Chapter 51..Goodbye

Edward POV

I paced back and forth trying hard to control myself. Trying not to look outside or go out myself to see what Zen was doing with Bella. I took a sip of my wine but was unable to feel the rich taste. Water and wine tasted the same at the moment. I was getting more and more jealous and annoyed by his words he spoke too much and I would have beaten him when he said that he will still pursue my Bella even after all this but I controlled myself because this man means so much to Bella.

Bella entered the villa slowly as her mind semed absent she was thinking about something and her eyes we're swollen from crying clearly. I was getting anxious and worried. I wanted to question her thousand of questions but still I controlled myself as I remained on my chair sipping my wine and reading a book. I wanted to talk to her but I controlled myself because I might speak something rubbish at this point.

She sat near me and looked towards me with her light brown eyes "Did I do wrong? ".I raised my brows as I replied "Make the question more clear love.... ".

"Did I do wrong leaving Zen? Was it unfair to him.. ".And this blew my mind she was doubting my love or herself. I was getting more possesive by the question and the words Zen told me a few minutes ago made me more insecure.

I immediately got up from my seat and grabbed her hands and pinned her against the wall and her waist with my other hand "So are you regretting? ".She focused on my question as she readjusted to the new position

"Never you are the choice I never regret... It's just that.. ".I was relived at least a bit by her words "Than what is it? " I questioned.

"I should have talked to him before ending the relationship.. He is hurt and I feel like literally the worst person on this planet..."

Tears started rolling down her cheeks again. I immediately passionately kiss her and than the drop of tear rolling down her cheeks... And than we locked our eyes.

"Honey.. You ard not allowed to shed those tears again.. Ever that is an order"

She hugged me immediately and I hugged her back. "Thank you Edward... ".

Bella POV

This man... His kiss makes me realize that I am a human and I have a soul that has feeling. His hug makes me greedy for more of everything. When I look at his beautiful face... ".This black haired handsome creature.. Is mine all mine... "

But still the Scene kept repeating in my mind.

.....Few moment's ago...

We were walking outside and it was dead silence until we reached the gate and I turned towards Zen and gave him a sweet smile. He immediately hugged me tightly and I hugged him back and patted his back "Zenny it's not like you are going for forever right?.. ".

Zen still being silent and me patting his back. After a few minutes he lossed a bit and still remained in the similar position and slowly wisphered near my ear

"If he ever treats you bad tell me.. I will come for you. If he ever raises his voice tell me.. I will come for you. Bella, I will always love you and you can't stop me from that... You know that".

I could feel tears rushing from my eyes I immediately replied in my shaky voice "I won't ".The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child and I look toward him, as if the handsome face could soothe me. There is static in my head once more, the side effect of this constant fear, constant stress I live with. I hear my own sounds, like a distressed child, raw from the inside. It takes something out of me I didn't know I had left to give.

He immediately pulled out of the hug and walked towards his car without looking behind leaving me alone within seconds all the guards closed the gates and Zen drove his car out of my sight. I stood there frozen moved by his words until one of the bodyguards requested me "Mam you should go inside the Villa.. ".

Zen POV

I knew that I could not leave her hands if I looked at her face. I finally did this? 

Gave her to Edward for her happiness.

But what about me? 

What about you Zen?

Am I the only one who will stay alone in this dark..the only hand that ever reached me disappeared. All I am  left with is me...

As much as i tried to hold it in, the pain came out like an uproar from my throat in the form of a silent scream. The beads of water started falling down one after another, without a sign of stopping.I hit the wall and tried to scream, but my  voice was melted by the sound of the place. The muffled sobs wracked against my chest.

The world turned into a blur, and so did all the sounds. The taste. The smell. Everything was gone. The last painful emotion slammed against me before i lost the feeling of feeling. Everything darkened into nothingness as i  passed into the oblivion of unconsciousness.

I hug her and run towards my car I cannot believe that I am leaving her. I can't believe that she is not mine and it still feels like I am just having a nightmare and I will wake up tomorrow morning with Bella by my side laughing and calling me a dork. Me playing with her hairs and touching her tender soft lips with mine. I still believe that this is just a nightmare. I drive as I cannot dare to look behind at Bella I know she is crying but if I see her tears I am afraid I will stop.

  "So this was it?"

This was my tale the girl I loved I gave her to someone else for her happiness while on the other side a lover cries alone and experiences the pain alone...

Flashbacks of her smile and the beautiful moments together flash before my eyes and this make my heart beat more faster eager to go back and reunite with its soulmate. I park the car and quickly walk inside the house still confused why am I running? From whom am I running?...

I punch at the nearest wall to release my anger and connect my head with the wall in desperate need of some love.. Of her embrace. I am tired of my feelings ..why did I fell for her? I scream in pain.. My heart screams because it is in need of love.

