Chapter 71

After we rested for the night, me and Ruby left our room. We saw Touya and the twins, Yae was out training. I told Touya we might be bringing back a couple people, and she just smiled in return. I really hope she doesn't flirt with ether of them, because knowing Sera, she will end up punching her. This is going to be a headache, and I start sighing.

"Don't worry so much, maybe it won't be as bad as you think." Ruby said, in a optimistic voice. I wish I had her optimism, but I know Sera and she is going to be pissed that we left. "Are you sure Yang won't be angry at you for leaving?" I asked, not really knowing what she will do. "It's fine, she's more of a in the now kind of person. I'm sure she'll just laugh it off." Ruby said with confidence.

We reach Sera's house, oh that's not something I thought I'd ever say again. I can't believe she would do that, i don't know what to say to her. Ruby sees me struggling and knocks on the door. Not even ten seconds before the door opened and we were shoved inside. "What the hell is wrong with you two, why did you leave before even talking to us? And don't even bother with the 'I left a note' crap." Sera said with a very angry voice.

"I did tell you this would happen." I said, looking at Ruby, and saw her looking at Yang. Wow she looked angrier than Sera, and Ruby thought it would be fine. "You two shouldn't have left, now tell what is going on. And I don't mean about you being engaged, I mean how, how did this all happen?" Yang asked with a serious tone to match Sera's. So we told the whole story, and not just the edited one Ruby told, but the full truth.

Once we finish, there was dead silence. "I did think about coming for you, but then I thought of your family. I couldn't take you away from them, they were nice, they even made me part of the family, a failure like I was. I'm sorry Sera, but as I said yesterday, I'm not Amy anymore. I'm not the girl you fell so deeply for, she died at the hands of her father. And I can't go back to the way I was, I'll never be that." I say, my heartbreaking with every word.

"No, your not the girl I loved, because the girl I loved wouldn't runaway from me. Just because you are stronger and have a better family, doesn't make you better than Amy. Yeah I had to kick her in the right direction from time to time. But she never gave up, she tried so hard, and here you are feeling sorry for yourself. I was the who killed myself and your feeling sorry for yourself. How dare you, Amy may have been physically weak, but she was stronger than you emotionally. I know your technically the same, but you've regressed." She shouted.

Shocked I just mouth wordlessly, I didn't think about it like that. Have I really just been running away, but it's not like I could change anything. Look your running away again, maybe I have regressed. I mean I've always had Sera (the system) to rely on. Maybe relying on her too much, I've been making one wrong decision after another without the aid of Sera, these past six years.

No, stop this, this is exactly what she meant. Other people's problems are not mine, I just need to tell it like it is. I look up and see everyone looking at me. "You were right, I was just running. I hid Amy in the deepest recesses of my mind. And just pretended being killed by my father didn't effect me. But do you know what, it did effect me. I was nothing to the man who made me, just because I liked girls. Your family has always been accepting about your choices. But I had to hide who I was, and yeah that did mess with my head more than I like to admit." I say, thinking about everything.

"I didn't have a home like you did, and yeah when I was reincarnated, with a loving and accepting family. I hid all the dark stuff away, I didn't think about all the crap I had to go through. I decided to just be happy with who I was, that's why I was different. I had people to rely on, people I could trust and they wouldn't hate me for being me. But you, I thought you would be different. But no you kill yourself for what? You had the rest of your life, you had loving parents. But you tossed them aside for a girlfriend." I say, now shouting.

"I had to die to get a loving family, but you, you had one. Why did you kill yourself?" I finally ask, looking at Sera who is shocked. "I didn't know you felt that way, it's just I couldn't see myself living without you." She said in a small voice. "What about your family, how do you think they feel hm? They lost not only a future daughter-in-law but their actual daughter, their only child. I think you need to think about that." I say, finally letting it all go.