Disconnected and alone

Beau 

I see the look in his eyes before they close. 

I see his lifeless body as he drops our baby on his chest. I hear the screams as the baby starts to cry but I can't do anything because of that look in his eyes. I can't do anything because I'm frozen in place. 

I watch the scene in front of me, I watch as Ogma rushes over to him and one of the other healers takes the baby from his lifeless arms. I watch as they start to try to revive him. I can't feel the connection we have always had. Right now, I don't feel anything from him. I feel the tears start to stream down my face. I feel the pain in my chest. The pain that I know will never go away. 

I feel the emptiness in my heart and the confusion in my mind. I can't understand what has happened. 

I look for hope in their eyes. I want to be optimistic but I don't know how to be. I am scared. I am scared that this will never be the same.