whats mine is mine

2/2/12

All I do is dissapoint people. well at least thats what it seems like. I don't want friends or family really I only want one person but I can have her she doesn't like girls. The more I try the more I fail. my life can not urn out like this the more I try the harder it gets. But I think I love her no mom says a teenager like me dose not know what love is it hard for me every day thinking that I could ever do this. my therapist says that wrighting in this diary would help but its not. It never would I couldn't see people the way they really where before tell I hit high school. I matured faster then all of the other girls and it hard for me to fight off the boys. so all in all this is a shity life nobody will ever love me will they I put others first and this is what I get. my mom hates me my dad left and I'm stuck with my older brother well adopted brother. I try to talk but I am never heard and when I am all hell brakes loose to me im liveing in hell.