8 R

September 6, 2019

I'm writing this with all my strength left, I know you won't see this but Incase, incase you want to report me or post me again on social media and say how pathetic I am.

The doctor said I need to go for surgery but how can I make you happy oppa?

Oppa, I'm sorry for all I've done, sorry for killing our parents. Sorry for being born. If I did not get slipped on the Riverside, Eomma and appa would still be here. If didn't chase the toy car that I bought which I was planning to give you. For your achievements in school.

I love you, Jungkook Op----

*Flashback*

I write and write until I can, having difficulty breathing. If God will have mercy on me, please, even if he just said Hi or got here. His presence is enough for me. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I clutched my chest.

The doctor said I need to go for surgery but how can I make Oppa happy. I don't even know if I will survive or die. The writings being wet by my tears, as I clutched the pen in my hands.

Third-person pov

Mrs. Han pleaded on her knees in front of Jeon Jungkook. Him wearing the school uniform. 'Seoul University'

Begging and begging

Mrs. Han said many things and asked him to forgive her. Her who's last day is now.

"I beg you, Jinha, she suffered enough, why can't you forgive her?" she sobbed as he looked up to the boy who's now turning away

"She killed my parents, and you expect me to forgive her? Pathetic-"

His words got interrupted and his breath hitched at what he heard

Halting his step

"It's her last day, she has Heart Cancer, and all she wished is one hug Jeon Jungkook, One hug, from her brother."

"The doctor said she refused to have the surgery, we don't know why, but please, for her, come with me" Mrs. Han bowed with her head on the dirty floor. Not caring. Not caring about all the people looking at her

Hearing what she said, still confused, he came with her.

And as they reached her hospital room, which was just free. He teared up. The doctors rushing and exiting. He soon remembered what Mrs. Han said, and at that moment, he got through the doctors despite them stopping him. He hugged her and cried.

"Jinha! I'm here, I'm here now, look, wake up stop pre-tending, stop bei-being a sleepyhead and wake up." he sobbed as he saw her face.

"I-I forgive you, wake up! We still need to celebrate your 15th birthday, you still need to attend my graduation. Wake u-"

Despite the girl's condition now, she felt it, she felt how he hugged her. And at that time, after his warm hug, she smiled and sleep. Sleep? Asleep where she will not wake up. Just like what she think her brother wants. But what she didn't know is that it's different. He wasn't happy at all.

The monitor then showed a heartbeat having a now low heartbeat and soon it turned into a straight line.

"Jeon Jinha, Death, September 6, 2019, 3:37 pm."

"No, she's not dead! Jinha! Jinha, we promised each other that we'll sing on our wedding day. You promised to go to taekwondo class with me!" he gripped her hand which was now cold. The doctors then pulled her towards the morgue, asking if she'll be buried or cremated. Then he remembered when they're kids, she said she'll have a field filled with lavenders. When she would draw lavenders which was just like a doodle.

"cremate," he said crying

The nurse was cleaning the room, while Jungkook was sitting on the bed of his younger sister. Still can't accept the fact.

"Sir? I think it's hers"

Jungkook pov

I took the diary which was decorated with iron-man. I remembered it,when it's my 10th birthday, and she's 6 years old,it's the gift I got from my friends but I have it to her so that she'll have gifts too.

I flipped through the page and saw the drawings she drew when we were younger. The lavender I drew and the lavender she drew. I laughed again while crying. And then turned to the pages. As I was about to close it, I flipped through a page that had a date on it.

It made me cry and regret. Flipping through the pages, and then I saw the last written diary. Which has a drop of tears as well.

I regretted when I chased her out of the house saying she's not my sister. That she's a killer and all the look they gave her.

I Should've known, I Should've Known It's not your fault.

Yongseo haejwo

Yeodongsaeng

Saranghae