Should i actually try

I mean ive been getting a shit ton of collections, and i feel bad for people not knowing this is dropped. Il try but my procastination, school, and some mental health issues arent really suitable for writing, i love hell's world more than this novel but i dont really have the creative mindset to write. Il try really hard as i really wanted to make my own story that was for me because a lot of the novels have flaws that i dont like, or the novels i like are premium and or either have very slow chaptet release, if i do try writing again im gonna restart this novel and have atleast 1-3k words, i really want some opinions on this but id doubt many people are seeing this.