Worry mixed with pleasure

Jabi. 

I open my eyes and I am at the beach, my favourite place to be. ever since I went there with Darrien, it became my favourite place. Any memories that have Darrien in it, is treasured to me. 

I look up at the sky, the sun is about to set, making the sky an orange colour. The scene before me is beautiful but something doesn't seem right. I don't know why I am alone; I don't ever want to be alone. Having Darrien means I don't have to be alone again. I look around in search of him, but he is nowhere in sight. My legs move on their own accord, I want to find him. 

Suddenly it feels like my rib cage is closing in on my heart. I feel like I can't breathe. My eyes roam around as I clutch my chest, trying to breathe. Once I find him, everything will be alright. 

''Darrien,'' I call his name even though I can't feel him close to me.