Did I really

So why are you here?

Why are you here?

Why?

Why?

I lost count on how long did I loss. That's the question I didn't want to hear because I, myself don't know how to answer it. It's like a million dollar question for me. Why am I here? I don't know either. I stare to him and think about this 'Can I ask it to you?'

"Brother!!" That screamed got my attention. It's a running pink haired guy. A super jolly looking guy and he is smaller than me and I find him cute. His eyes are smiling to the point that he can't able to see properly. Is he real? He looks so ethereal.

"Hey Chim-Chim! Finally you're here and nothing change you're still late. What took you so long? Is there any problem" Namjoon  said. 'So they're friends, another thing to be envy about.'

"I'm so sorry it's just that..." He responded audibly while scratching his head. It's like I'm watching a dog who wants to defend himself to his owner. "It took me a lot of time to choose what to wear and in the end I just wear this." he continued pointing what his wearing. Black longsleeves, black pants and leather shoes but still he's gorgeous. "Who is this lad? You look well and I can sense that you can sing superbly." he asked.

"I'm Jungkook. Nice to meet you." I answered him. They looked at me like they saw a ghost. Why? Did I say something wrong? Their shock look broke into smile. "Wow you're really handsome especially when you smile." Tae stated. 'So that's the reason why. I smiled. What?? I smiled?'

Did I really smile?

"Yes, you smiled and we all saw it. A bunny smile. You look so adorable." A guy said. "By the way I'm more handsome that you, Jin." He stretched his hand to me to have a handshake. He looks older than me but I can see that he acts like one of my age. I reached for his hand and I didn't expect what he did.

"Ah! Ah! Let... Go...." I can hardly say. He locked me in his arms and choked me unexpectedly. 'What is wrong with this guy?'

"Don't stare at me like that. It's out of norm. Sorry I usually to that to my friends." He said while shaking his hands in front of my face. His broad shoulders swayed with it.

"So, why are you here?" Oh I almost forgot that. Namjoon asked for the second time. "We met in an audition before so we knew each other. We met you the first time so we want to know if we both have the same reason." He explained.

"It's my dream that's what I know. But..." I don't know how to continue. Yes, it's true. I came here for my dream. "It's all started with a dream but why does it feels so wrong about continuing this?" I continued staring blankly.

They all became silent and I don't know how to react with it. It's true. "This is my dream and this is my 7th audition and I slowly getting demotivated because of this. No one accepted me. I know I'm not good enough and I'm thinking maybe this is really not what I meant to be. I'm on the point where giving up is my only choice." I continued.

Namjoon is the first one to broke it.