NONESENSE

None sense.

Look. I got a job. But you know, it was not easy. The pay was not great but it isn't bad either. You may ask what kind of job I got but you might not believe me when I say I am a nurse.

Yes. I am a nurse. A good one. But not so luck one.

You may ask why but you may think I am fooling you.

Well, I was so engrossed with trying different fields of nursing. I worked in a private hospital and became a phlebotomist at first, then, a ward and intensive care unit nurse. The pay was too low that when I started a family, my pay became too low it cannot support enough.

Next, I became a community nurse where I met diverse patients and handle different health situations. I thought that becoming a public health nurse was a fulfilling job but working day and night when Covid 19 pandemic struck, I burned out and resigned just to become a Covid19 emergency hired nurse and work in one of Covid 19 isolation facility in a muslim province. But pandemic time had its end but I could not just leave the district hospital I worked for even if the pay is unstable and the area was far away from my hometown.

Why did I endure staying there?

Well, maybe because of the work-life balance at first. There, I got to stay in the hospital accomodation for a week while I take my shifts and another week off with my family. Then, when they took me and made me an emergency room nurse, becoming one was so exciting and interesting that you got a lot of emergenicies to take care of like accidents and child birth. There, relationships and influences are so important that you have to be friends with everyone if you want an easy life to the point that you might sold your principles to save your job.

In reality, not everyone will like you so they will try to reap you to identify your limit. And when you got a talent and up for challenge, they will try you. So I became an Operating room nurse for 4 months.

See! If you are up for challenge, you'll get one.

But reailizations is painful when you reach one. I might have tasted bunch of oppurtunities but realizations will knock you off.

I came to a point where I asked myself, "Where am I?", "What do I have after having been through a lot of nursing jobs?"

Shifting one nursing field to another was a privilege, indeed. However, I

failed to secure my future for experiencing different shifts.

I was so unlucky landing one contract to another but failed to secure a nursing job in the government.

But let me inform you, in my country, it is so hard to look for a regular job. More Nurses are paid in contractual bases or as job orders even if the medical field badly needs our services.

The government cannot sustain the medical manpower because they cannot afford to hire enough of us. Hospitals are built and equipped but are run by underpaid nurses and other employees so as a result, could not give quality services to diverse clients.

See. I wrote nonsense.

Oh God, it is really bullshit kind of reality.