Everything reminds me of her the walls..the room.. the curtains and the beautiful framed memories of us hanged on the wall makes me cry more and scream as much I can. I grab my head and question myself

"You are her Zenny.. That is why you are leaving her. Let her be happy... "

But immediately the next moment another question arises in my mind

"But...what about me? "

Bella POV

My heart aches the whole day I knew Zen was in pain. Tears roll down as I shower. My eyes are red and I am in the pool of guilt. Edward remained silent as he knew that crying makes pain less and he understood the situation well and I am grateful for that. I walk towards the bed and slowly lay down thinking how Zenny is right now.

I stare towards the huge clock on the wall and think that tomorrow this time he won't be here and the reason of all this is me. I shouldn't have accepted his proposal it ruined our beautiful friendship and lead to this painful rollar coaster of emotions. I face the opposite side thinking about the situation not realising about the time until the door slowly opened and soon a pair of warm hands wrap around my waist indicating to turn and I did.

As I saw his tender eyes telling me to cry and giving me support. I immediately hugged Edward tightly and dug my face deep in his wide chest he wrapped his hands around me more tightly "It's ok.. I will protect you no one will dare to do anything to you..i promise you"

I cried and soon fell asleep in his warm embrace. The protection that I felt in his arms was really something far more different than what I felt with anyone in my entire life.

I woke up and realised Edward already woke up and was getting ready. I turn and look towards the clock  8:00 PM.

Zen must have left by now this thought made me sad again. Suddenly the door opened and Edward all ready in his suit walk towards me "Woke up my princess?".I smile towards him and he sat near me

"How about you come to office with me today? "

I in a complete state of confusion   

  "How come? We have dinner with your grandparents right? ".He patted my head lightly " I have some work in office and we can go directly to my grandparents from their besides you never went there with me and I miss your beautiful face all day long... "

I giggled a little at his sweet words and reply getting up from bed "Fine let me get ready".He smiled and I walked towards shower still with the thoughts of Zen I am not going to lie about that I miss him a lot.I took a shower and walked towards the closet totally confused what to wear since we are meeting his grandparents.I wore a beautiful floral pattern skirt with a black shirt and made a pony tail with a side braid. The look was professional and in dress code.

I walk out of the closet and saw Edward reading a business magzine looking really handsome in his serious mode and making me blush.I cannot help with stare at him.

"Like what you see love?" I was brought back to earth with his deep voice and I was totally embarrassed.

He immediately looked towards me and gave me his signature smirk and walked towards me keeping the newspaper aside and grabbed my waist pulling me aside "But beautiful you are forgetting something.. ".I knew what he meant and I had no way to escape and my face was a cherry red " This man!!! "

I lean forward and place a peck on his cheeks and he gave a satisfied smiled "That was not what I exactly meant but something is better than nothing.. ".

We walk outside as the car pulled in front and took our seat. " Are you ok? " he questioned with his eyes focused on me full of concern.

I was not ok but I gave him a sweet but dull smile "Better".

It was clear that he was not satisfied with the answer but he reamined silent.

We reached the office it was a  beautiful symbolising power and of course being at the top of all the others the aura around it was different. Everything classy and well maintained as Edward walked inside and me walking by his side everyone bowed with eyes filled with fear for the cold and serious Edward Han.

I heard a few whispers of course

"Is she the fiance?  mg!hit the jackpot..damn she is hot !!! no wonder Mr Han choose her thay are made for each other!".

"I am far more better than her..spent so many years trying to seduce Mr Han and in the end she won the jackpot..".Somewhere jealous and some grateful. I didn't mind of course.

As we entered the largest and the grandest part of the entire building "Edward's Office" and I was amazed with the beauty it was perfect

"Like what you see princess?".. He questioned taking a seat in his throne and signing a file. " It's perfect " I replied still examinung each corner and it's beauty.

I took a seat on the huge couch and grabbed a random book and started reading it "Honey I will try to finish the work soon.. Tell me if you need anything " He continued.

I smiled and began reading the book which was about solitude. Avoiding to look outside as whenever I saw the sky I got filled with thoughts of Zen and again making me feel guilty.

After 2 hours....

Edward still focused and staring at him makes me feel really happy if this is the only thing I could do forever I will accept it.

"Love? Do you want me to finish the work quickly? " He questioned still his eyes locked on the papers.

"Yes"I immediately replied in a lazy voice. " Than stop satring at me it is making me blush and you know that makes me go grab you.. " He replied.

I blushed and thought about teasing him "But I love looking at you.. Edward I love you... ".This was enough to make him stop his pen and turn his eyes towards me where I was making a cute face to tease him.