his end of the phone and I know it is because he is waiting for me to talk.

I call Jules but not that often and even though I said that was going to change. It hasn't really.

Maybe Gyles and Rex are right.

I am so closed off and even in the past couple of years, I know that nothing has changed. It is not easy for me to open up to anyone and I have been giving myself excuses. I mean, can you blame me. After everything, I have been through.

"Hello son,'' he finally speaks up. He hates awkward silences just as much as I do.

"Hi, dad.''

His breathing is loud through the phone but I can just picture him happy to be hearing from me. Jules is just like me. He loves and when he does, he focuses on that love.

He loves me and to him, that is all that matters.