Insecurities

Alanis

Another week flies by and there I am even bigger than I was last week. I have so many insecurities surrounding this pregnancy. I don't know if I will ever be the way I was before it. My skin has stretched so much that I don't even like Beau to see me naked. The one thing we were consistent at, is our sex life but now, I don't even want him to see me come out of the shower. He has been amazing through it all. The most supportive husband and mate but I miss our intimacy. 

I miss the sex. 

"Wow, can I take a picture?'' Dar walks into my room and smiles at me with his phone in the air. 

He is teasing me right now but it is just fueling all the insecurities inside me. I am still in pain, I still have to be infused with blood regularly but it seems to be helping the process. I don't even understand what is going on inside me but I just want it all to be over. I want my babies and I want my old body back.